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Pillar of Light
27 November 2011 @ 12:29 am
It never stops does it? Every day we are just waiting for whoever is searching for us, to finally end it. Every day I wonder if I am going to be next. There is nothing I can do to keep it from happening.

I am sick of being scared. I am sick and tired of the wondering. When will it end?
Mood: stressedstressed
27 November 2011 @ 01:42 am
[Filter: Private]

Maybe it's because I've been spending so much time out of the hole that I'm really noticing, but I'm pretty sure something's up with Lauren. Mean, it's not like she's acting like she was when I was watching her to help Calaith. Or, you know, just in casual conversation. At first I thought it was all part of the act, but no, she's doing the same thing when she's around just us. It's like she's not even herself here anymore. She's not really having fun at all. Or fun to talk to. Even fun to listen to I guess. She's usually passionate when she's about, but now it's like she's just ice.

Kinda makes sense to be icy in Korin, but it's just not her. Not really my place to do anything about it either. Hell, haven't really gotten over my own problems the hole gave me. Not much help when I'm not whole myself, right? Yeah.

Not really doing myself any favours cutting myself off here either. Easier just to kind of frigg around with the people here, trying to glean some stuff. Need to do something around here again, I think.
27 November 2011 @ 02:15 am
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

It's hard not to notice that there are political problems emerging around the entire world right now. Korin has always seemed on its last legs whenever you read about any of its wars, but the sheer frequency and urgency of the latest tidings... Well! I'm rather glad that we don't have any trade with them to be disrupted at all. It seems like the whole country is on the brink, and they are dragging Dentoria in with them.

Dentoria! I'm ashamed for that entire country right now. It's no secret that I've never held the northern citizens of that country in highest regard -- though perhaps it's only the individuals I've met so far -- but to have to put up with that maniac in the midst of a war? I'm a soldier. I've never known war, but I trained for the slight possibility for a very long time. For my time on the council, I held the position that Lord Tarmon could very well have held if his own king hadn't intervened. If I had made an entry like the one he did, I would have been strung up by my own men if the Queen didn't get to me first. In the old days, it would have been a female version of Lord Tarmon on the front of my propaganda -- "This is what Monarchy can do!" I can console myself that our politics here are nowhere near as backward. Our lords are held in check by intense self-interest. If Lord Tarmon faced threats to his own power on a daily basis, he might not so casually blurt out his corruption.

Hanalan doesn't seem in nearly as rough a shape right now. Though, I can certainly see something on the horizon. A rising queen? It looks like there may be a Jewel of the Forest when Prince Finlay takes the throne. I'm not going to speak against a Queen, but the treefolk might do well to start bowing now if she can keep it up into her reign. When I do get my position back I will have to make a point of getting a spy, and putting her there. She doesn't seem as mature as our own Queen has become, and two countries being ruled by fiery personalities so close to each other... I honestly doubt it will become openly hostile, but intrigues have come from less.

I suppose there will always be conflict somewhere, but the times have become quite interesting as of late. And then there are... domestic issues.

[Filter: Ethne, in Atsirian]

I'm not disturbing your work, am I? I certainly hope I'm not. Or if I am, that I am disturbing it in a rather good way!
27 November 2011 @ 02:37 am
[Filter: Sylea, Ferselle, Noye]

So far it looks like stopping really was the best thing we could do. Spirits are up, and people are marching just a little bit faster now that they're rested. It might not last past the first big snow storm, but, uh, yeah. I'm confident we're doing better now.

I, uh, started going over all our supply lists now that we're on the road, and so far it looks like we didn't leave anything behind. I checked before we left, but it's always good to check these things twice...
Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
27 November 2011 @ 06:03 pm


Has anybody ever told you that you are the best boyfriend in the entire world? The best! How did you even plan all of this?

Oh my gosh, I don't even know what to say. I have the best boyfriend in the world. You are such a sweetheart.
Mood: lovedloved
27 November 2011 @ 06:14 pm
[Filter: Private, in Kilian]

29 years old, and still here I sit.

How long has it been, honestly? It's nearly a month now since Lauren ... pulled me out of that thing. It's years since -- since they died. And still, here I sit, wrapped up in all of this like ...

Dragons, this is so much easier said than done. I don't ...

I can't face her. It's not as though she wants to see me, either. And how could I blame her for that? She didn't have to come in and get me out of there at all. She didn't owe anything to me. How am I supposed to ...

Later. Think about it later. A step at a time.

[Filter: Aileen]

I owe you an apology, I think. ... And thanks, for trying to pull me out of that dream. I'm sorry I wasn't receptive.
Mood: sadsad
27 November 2011 @ 06:51 pm
[Filter: Celeste]

Have you spoken to Lauren at all, since that last puzzle? And I mean, honestly talked to her as a friend, and not as her lady in waiting? Lady Tabea is concerned. She actually came to me and asked if something had happened between the two of you. I would ask Lauren, but I doubt she will tell me the truth.
Mood: worriedconcerned
27 November 2011 @ 06:59 pm
Heh, you know how kids just have a way of askin questions all the time? Sam's definitely at that age where he's just askin bout everything. His favourite word right now is "Why?" Good thing he's still too young to tell when me and Sandra are bein a bit easy on the truth, but let's say there's a few questions I'm hopin he's not gonna ask anytime soon. Heh, reminds me of some of the things my Dad used to tell me, just to get me to shut up for a minute!
Mood: amusedamused
27 November 2011 @ 07:50 pm
[Filter: Ree]

... Been quiet without those two here. Not exactly the homecoming they would've wanted either. And you sure like making an entrance, don't you. Glad that you're back, though. Even when Korin feels like it's crumbling round the edges.
Mood: crankycranky
Lady Eliza of Temair
27 November 2011 @ 08:04 pm
I think Ethan quite misses Eara more than he will readily admit. He is at the age now where he is more guarded in expressing his feelings, and his father is quietly encouraging of it. Stoicism has its benefits, no doubt, but still, I find myself wishing he would make an exception for his mother.
Mood: contemplativecontemplative