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19 September 2011 @ 02:31 am
[Filter: Private]

I suppose now they're going to be

I really shouldn't have said

... the damage is done, now. Whatever might happen, it's been said. I can't exactly take it back.

It's ... it's really not how I intended to bring up that possibility for the first time, though. I don't know how I wanted to -- but not like that, not shouting and them sitting there judging her. And Mother so calm, just letting me know she disapproves with her eyes. And Father, whatever he feels is all hidden under the military --

Like always.

Ian's going to hear about it, I can be sure of that. Then I have that to look forward to. Dragons, I wouldn't put it past him to tell her, then what to I I'm not thinking about that.

Well. I didn't say I was going to ask her tomorrow. I won't be pushed into anything. Or pushed away from anything. I'll just ... do everything the way I already was. It's been working out well. ... mostly. Sometimes. I'll just do that. Keep taking it one day at a time. I'd always thought it. Nothing's changed.

This isn't a big deal.

There's nothing to be afraid of.

Except Ian. ... except that she could say no.
Mood: stressedstressed
Kenneth of Glashen
19 September 2011 @ 02:25 pm
[Filter: Private, in Korin]

I cannot deal with this. If I had known it was going to become this out of hand I would have never agreed to coming, I would have taken Gerald's taunts and Father's scorn had Marcia given birth to a daughter, just to avoid these foul refugees!

Lord Lyndan has begged for my help, but I simply don't have time for this. I have my family's safety to see to, I can't be helping everyone else with their problems. We can't even depart at this point, Marcia still has to recover from her ordeal and Vincent is only eleven days old.

How much longer can this possibly go on?
Mood: angryangry
19 September 2011 @ 03:21 pm
Three days until Festival~~~~!! I'm too excited, this year's is gonna be the best ever! We're all waking up really really early the day before to set everything up, and I've got so much cooking to do, I can't wait. And I can't wait to see everyone's faces when they open their gifts, not to brag but I picked some great ones this year!

Three days!! It's gonna seem like three years, except for the night before which is gonna seem like forever.
Mood: excitedexcited
Rae of House Taerin
19 September 2011 @ 04:53 pm
[Filter: Franelcrew]

Has anyone seen Leigh? We were supposed to practice today but she didn't meet me in the practice yard and she's not in her room and no one I've asked has seen her since yesterday.
Mood: worriedworried
19 September 2011 @ 05:07 pm
[Filter: Aileen]

Aileen, you have to... It's not good to get this worked up. They're going to be all right. They have to be all right. But right now neither of us can do anything about it, and when you're so worked up, it puts everyone else on edge... I know he's your friend, but you need to help him right now by keeping a cool head...

Is there any way I could help you?
Mood: worriedworried
19 September 2011 @ 07:10 pm
Dragons, it's always good to see home again, even after only a short time away.

We'll be touching down in the next twenty minutes. Would one of you set the servants to making me something warm to drink? I've been up in the air for so long that I think my hair is coated in ice, and it'd certainly be nice to melt it off.
Mood: relievedrelieved
19 September 2011 @ 07:22 pm
[Filter: Franelcrew]

You know, sister, if I did not know any better, I would say you've been watching me a little too carefully during archery drills over the years. You have a natural talent. I don't think you were expecting to be that good at it either.

It's a pleasant surprise. You ought to practice.
Mood: surprisedsurprised
Cathleen "Cate"
19 September 2011 @ 07:29 pm
I ...

I still have a lot of gifts I need to get, but ... but I don't want to go out there. I seen how they were looking at everybody, and I just can't stop thinking of how it smelled when they were starting the fires. I couldn't barely sleep, not in all that noise and mess ...

I just ... I don't even wanna go out there with a guard. I'm too scared. It's too ...

I'm scared. And I know Lord Hasten's got it all under control, I know he does, but it's just so...
Mood: scaredscared
Faith, Paladin of House Franel
19 September 2011 @ 07:36 pm
[Filter: Franelcrew]

Well, Leigh's officially missing. Swear I've looked in every Dragonsdamned corner of this castle, every room we been in before in the dungeon, every practice yard. I ain't seen hide nor hair of her. Even asked after her, and nobody's seen her since yesterday.

We should get to searching the city. When's the last time anybody saw her? For all I know maybe she left Eina. It'd be crazy, but I sure can't dismiss the possibility.
Mood: stressedstressed
Leisa of Rhia
19 September 2011 @ 09:35 pm
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So, Rachelle~ What did you think of Michael~? Isn't he every bit as charming and handsome as I said he was? I'm thinking of inviting him to spend some of the Festival with our family, too, so everyone else can meet him!
Mood: bouncybouncy
19 September 2011 @ 09:59 pm
[Filter: Isanae]

Mn, I can't help but question your brother's methods.

There are results, certainly, but I'm not sure this is what anyone wants. The mood certainly isn't of uneasy peace. More like ... unruly plotting. There's something dark in the city, that's for certain, and the more filthy smallfolk from beyond the border that Lord Hasten tosses into jailcells, the blacker it seems to grow.

I regret going out to check my post. The tension's thick enough that you almost have to push through it. Someone spat at my feet, and five were hauled off to the prison for being nearby when it happened. All that, and I didn't even have any mail.

Lovely times.
Mood: worriedworried
Queen Edalene of Atsiria
19 September 2011 @ 10:12 pm
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

This is so -- frustrating!

I know she has those papers! I could just ... dismiss her from the running and send her home, I could. I believe it, now. Reiz wouldn't just make this up. But now ... oh, I really need to know what's in those papers! If I could figure out what Reeve has been telling her ...

I could learn so much!

Ooh, it's just awful! Why aren't there people lined up just waiting for the chance to steal something for me? I'm the Queen! They're my subjects! I should just ... just snap my fingers! And they'll be there, offering to do ... whatever I want!

How did Reeve do all of this ...? And ... and he was so young, too ...

I only have two people I can trust. Two and a half. And ... and there's Aes, too, but -- oh, Aes doesn't know anything about this sort of things, and it wouldn't feel right bringing it up ...

I hate it.

I shouldn't be powerless. I shouldn't. This is my throne! This is my country!
Mood: frustratedfrustrated
Lord Raoul of Ferselle
19 September 2011 @ 10:28 pm
[Filter: Ferselle, Sylea, Noye]

I'm doing this right, am I? I've followed the conversations, but I didn't want to take the risk of messing all of our carefully constructed secrets up. Well, I'll start with things that are inconsequential, in case I failed.

It's as we knew it would be: the harbor walls are inaccessible. I'm glad I didn't throw too many of my men at it. The ones who survived being attacked from the coast while trying to cross that ... moat ... have reported back that it would be easier to storm the standing walls right now. At least we're not going to be raped by arrows from two directions if we try that.

We're in for a very long haul if the reports are accurate.