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Lord Raoul of Ferselle
30 September 2011 @ 01:37 am
[Filter: Private]

Over the years, I never thought things were going to go perfectly for me. These last few years have been especially trying, though. Even now I'm worried. We have a great army, and there's every possibility we're going to win this war. In the process, our spy says I'm going to lose a niece. When we do win the war we're going to turn around, and throw my other niece onto a funeral pyre with her husband. Oh, brother, your children are so fragile. You survived love, and your children can't.

This Tyren, this man who is holding onto an entire city with nothing but fear, he is doing his job. He wants Noye, and he will have his wish if he has to kill everyone in that city. Tonight we get to watch as his men cut living people into pieces over the walls, and pelt us with them. Well, I hope he isn't expecting much in the way of mercy when we take the city. I've never had the Sylean way with the knife, but I am more than willing to turn the man over to my nephews.

Perhaps I've seen too many days of peace, but I am sure this will be my last war. We'll destroy Varise for this mess, and I will go home to Ferselle.

And before I do, I am going to ask my nephews for Jeann. There will be a moment where it won't be a request they can refuse. Then perhaps I will go home, and be happy.
30 September 2011 @ 02:07 am
[Filter: Private]

Well, everyone's mind has been diverted from the tragic killing at the very least. Not that there was any doubt that it was going to happen, it did seem inevitable.

Self-doubt is perhaps the worst thing to have if you're trying to run a campaign. Ethne is always there to help me through, though I don't think I show her half as much as I feel. This race is going to get heated, and it's starting to get stronger by the day. For the military there is only one possible seat to go around. The Queen's decision had very little effect on the limitations in my particular race, but now everyone is working much harder for it. If the Queen could decide at any time, it's time to pull out the barriers, isn't it?

Well, taking into account all the barriers I've been placing ... I really need to find something. I have experience and history. I've experienced a great many things with the Queen on my time with the council, and I voted to clear King-Consort Matthew's name. And all of these things place me evenly among the greatest of the contenders, and not far in front of them.

I need to distinguish myself, somehow. The downside of being distinguished is how easy it is to overdo it in a way that would throw my bid into the gutters. Thus, self-doubt!
30 September 2011 @ 02:39 am
[Filter: Private]

Huh ... what a way to spend the Festival.

No one to celebrate with ... instead I have a bottle of whiskey and I end up drinking with a bunch of strangers on a moving boat.

Sometimes I wonder why I chose this life. Am I really that much of an idiot? Then I think, "who the fuck knows, or cares?" Guess this is what I've been meant to do ... it's the only thing I know.

Mood: lonelylonely
30 September 2011 @ 02:46 am
[Filter: Daisy]

Hey Daisy!

You know ... I've been meaning to tell you this ... but your gift was awesome! I tried all of them, and they all tasted great! I've never been given a gift like this before. I never get alcohol as a gift, heh. I guess it just goes to show that you still look at me as more of an adult than anyone else does ... I mean, it's great, what I got from everyone else!

Eri really thinks of me a lot. She got me all these clothes because I'm always growing ... and like, Lenore got me this really cool dragon thing ... but yeah.

I guess what I'm trying to get at is, thanks! I'm sorry I couldn't get more for you ... once I get more money, I swear I'll make it up to you. I've been earning little bits, here and there, but yeah ... still, I feel bad. I swear, if I become a soldier, things will be different.
Mood: determineddetermined
Tasha of Mera
30 September 2011 @ 02:55 am
[Filter: Private]

Ugh, I'm in the fight of my life and I'm worried about my boyfriend. This is stupid. Seriously, Tasha, you need to get on with this. Do you even want to talk to Jessica about this until you've figured it all out? No! Which means you need to stop it. You need to pick a side. You're either going to stick with him, or you're going to let him know he's just another rebel. Right now. No second thoughts. Just picking an option, and staying the course! C'mon Tasha, you're smart enough to make this choice. You were all set to go into Law before you had to grow up really fast! Well, court's in session, Tasha. For the prosecution, Tasha of Mera. For the defense


I don't want to be with him.

So .... that's it~ My mind is made up.

[Filter: Former Mera]

So far there's been no sign of Sarrca men trying to get back to their safe house. I've had my eye on it for a while, and it doesn't look like anyone's shown up at all. Not even squatters. I think I might just get away with this one yet~!

[Filter: Jessica]

And there's something else I need to talk to you about~
Acantha (sometimes Talli)
30 September 2011 @ 03:11 am

We'll have just enough water to make it into Razen in two days. We should... It's hard for the caravan leader to say. The measures I took to convince the others were the right thing to do. It was hard, but they've seen reason. I wish we weren't cutting it so close, but the worst that can happen is a dry final day.

My friends are planning a belated festival party when we reach the city, and they're hoping my insight from these journals will help. Does anyone know a good place to celebrate in Razen? They want a night to remember. They will settle for a night they can't remember if that means there's enough to drink.
Benedette of Emeron
30 September 2011 @ 02:30 pm
[Filter: Canti]

I suppose you must never have seen what I wrote, back on ... Oh darling ...

How- Is there anything I can do? Anything at all?
30 September 2011 @ 02:34 pm
September 30th

The outside world continues to be chaotic. The news today is terrible indeed, so Lord Father says. A house gone in a night, in the blink of an eye.

Ah ...

Terrible indeed.
30 September 2011 @ 02:53 pm
[Filter: Keller]

... what are you thinking, right now?

Do you think we should try to follow them ...? I don't think they've spotted us ... but um ... it wouldn't be good to have too many people follow them, would it ...? Maybe we should just try scouting it out a little bit ... ooh ... I don't know.
Mood: worriedworried
30 September 2011 @ 03:31 pm
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]


Would you just look at the day? It's the end of the month already? Where does the time go~? Mn~ and I haven't heard a thing from their end in how long, now? It seems the Prince has been keeping himself quite occupied, hasn't he? I don't believe he's written in, well, Dragons know how long ...~

I wonder~

[Filter: Fayre, in Trade]

Fayre, dear~ I know you've been terribly busy with this mass murder mystery business that you've been trying to solve and all, but I must ask~ have you spoken to Julian, at all, recently?

[Filter: Julian]

Julian, dear~ I just wanted to wish you a happy birthday~ ♥

I'm really not sure if you're reading this, since I haven't seen you writing in here in an awfully long time ...~ but I just wanted to wish you well on your birthday. I do hope that you're quite all right, over there~
Mood: curiouscurious
Lady Eliza of Temair
30 September 2011 @ 07:27 pm
[Filter: Private]

I should burn that infernal letter. It is degrading, disgusting filth, and he only wrote it for his own amusement, not out of Festival generosity. He wants to see what I will do. He wants to know what I will say about it. Well, I won't give him the pleasure.

Dragons light and dark, why have I even kept it for this long?
Mood: aggravatedaggravated
Aiden [Illuse]
30 September 2011 @ 11:26 pm
[Filter: Marias]

How are you feeling?

I was thinking that we could take a walk if you were feeling better. We could bring Arwen along, if you don't mind. I think she likes being with you.

We could ... also invite Jayne, if you wanted. She's been coming around so often lately that I thought ...
Mood: okayokay