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28 September 2011 @ 12:02 am
[Filter: Private]

Not too much longer, and thank Dragons for that. Everything at home is just a small nudge from falling apart altogether.

At least Symeon seems to understand that he needs to be cautious with Lian. I didn't have to remind him even once, which is a pleasant surprise. Still, the less time I'm gone, the better, and there's only a few more villages that I need to have a look at, anyway. And likely all more of the same. Trails of footprints in the snow leading out of the village, a stubborn person or two remaining behind, ghost stories everywhere.

I almost wish there was more to this. I can't do anything with stories.

[Filter: Meghan]

Meghan, I forgot to ask you before I left, but I need you to do a favor for me. Do you think you can do that?
Mood: busybusy
28 September 2011 @ 12:05 am
[Filter: Josiah]

You know, you don't need to be sour at everyone who happens to come your way during court. At this point, you're likely to make a few girls cry before the week is out, and one of them could be one of your sisters.

Do you want to talk about this? I'm always a willing target for you to take out your frustrations on, but I thought actually discussing your foul mood might help disarm it a bit more than just stomping around the way you have been.
28 September 2011 @ 03:39 am
[Filter: Noye, Sylea, Ferselle]

So that idea I had yesterday? It's going to work. I've found a way to get to Tyren, but I have to set something up first. I'm going to give more specific details to Keane...

Also, I have some really bad news. Relette's not well enough to write at all. She's slipping away. She has a few more days, the healers say... It's bad.

[Filter: Keane]

I checked around, and I think it's going to work. Tyren likes inflicted pain, and uh... I think I have a way to exploit that.
28 September 2011 @ 10:55 am
[Filter: Elden]

This paint situation. I swear, we've been everywhere, asked everyone that might know something useful. How many vendors for this sort of thing can there be, here? Even those we found seemed bemused by the request. If it's that odd just to ask about this sort of thing, then shouldn't someone purchasing large amounts -- or even small amounts over time, which I've suspected must be the case for some time, now -- that should draw some notice.

But no one has any idea.

Perhaps they're conjuring it from thin air, that would explain plenty.
Mood: frustratedfrustrated
28 September 2011 @ 11:02 am
[Filter: Private]

Is this how it's going to be, then? I didn't ... agree to this, just to ...

He's avoiding me. I'm definitely not imagining this. It's been days, now, and we've barely said five words to one another, and there's always someone else there, and every time I try and ...


This was his idea. He -- he came to me, first. He kissed me! He can't throw all this up in the air and then go run and hide. That's not how this works. Not that -- not that I know how this works, or anything, but if that's how


I don't want to do this if this is what it means. I'd rather just be friends and be able to talk to one another and -- and. Everything. This is stupid, I can't believe this. What are we doing? He doesn't know, either. I knew this was a bad idea, we can't do this. We're not like this, we're better than this, and we should have known better.

And now even what we had is probably ruined, forever! And I probably deserve that, for even considering ...

I can't deal with this. I just can't.

I know exactly what I'd tell Daisy to do, don't I?

[a long, long pause before the filter appears]

[Filter: Anton]

Why are you avoiding me?
Dame Harriet
28 September 2011 @ 11:08 am
[Filter: Those in Rayla and Ree]

The letters are trickling in, now, and we'll have reinforcements soon enough. From most of them.

Word from Caepra came in today. Apparently, they won't be sending anyone. It's not a very polite letter, either, contents notwithstanding. You should see this one, Eve.
Mood: angryangry
Lauren of House Taerin
28 September 2011 @ 11:14 am
[Filter: Private]

Maybe I should ask Celeste. He's her brother ...

Hmm. But I'd better be sure, first. It could be nothing. I could just be overthinking things, Dragons know how desperate I've been, lately. Especially with all this about Jon on my mind, like I don't have enough to

Well ...

[Filter: Gebann]

Hey, Gebann, do you want to do me a huge favor~?

[Filter: Kail]

Hi, Kail~

I have a little extra time, today, and I was wondering ... would you like to go out for a walk, today? Maybe we could get some lunch in the city~ I'll have to bring Gebann, he's my fake bodyguard, and all that, but other than that, it could just be us two~?
Mood: curiouscurious
28 September 2011 @ 11:21 am
[Filter: Private]

I wonder what the fuck's going on there that the Prince needs to be giving inspiring speeches. Never can tell when those prissy fucking princesses are serious about something, or just -- making a big fucking deal over nothing like they do.

Whatever. Probably fucking nothing, they're fucking ridiculous.

[Filter: Irving]

What the fuck's going on with you and Loki.
Mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable
28 September 2011 @ 05:08 pm
[Filter: Private]

I knew it. I knew he would come around eventually. It won't be long now and I can finally know Father will be safe, yet it still cannot come soon enough.

[Filter: Public]

I did not expect it, but there truly is one good thing about being away from home for the Festival. Two wonderful days of presents. I finally received everything from back home. Thank you all so much, especially you Eudora. I simply love your gift. It was so very thoughtful. My day was made exceptionally better because of it. I do hope you all have received my own gifts as well. I will, of course, write a more personal letter home to Mother to thank her for everything, but I hope you would give her my thanks as well.
Mood: gratefulgrateful
28 September 2011 @ 08:28 pm
I think I will ask Dad about going back to the convent.

Ash is doing fine now, and Angela seems to be okay ... and September is almost over, too. I might have missed the entire pilgrimage, but I can at least help clean things up now that it's almost over. Since it probably will be completely over by the time I get back to the temple ...

I just keep thinking, I should have asked for this sooner. Maybe it's my own fault for not asking, maybe that's why I'm so ... well, whatever. I'm going to ask him tomorrow, and then everything will be fine again, I think.

I hope.
Mood: blahblah
Linnell of House Veirnan
28 September 2011 @ 08:37 pm
[Filter: Stephanie]

You know, I still think you have every right to be mad at Lian. I'm still mad at her. I don't know why Papa isn't. It's not fair at all.
Mood: moodymoody
28 September 2011 @ 08:43 pm
[Filter: Private]

And it comes back to this, as it always does.

How do I confirm that what I remember is what actually happened? How do I know that the story the entire rest of the country hears isn't the truth, and my own memories distorted by time? Aekaran is right when he tells me I have a ... a tendency toward these things. How do I even begin to track down what actually happened to my house, or even to Forna?

[Filter: Eve]


Are you horribly busy? I'm afraid I don't have much news, but I have a ... somewhat odd question for you. I can tell you what little I know about what's going on here first, if you like.
Mood: stressedstressed
28 September 2011 @ 08:56 pm
[Filter: Franelcrew]

Well, I think we've managed to figure out what this thing is, at least.

It seems to be some sort of puzzle. We've found a few of these aurae shards that seem to hook together, though the shape is of yet fairly impossible to decipher ... All the same, at least we're making a bit of progress. I can imagine that, given the number of those shards, though, it's going to take quite a while to get anywhere at this.

I'm going to work on it a bit more today. If anyone would like to join me, they're more than welcome.
Mood: busybusy
28 September 2011 @ 11:06 pm
[Filter: Private]

We weren't supposed to get out. It wasn't supposed to be like this. Why did she do it? She hates us. She hates everyone. Then she goes and act like it's a big fucking inconvenience. She still saved us. Why

Wish she would have left us there. No one would have ever found out. Our secret. Ours. Hah. I liked it, dammit. I can't stop thinking about it. We could have died an us. What am I even stupid stupid stupid

...Big dumb gay Melissa.

[Filter: Aileen]

Mood: dirtydirty
Anemone of Lahn
28 September 2011 @ 11:19 pm
[Filter: Private]

He has still not written again. He barely writes since he came back to the journals. I keep expecting to open my journal and see more of his insipid attempts for attention. I should be happy. So why is it that I am disappointed every time he has not said anything? Why is it I find myself worrying over him?

I don't miss him. That would be foolish. I have better, more important things I need to worry about.

[Filter: Simon]


[Filter: Public]

We might have to begin regulating prices within the city. Merchants are charging ridiculous prices for everything, and less and less refugees can afford it. I asked one about it, and he claims it is because his stock is so low. He was going to travel to Dentoria and bring supplies back, but having been turned down at the pass he only has to sell what he still has. It is not much, and the demand is so great he can charge whatever he wants.

He did not have kind words to say about his predicament either, blaming House Lahn for making matters within the city worse. He did not recognize me, and when confronted about it he apologized, but he still said it and I suspect if I did not correct him he would not have thought twice about his comments.
Mood: lonelylonely