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15 November 2011 @ 03:57 am
[Filter: Lady E--

I um ...

[Filter: Private]

Ooh ... I ... how am I going to ...

I --

No. I have to just ... just come out and say it and be as strong as I can be, because if I don't at least try this ... if I don't ... then who will?

With everything that they must be going through ... and daddy ...

[wet spots appear]

daddy ...

[Filter: Lady Eve]

Please, Lady Eve. Please, can you let me go? I want to go and do what I can ... I ... I know you said that you couldn't afford the soldiers, but if it were just me ... if I could just go on my own, to help my family ... I ... please ... I need to help them ...
Mood: draineddrained
Aes of Cresyn
15 November 2011 @ 03:26 pm

Is everyone else just as excited about the party as I am? Well, actually~~ that's not a very fair question, is it? Since I'm the one throwing it and all~ ♥

I really do hope that every who has responded will be coming for sure! This is just going to be the best occasion ever! Also, Edalene~~ I just wanted to make sure, once again, that you'd do us the honor of being the judge to pick out the jewels of the night. After all, we all know that yours will be the best there, regardless. So you definitely seemed like the perfect person for the job. ♥

Mm~~ so, remember, there's going to be a mystery prize basket full of goodies for the winner! This is all just so exciting, isn't it? I've gotten almost everything ready for the big day~ ♥
Mood: cheerfulcheerful
15 November 2011 @ 05:24 pm
[Filter: Irving]

[Filter: Private]

stupid stupid stupid stop thinking about it

[Filter: Aileen]


Do you want to go down and see what the next puzzle is?
Mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable
15 November 2011 @ 07:58 pm
[Filter: Private]

...even now I still don't know what to do. I just...I love Adam, but not the way a girl is supposed to love a guy. I'm still...

Then again, maybe I don't even know that. I was so sure for all these years, but maybe I need to actually have sex to find out. Oh, that sounds so dumb! But what if it's true for me?

Either way I'll probably end up marrying the guy anyway, either because I actually love him like that or because I don't want people to get any funny ideas about me. So I might as well try. Elizabeth says it's not worth it, and maybe it won't be, but maybe I need to make that mistake myself.

I'll need tea, though. I'll have to ask Brenda for some, it's so embarrassing.
Mood: frustratedfrustrated
15 November 2011 @ 08:38 pm
Good gracious! You know, I understand your position, Rebecca, I do, of course you'd want to defend that husband of yours. Of course! But let me be perfectly honest! He isn't comporting himself with any more grace than Dickon is, and frankly, it's quickly arriving to the point where I'd be perfectly happy never to see either one of them ever again! They ruin everything with their constant bickering! Everyone feels compelled to take a side, it's all anyone ever wants to talk about anymore! Who stole what from whom and when and why and for heaven's sake it's just so tiresome!

Can't you reign that husband of yours in, Rebecca? I have half a mind to agree with Ebony; no innocent man turns that shade of purple. If he isn't guilty, he ought to stop acting so suspicious! And frankly, the rumours aren't doing you any favors, either! I'm not going to go pointing fingers and naming names, but there's an entire faction of people who think that you and Colin are in on this thieving business together!

I don't understand the contention. Can't we split things down the middle? Is there a problem with doing things that way? Why isn't there a will? This is the entire reason those documents exist! How could he be so inconsiderate to his heirs? How could he be so inconsiderate to the entire Court!
Mood: angryangry
15 November 2011 @ 08:52 pm

This is dreadful! I don't have nearly enough jewels to compare with half the ensembles I've caught glimpses of, you know. And yes, I've seen glimpses! Call me a snoop if you must, but I'm so awfully overmatched, I couldn't help but sneak in a few quick peeks at the competiton.

It is a competition, isn't it?

I've heard so many different rumours! The latest says that Lady Aes intends to gift a prize to whoever it is she deems most dazzling in the theme of her party, and I cannot help but hope it's true. It's so different from anything else we've done, yes? And though I am sure to lose, I think I will have great fun gossiping about who might win, while I am there, oh, yes.

Oh! And, Faedya, please tell me you are reading! A letter arrived for you just a few moments ago. The courier was very coy about it, but I do believe it may well be an invitation, and if I don't know who it's from very soon, I may die of curiosity! You don't want that, do you? Surely not.
Mood: excitedpumped
15 November 2011 @ 09:07 pm
[Filter: Elden]

I know it's a perfectly irrational thought, but I cannot help but feel as though at this point we are being purposely toyed with. Of course they act again conveniently within the very short window they had during which neither of us was paying very close attention. Of course. Naturally. Why not~?

Nearly two weeks ago, and we're only just finding out. If anyone were more willing to talk about this, perhaps -- but of course not, no, far too unpleasant, just sweep that under the rug until it inevitably happens again, isn't that right? Honestly.

Doesn't anyone else around here want this to end? I wish I could just shake them all and lecture them like the children they are!
Mood: frustratedfrustrated
Jessica of Mera
15 November 2011 @ 09:26 pm
[Filter: Private]

This is a nightmare. How am I supposed to concentrate on anything, knowing what could be happening, knowing what --

How could she do this?

I know Lysander. He wouldn't have done this with her there, marching right in and just taking whatever she wants like she does. I know her type, I know exactly what went on there. Of course Lysander blames himself. He always does. But I know.

We never should have split up. I never should have let it happen. How could I be so stupid? Oh, I just couldn't make a scene~ I couldn't be the big loud bad guy speaking out against her, not when everyone wanted so much to have someone like her to believe. Stupid, so stupid. I knew what an awful idea it was from the start, and I just let it happen.

Dragons, please don't be so cruel.
Mood: indescribableindescribable
15 November 2011 @ 09:55 pm
Glenn, ah

[Filter: Glenn]

Ah... is this right? If someone who isn't my brother can read this you should tell me right this instant, or, I'll ah, I don't know what I'll do.
Mood: optimisticoptimistic
15 November 2011 @ 10:51 pm
Oh my, I truly have been busy lately~ Making sure all is well in Fairen has been a time consuming task. It is a wonder how Father did it. I hope that one day, I can ask him how~ I do feel awful for neglecting my honoured guests. Especially my dear nephews and niece. I simply must make up for my neglect somehow~
Mood: deviousdevious
15 November 2011 @ 11:02 pm
The jewellery stall is going well, I guess. I'm not making enough money to give up my job at the Scales, but it's ... nice. I mean, it's nice to know that people actually want to buy the things I make. It makes me feel good! And the extra money makes me feel even better!
Mood: pleasedpleased
15 November 2011 @ 11:21 pm
[Filter: Private]

I do with I could ... ah. Stop having that nightmare.

It does make my headaches much worse, with those images just ... floating merrily around my head all day like that, haa ...~ An old lady's mind does tend to wander, I'm afraid, and she can hardly help where it goes ... ah.

[Filter: Da

No. No, now, don't you go doing that. You were fortunate it didn't work, the last time you tried. It doesn't matter if all roads lead to Lucre. You can just choose to travel in the opposite direction.

[Filter: Lauren]

Ah, now, dear ... I have it on good authority that there are fresh, hot ginger snaps cooling in the kitchen, and I'm sure I could get use a basketful if I promise to do some cooking in return, later on! They do love my cupcakes, here, even though I can't make them with frosting, most days! Hm, and maybe even some cocoa~? I can't make any promises, but I can see what I can do, haa.

Well? How does that sound? Surely you want some company, for once?
Mood: frustratedfrustrated
Kara (Aekaran)
15 November 2011 @ 11:28 pm
[Filter: Private]

I just can't stop seeing it.

I can't stop

[Filter: Davan]

Whatever it is that we have instead of a plan, it's not going to serve as any sort of long term solution. I know we were going to discuss what to do next once we made our escape, well.

What are we doing? Aside from the obvious: proloning the inevitable.
Mood: indescribableindescribable
15 November 2011 @ 11:30 pm
[Filter: Private]

I wonder if Ren liked Harcha. Sometimes I do miss the smell of grapes ...

Well, not just grapes. Grapes don't really have a smell until wining season. I don't know. The country in general, I guess. It's sort of --

Blah, this is totally coming out all wrong. It's not like that. I like Floran, I love Floran. I don't want to go back to Harcha like ever. This isn't some secret plea for life to come and sweep me away back to the inn where I can wait tables and help Mark with inventory, kill me now. I like this better. This is better.

But Floran just doesn't smell the same. It always smells like ... I don't know, people. I love people, I just ...

Fresh air, I guess.

Whatever, this is even more pointless than I knew it would be when I wrote the filter. I don't care.
Mood: nostalgicnostalgic