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29 October 2011 @ 02:23 am
Finally, some good news. Boss says he's closing shop for the Night of the Dead, so I might finally have a night to myself for once. Sure, it's one less day to work off my debt, but I'm going to enjoy it while I can. There's gotta be somethin to do in a city this big, right?

Floran seems like the kinda place that would have a hell of a party goin on. Anything to give me a chance to forget about work and debt for a few hours.
Mood: excitedexcited
29 October 2011 @ 02:44 am
[Filter: Private]

Ever since we left I can't stop thinking about her. Could be worse, I guess. At least it's nice thinking about her now, rather than wishing I could forget. It makes me wonder, if I stayed in Kilia longer, or went back sooner, would she have been better off?

Not I'll never find out. Probably better that way.

[Filter: Aiden, in Kilian]

... so. How's

You've been quiet.
Mood: indescribableindescribable
29 October 2011 @ 12:09 pm
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

Hn ... it's nice to know that Andrew has been saved from the grasp of those awful machines ... but the amount of time and energy that has been put into getting him out of there, well ... it seems as if it's been so long since they were trapped in there. Mm ... and trying to help them by going into such personal thoughts and dreams, well ... I think I'd much rather leave it to those who are comfortable with them ... even going into Andrew's, I felt as if ... hm ...

The least I could do, I suppose, is just make sure that those taking care of the dreamers are getting their rest as it's needed. Especially that Fayre ... I think it's time I checked up on her.
Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
29 October 2011 @ 03:39 pm
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

Well, I guess Lady Rhoswen understands it all now, doesn't she? How awful for her. And awkward for everyone!

I wish Firuz hadn't just ignored her that way. I understand why, yes, but it doesn't make it any less cruel.

I feel all -- dirty! As though I encouraged it all, just by being there with Firuz at all. I thought I was helping her, but now I can't help but wonder if I only made it worse. He was using me, just as Karlesta Faedya says, but I expected him to at least be subtle! Hm. I will have to find some way to make this up to her, I think. Once she is feeling better ...
Mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable
Ian (Agi)
29 October 2011 @ 05:12 pm
Ah, well, I think my costume is about finished. And just in time, too. I finally found a good mask for it, and I've got a fitting later today that should be the last one.

You know, things here for the Night of the Dead are so different from back home in Dentoria. It was so strange at first, but now ... well, I think I might miss it a little, when Seraphine and I go back home. It's going to be very strange, to go back to lighting candles in the church instead of having a party with the court. I think most everyone in Eblar would think me crazy for saying so, though.

Anyway, this masque is sounding like it's going to be quite the affair, isn't it? I'm looking forward to seeing everyone's costumes at the party. I hope they're all as marvelous as you've all been saying they will be!
Mood: busybusy
Anemone of Lahn
29 October 2011 @ 05:52 pm
[Filter: Private]


It's everything I can do not to turn around and fly east. I think I would give anything to see his face again. Even if it were just to see him for a day. It wouldn't work though, no matter how much I wish it could. We both have responsibility now. Going to him now, would be seen as going against Rayla. We can't afford to sever our alliance just like that. I have to keep my faith that Lady Eve will find a way to maket his all right. It isn't too late for Rayla to help us.

Instead, I need to get to that mountain pass. I need to find out what in the hell my men are doing down there. There's a reason they haven't written, and I'm going to find out what it is. I will not put up with insubordination and laziness when Northern Dentoria is already breathing down our necks, and Lahn is filled to the brim with refugees and our stores are depleting quickly. I hope I'm wrong. I hope that there is a good explanation for their silence.

I'll be there tomorrow, I'll find everything is just fine, and I'll fly back home. Meanwhile I still have to worry that Dafydd isn't ruining what little progress we've managed to make in calming the tempers in Lahn. All it would take is one false move, and the entire city would be in an uproar.
Mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable
29 October 2011 @ 06:33 pm
[Filter: Private]

It is some sort of cruel joke, that I'm forced to remember everything. I suppose I deserve it. I should have to suffer every bit as much as I made Dagda suffer to pull me back to reality. I can't imagine how hard it must have been for him. Why could I not see what pain I was putting him through? Why wasn't that enough to get me out? Even Celeste was there. I've barely spoken to her in months, and she came in after me. I cannot imagine how much more she must hate me now.

The man she saw in there wasn't me, but it could have been me. It was so real. I refuse to let myself become that person. I refuse to allow Eina to become what I saw in that... other reality, dream, whatever it was that I was trapped in. Everything I am, I owe it to Dagda. If it wasn't for him, everything would be different. I can never, ever, let myself forget that.

[Filter: Dagda]

Thank you. Thank you for not giving up on me. Thank you for putting yourself through everything that you did, to get me back.

I'm sorry.
Mood: guiltyguilty
29 October 2011 @ 06:45 pm
[Filter: Eve]

[very rushed writing]

Dragons, that was too close. If it weren't for Brianna, I --

We're out. Sorry it took so long to write, I ... well, I couldn't write. There was no time. We're still not completely out of this mess.
Mood: workingworking
29 October 2011 @ 07:05 pm
Inara, you should be sure to tell Clarissa for me that I'm amazed at how much work she managed to put into that party, considering Eona was only just born. I realize that you and Daisy did most of it, but still. She should be proud of herself. I know she's been exhausted.

And please, tell her to rest, too. There's no reason to push herself.

[Filter: Demi]

Was I a good distraction?
Mood: contentcontent
29 October 2011 @ 07:17 pm
[Filter: Private, in Kilian]

Look at them, tugging at her on either side like two dogs with a rag. Do they think they're doing her and favours? She'll only be torn apart by it, ripped down the middle by the force of their separate wills. Do they not see that? How can they not see that.

It's so stupid.

If ... if only I'd known days ago I could go in like I have. I should have just ... faced my fears and tried. We could have prevented it from getting to this point. Now ...

... well. Well, something needs to be done. And they're not accomplishing it. So ...

[Filter: Keagan and Druce, in Trade]

All you're doing is confusing her.
Mood: frustratedfrustrated
Queen Edalene of Atsiria
29 October 2011 @ 07:37 pm
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

... it's perfect.


I hate doing this. I hate it. I don't want to. This is my family's history. Queen Raesha took it for a reason, and Westa doesn't deserve to get it back. She doesn't. I feel like I'm betraying something, for here, and I hate it, I just hate it.

But ... but it's perfect. It is. Nobody will be able to say that I'm holding to a petty grudge with this. Or that I'm buying Westa off, either. This is nothing like that. I hate it ... but it's brilliant, isn't it? I thought of it all my own, and it's just brilliant.

I wonder what Mother would think. Would she be proud? Or disappointed?

[a pause]

Reeve would know.

[Filter: Joseph, in Atsirian]

Joseph ...

I'm sorry.
Mood: confusedmixed
Celeste of Franel
29 October 2011 @ 08:04 pm
[Filter: Private]

... I suppose ..

I suppose it's true, what he said, that time. Ah, I ... I was just so ... offended. How dare he compare ... that to ... to me and Jace, or ... or anything that's ... and how dare he judge me, or, or ...

Ah, but ...

... I don't know, I -- I don't know. It's so ... it's just ...

And I don't have the time to be worrying about this, not now, I ... I still feel like I'm so far away from Jonathan, and ... and I can't -- I can't. I can't. I won't. Aileen doesn't even seem ... invested in Jonathan, anymore. If I ... if I have to get him out alone, how do I possibly think I have the time or the energy to just keep thinking about Gebann and his ... his ... illness. If it's even

It'll just ... have to wait. And I need to ... focus. Focus on Jon, on ... on helping him, on getting him out so that we can just ... just move on and put this all behind us ... just ... move on ...

I ... I'm so tired ...

And And I

Oh, Dragons, I don't want to. I don't want to. Why do I ... why should I ... I can't ...

[Filter: Franelcrew]

I --

I ... ah, I think that I might quickly go and just ... get a little bit of fresh air, and ... clear my head, a little bit ... before I continue. Is ... does anyone else want to try helping Jonathan ...? Anyone ... anyone at all ...?

I ... I'll really just ... need a moment, I ... I'm ...
Mood: stressedoverwhelmed
29 October 2011 @ 08:04 pm

I um ... hm ...

I came out into the forest earlier today to ah ... well, to forage for nuts and mushrooms, but ah ... well, I stopped to practice my magic for a bit, and before I knew it, it became dark ... I ah ... think I might be lost.
Mood: worriedworried
Lord Hasten of Lireth
29 October 2011 @ 08:26 pm
[Filter: Amaeyra]

I put Lannis out to pasture, today.

The new yearling is nowhere near so prepared as I would like, but there was no choice in the matter. If it should come to war ... Lannis has some years in him, yet, but he would never be able to carry me into battle. There are times when circumstances force us to make decisions that are ... less than satisfying, but nevertheless the right thing to do.

The new animal shows a great deal of promise. I chose the bloodlines myself, in preparation for this day, and while I have not had as much time to work with him personally as I would prefer, he is spirited without being difficult. I believe that he will be in all ways an ideal mount.

... he won't be Lannis, though. Lannis has been there since ...

Well. There is no need to be thinking about that. As I said, he has years left, whether or not he spends them wearing saddle and stirrups.

It is somewhat strange, is it not, how old we suddenly find ourselves. Certainly, it feels as if several lifetimes have passed since we were those small children by the riverbank, but to truly consider how many years we've passed. I remember Lannis as a newborn, and now he is an old man. And you, sister. Twenty-six, now. How time goes by.
Mood: pensivepensive
29 October 2011 @ 08:35 pm
[Filter: Private]

Just breathe. Just ... just breathe. He'll be there, and then nothing bad can happen. Nothing at all.

[Filter; Lord Glenn]

Ah, my lord, do you ... do you have some time? I thought ... maybe we could go for a walk ...?
Mood: determineddetermined
29 October 2011 @ 08:49 pm
[Filter: Private]

This is what I didn't want. The storm could have wavered, and left us alone. We could have been left with a perfect season for travel. Instead, we're ... perhaps we're not as badly off as we could be, but these storms are not known for their safety. We'll need secure shelter, and time to make for it. And luck.

[Filter: Erin, in Kilian]

It appears the mediums that the girl consulted were right. The horizon looks very disturbing. Do you remember that cave we passed by this morning? As much as I hate to waste time gained, we might be forced to turn back toward it.
29 October 2011 @ 09:48 pm
[Filter: Lauren]

Why the hell aren't you down there helping Celeste, right now? You must have seen her writing earlier, she can't do this on her own. And no one else will help her with Jonathan because everyone else is uncomfortable with everything that happened between him and you! You and Celeste are the only ones that can do this, and you're going to let her keep throwing herself into that thing because you're too proud or stubborn or whatever to help Jonathan out of this thing, really?

Don't do it for him, then, whatever. Do it because if you don't, Celeste is going to collapse any minute now. Haven't you been paying any attention to her at all? Gebann, Nessa and Jonathan, she's been throwing herself into all three since this whole thing started. Everyone keeps talking about how Fayre is going to kill herself, well, Celeste isn't very far behind. Haven't you noticed?
Mood: angryangry
29 October 2011 @ 09:53 pm
[Filter: Private]

I guess ... I guess I should really just stop trying, shouldn't I? He's been gone for days and I don't think Ash will turn up anywhere. He's really gone ...

I've had him for three years, now ... and he was getting old, I know it. It's just that he disappeared so suddenly. I didn't even get a chance to really do anything for him ... not even bury him. I know he was just a mouse, but ... still ...
Mood: sadsad
Nerida of Allba
29 October 2011 @ 10:06 pm
[Filter: Private]

Hm, it has been quiet here, now that Lady Mariana and her children have gone, with Lady Bunny and Lady Gloria as well. I think Aaron misses having Tobias as a playmate, but it is pleasing to see him form friendships that will serve him in good stead. But still, this quiet ... I know Lord Morgan and Lady Vivien are thinking of what to do next. So much depends on what will happen when the march eventually reaches the border, and if war is declared, well ...

In the North, women rule while the men ride to war. I've always envied that little bit of confidence they have been given. If Lord Morgan decides to lend his experience and advice, he will tell Lady Vivien to leave for Rowan, not to rule it in his stead, but to keep her safe. He will want Aaron in Rowan, because there should always be a man in Rowan in times of war, even though Aaron is only a boy, and I won't go anywhere without Aaron. A pity that I will miss seeing what Northern women do when their men are gone.

[Filter: Kiefer]

Love, you hardly write~ Not that I hold that against you, with how busy you must be, but I thought I should point out that it would not hurt to do so, every once in a while. Just to calm your terrible nag of a wife~
Mood: contemplativecontemplative
29 October 2011 @ 10:10 pm

Well, I'm alive. It was hard, but I managed it. Maybe a little too well, I mean, what's going to stop the boss from asking me again? I guess it wasn't that bad. The meeting wasn't full of old men. There were old ladies! And some men my age. Not many girls, though. Maybe they had something better do, but hey, once they hear I attend to these meetings, they'll come by~

Yep, always the optimist, I am.
29 October 2011 @ 10:30 pm
[Filter: Rhoswen, in Atsirian]

Hey, come on, Rhosie. You can't just shut everyone out! Don't think I won't break down the door.

[Filter: House Karnach, except Rhoswen, in Atsirian]

I'm trying to write to her, but she won't let me in, either. I guess the staff has orders to keep everyone out. And to keep the kitchen busy, apparently, but that's Rhosie, for you.
Mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable
29 October 2011 @ 10:42 pm
[Filter: Private]

The city has been much more manageable since they left ... it ah ... it seems as if things are finally returning to normal. Though, I suppose it'll still be a very long time until things actually go back to what feels normal. It's been nice being able to visit home a bit more often, though ...

Mother has been so worried about everything, and ah ... Aunt Susan, as well.

I have to ... I'll have to try much harder, from now on ... to protect the citizens of Lireth.
Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
Lord Derek of Allba
29 October 2011 @ 11:05 pm
[Filter: Constance]

Constance, love, it seems to me that it has been far too long since we last spoke. I am sorry to say that I have been preoccupied with matters on my end. How has everything been for you, my love? Ah, and how are the children fairing?
Mood: curiouscurious