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23 October 2011 @ 02:26 am
[Filter: Finlay]

Nice fucking future Queen you have there. You pick that one out yourself?
Mood: amusedamused
Rhoswen of House Karnach
23 October 2011 @ 03:06 am

Oh -- what?


I was going out tonight, but they just -- cancelled me! Just like that. That doesn't make any sense at all! This party is not exactly high profile, they need all the big names they can get. And they didn't cancel Reiz. Just me. I don't understand!

I was already all strapped into this dress, too. You have no idea how much effort it takes when you're this size, I swear. It's going to take an hour to get out of it. Maybe I should just invite some people here, why not? It's still where I live, for now! I'm allowed to do that!

That's so strange. And offensive. I'm going to say terrible things about Ishaena at court tomorrow, you can be sure about that!
Mood: confusedconfused
23 October 2011 @ 03:49 am
[the writing is uneven]

[Filter: Franelcrew]

Dragons, Keagan wasn't kidding. I -- I think I'm going to be sick.

How are we even supposed to get them out of this? I couldn't even think of anything to say, much less do, and it was so -- I can't even think about it. Oh Dragons.
Mood: nauseatednauseated
Queen Edalene of Atsiria
23 October 2011 @ 04:28 am
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

Nothing I can think of is big enough.

Everyone has to really believe it. They need to know that I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, even if they know that I still don't like her. I can't just give her back Connor. And I -- I won't. He is good at what he does, he is. It can't look like I'm just trying to press a button and undo it all. It doesn't work like that and I know it. I'm not changing it, I'm just ... I'm saying that I'm sorry for it.

And nothing is right for that, nothing.

It's all just too piddling and small and ... condescending. Yes. That's it. Jewels or gowns or any of it, it makes it feel like I'm trying to say that I bought him, and I know that's what people will say. I know it is. And I don't want to ask for help, either. Not from Joseph or Aes or Ellisae ... it needs to be something that I've thought of on my own.

... if Matthew were here, I would ask him for help. And I know that he'd know just what to do. He was so good at this sort of thing. He always was. Sometimes, I just

I need to keep thinking. There's something, something perfect. I know there is. I just need to think of it. This is just ... so hard. And I hate it. It's awful. Trying to find something like this for Westa. It doesn't matter what's changed between Reeve and I, that day ... what she did ... what she said ... ...

Reeve ...

... oh, Reeve ...

[Filter: Reeve, in Atsirian]

Mood: frustratedfrustrated
23 October 2011 @ 04:42 am
[Filter: Private]

I'm not entirely sure what to make of this.

I've known for a good long time that my wife is one to mask herself, and hide certain things away. I've even ... well, to be honest, I've always been one she'll hide things from. I knew that going into this. I shouldn't be so shocked now when I come face to face with it. I know she didn't make this prison on purpose. I know she wouldn't make things so difficult if she had her own way.

The dream ... it's Megam right down to the very textures and smells. I tried to stay back, and watch how everything would unfold. I tried to make myself a small part of the dream to figure out what was happening. Dragons know that if they'd treated her any better, perhaps my judgment would have been less clouded. She wasn't chained. I saw her with plenty of opportunity to escape. I saw how they treated her.

I wish action were the way to break her out of it. If that were the case, I might have been able to free her in the first try...

[Filter: Franelcrew]

I'll warn you all now, anyone who enters Nessa's dream will have to put up with some things that will be uncomfortable to watch. It's perfectly safe, but I'm not exaggerating when I say that we'll want to bring her out of the dream as soon as we can.
23 October 2011 @ 06:58 am
[Filter: Private]

... I saw the look on his face. When he sat with them and touched her hair and the baby's face. Dragons, when he held her. I've never seen Ian look like that before, not ever, but ... but I think ...


It's a beautiful name ...

I just can't

[Filter: Public]

I -- er, I don't think I said, yesterday, Demi. You did ... a really wonderful job in there. I still can't believe how easy it went. It seems we barely got there, and then it was over ...
Mood: confusedconfused
23 October 2011 @ 07:22 am
[Filter: Private]

Fuck am I ever glad that's not me. On either side.

[Filter: Fayre]

Hey ... Fayre, can you wait a second before going right back in, this time? Dragons. You know, you've been -- I haven't seen you leave his side for the time it takes to blink. Have you slept yet? Or eaten? Or ... or well, taken a break at all, really?
Mood: frustratedfrustrated
23 October 2011 @ 11:23 am
[Filter: Private]

...I love her. I've been such an idiot, how could I not recognize the obvious all along? It was the same way with Morgan and even with Alice. Amazing how my own little sister can tell how I feel easier than I can, huh? I mean, women are more perceptive of these things but still.

I'm in love with Eri. And Tina's right, I need to tell her as soon as possible or she could end up with some other guy even worse than what I've heard Kirk was.

[Filter: Eri]

Hey! If you're not busy tonight, would you like to do something?
Mood: determineddetermined
Lissandra of Veirnan
23 October 2011 @ 06:12 pm
[Filter: Private]

Dragons light and dark, this house. If they are not being children, they are living in dread. It could be us next. That is what the commons are thinking, if they've heard. And what is Father and Edeyn supposed to tell them? How are we supposed to protect them if we can't think of what caused this?

Oh, Grandmother. You would know what to do.

[Filter: Linnell]

A few days ago, you came out of Lancel's room looking proud of yourself, and now Father's upset and you're being confined. Father won't talk to me about it at all, so what did you do? Did Lancel tell you anything?
Mood: irritatedirritated
23 October 2011 @ 08:24 pm
[Filter: Private]

It is awful, I know, but all I can think of now is that I'm glad it is not me. To think of what that thing could conjure to keep me their prisoner ... to think of everyone seeing what I would believe ... I'm not sure how I could face everyone, after that. I'm not sure how they will. These dream states sound so personal, so ... awful. Convincing a person in despair that their lives are not reality may be just as difficult as convincing a person who is satisfied and happy.

[Filter: Hasten]

Happy birthday.

[Filter: Amaeyra]

It was your birthday yesterday, wasn't it? I'm sorry, things were ... well, I'm free to wish you a happy birthday now.

I've been thinking about you.
Mood: contemplativecontemplative
23 October 2011 @ 08:43 pm
It's that time of year, ain't it? The Night of the Dead, I mean. The kid wants to carve up his own pumpkin lantern this year, but I don't think I'm gonna get away with puttin a carvin knife in his hands, not with Sandra watchin, heh. I know I'm never gonna hear the end of that! So I guess I'll get Sam to scoop out the pulp. He'll like that. A right soggy goopy mess all mashed up in his fingers, what kinda boy'll hate that?

Let's see how scary I can make my lantern this year, Got a few ideas already!
Mood: excitedexcited
23 October 2011 @ 09:31 pm
[Filter: Lysander]

Two dragons. West stables. We need to get out of here tonight, so I hope you're ready.
Mood: scaredscared
23 October 2011 @ 10:07 pm
[Filter: Franelcrew]

I don't think I can do this... I've tried getting Andrew out twice now and it's just... everything in there just feels wrong. Everyone's like an entirely different person. I don't understand it. The first time I was myself... but apparently in his world I spent all my time at court and he just wanted nothing to do with anyone from court. The second he saw me he got mad, and went on about how he's already told me he isn't coming to court and to stop asking. I didn't get to stay there much longer than that... he just pushed me out.

The next time... I don't know... i guess I was a neighbor or something. I didn't get pushed out as quick but I couldn't get him to talk about us being in Korin. He just didn't care... it was like he put all this behind him when they decided to stay in Floran... and didn't even want to think about it anymore.

If I can't even really talk to Andrew... i don't know how I'd do any better trying to help anyone else. Especially not after what everyone else has written. I hope the rest of you have better luck... but I'm going to have to sit the rest of this out.
Mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable
23 October 2011 @ 10:27 pm
[Filter: Private]


Well, it's worth a shot, right? He can't be worse than Flynn, or Kirk. And at least he's not going to give me any lip about Lenore and Col, or walk out in the middle of dinner or anything.

I guess it's worth a try. And if I don't like it ... well. I don't like it~ And oh well~

[Filter: Arthur]

So ...

When would you like to do something~?

[Filter: Annie]

You are not going to believe this. Are you sitting down? Sit down! I have something to tell you about!
Mood: surprisedsurprised
23 October 2011 @ 10:34 pm
[Filter: Private]

I can't keep this up. I can't eat or drink a damn thing without remembering that feeling. Even the thought of alcohol makes me want to vomit. I haven't slept well in weeks.

Everywhere I go I'm surrounded by death. Why can't I just have a normal life? I put that ugly life behind me. I'm done with the business for good. I don't want to kill anymore. I just want to live. I just want to be with my Casey and not be scared anymore. I want to stop worrying about my past catching up to me yet again. I'm done with assassinations, and secrets, and having enemies.

Now I got this damn voice to remind me of all my mistakes for the rest of my life.

[Filter: Public]

I know it's been a while since we left, but I've been avoiding it.

I went to the house of healing before we left to see if there's anything they could do about my voice. They said there's too much scarring and it's as good as it's ever gonna get. The pain'll go away soon enough, but I'll never get my voice back the way it was. Kept telling me how lucky I was that my voice is all that's wrong with me, and that I shouldn't worry about it. I wish people would stop telling me that. There's some things I just don't want to be reminded about.

I was hoping they were wrong, but after the past few weeks it's getting less and less likely.
Mood: depresseddepressed