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25 November 2011 @ 01:14 am
I still can't really believe this is happening.

I mean, all the news we're getting is so -- This can't be happening, that's all. The way everybody looks sick around here is just so --

But, um, I can't believe I'm getting a promotion for this. I mean, everything just is moving so fast. I didn't think I'd ever be leaving Rayla at all, but here I am, getting Eadyth ready to go ...

I hope it's not all as bad as everybody's saying it probably is. It can't be that bad ... It's not like anybody here's seen it. It's all just people guessing, that's all.

That has to be all.

I guess I don't know why I'm writing here when I need to be getting ready to go, but I can't stop pacing and all the questions keep running around my head ... I guess I was hoping this would make them stop. Maybe I'll feel better once we're in the air.
Mood: nervousnervous
25 November 2011 @ 01:01 pm
[Filter: Father Mulcahy]

Lady Fayre said that you were looking for me, and that you were worried. I apologize it has been so long since I wrote or came to visit. There have been some complications as of late. Was there something specific that you wished to discuss, or were you merely concerned for my own well being? Excuse me if I cannot help but assume it is the former.
Mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable
25 November 2011 @ 01:12 pm
The court has been terribly frustrating as of late. All of this ridiculousness between Autumn and Rebecca is dragging everyone down and simply ruining the mood! Not even the musicians have been able to bring the mood up to the court's high standards. Why can't everyone simply set aside their differences? At least it has not been nearly as bad as it was during the Masquerade Ball on the Night of the Dead. That was entirely dreadful, even if it was rather exciting for such a brief few moments.

Oh! And of course I cannnot possibly blame you, Autumn, as you are only trying to make everything better! I hate taking sides in drama, but I will make an exception just this once!
Mood: annoyedannoyed
25 November 2011 @ 01:15 pm
Anton~!!! Now that Joshua's all better and running around again can you please help me clean up the house because it's really really gross and I have dishes to do and laundry needs done and I still have to make dinner and Joshua is running around and being all crazy and I really really need help and it'd be really really great if you could at least help with laundry cuz I can do the rest while watching Joshua but I can't do laundry and it needs done!
Mood: exhaustedexhausted
25 November 2011 @ 10:39 pm
[Filter: Kail and Sawyer]

Heh, well, don't you two look hard at work over here? It looks like you're making some decent progress, but you've been at it for a while, there ...

Do you mind if I help out? We might finish faster, that way. Heh, and maybe I can absorb some of the shocks for you. I think I've seen Kail jump all the way up to the ceiling a few different times, now.

What a strange little mechanic for a puzzle. It seems so ... mean-spirited.
Mood: boredbored
25 November 2011 @ 10:46 pm
[Filter: Private]


Oh, that's ...

That ... that man's leg was ...

[Filter: Public]

Lord Keran ...

I'm sorry if I wasn't meant to see, but it didn't seem to be a secret. Those people who just came into the castle looked very, very injured. Are they going to be all right? Who are they? What happened to them? Who did that to them? Who would ...

Is there anything that I can do? I ... I am the Lady, here, after all. If those were your our people ...
Mood: nauseatednauseated
25 November 2011 @ 10:49 pm
[Filter: Isanae]


I haven't been looking in my journal, of late. I just did, and --

Is that what's had you looking as pale as a sheet and sour as an august apple, lately? I thought you were just tired from all of these new responsibilities. I should have known. They could never affect you like this, not you.

I swear, don't listen to a word he says. He's a pig, that's all. A fat, ugly pig, and you're so much better than him that nothing he says or does can even touch you. Take my word for it, Isanae, you are so far above him that it doesn't matter. None of it matters.

Dragons, he may be trying to humiliate you, but he's only doing harm to himself. I fail to understand how he expects these people to ever take him seriously -- especially once they're used to your rule.

Ugh. The whole thing has completely spoiled my appetite for dinner.
Mood: sickdisgusted
25 November 2011 @ 10:54 pm
[Filter: Private]

I wonder where he's going. I wonder what he's going to do there.

... he loved Lucre. He always did. He loved going out and being amongst the people and helping make their lives better, but whenever he came home to Lucre, there was just that look on his face. It made everything all right, being home. I can understand that, can't I? And now that's gone from him.

And he loved the priesthood, too. There was nothing else that he wanted. I always thought he was so damn simple. How can something so selfless and draining possibly make anybody that happy? I wonder what happened, there. Did he quit? Did he get expelled? Or did he just ... leave, without another word? I don't know which is worst.

I wonder ...

I wonder if he knows what I did. Does he think he's deserved all this? Or does he realize that I lied to them all, that I told them he was a monster when he was really just ... too good to realize that everybody makes mistakes.

One moment, I think it'll be better if he hates me. I deserve it, after all. I deserve worse. But then I think ... I can't imagine anything worse than him just sitting in his room, alone, with nothing, and blaming me for it. I deserve it. I so do. But ...


I wonder if it was even worth it. I did it all so that I could keep my family ... and now it's fraying at the seams.
Mood: indescribableindescribable
25 November 2011 @ 11:45 pm

We were becalmed, at the end there. Days and days of just sitting on the decks of the ship, staring up at the sky and the limp sails, praying for a wind, a gale, for a hurricane, because at least it wouldn't have been nothing.

I swear, I've never looked so deep into the eyes of utter despair as that.

But finally, finally, we've landed, and I'm back on Megami soil.

I've been on a ship for that long before. I think my last trip took nearly as long as that. But it felt like years. If I never take a boat again, it'll be too soon.
Mood: relievedrelieved
Seraphine (Elina)
25 November 2011 @ 11:48 pm
[Filter: Private]

Ian worried that they're going to call us home. He doesn't know what'll happen if they do.

I wish they would, no matter who might be waiting there. I'm so tired of this. Why hasn't it been finished, yet? And I have to just keep playing along. I don't have any choice.

... Seraphine would never stop smiling, even though all this. She'd love to be there for her friends.

But me ...

Was it all true, then?

[Filter: Rebecca]

Ah, you seem very peckish lately, Rebecca ...
Mood: frustratedfrustrated