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Anemone of Lahn
18 September 2011 @ 12:15 am
[Filter: Private]

Every day is worse than the day before. There is simply not enough room in the city for all these people. Fights are breaking out all over, and around, the city. We are overworking our men and still do not have enough to keep the peace and keep everyone safe. Blocking the pass is only going to make matters worse. It may keep Lireth off our backs, if we are lucky, but it is going to further our problems here in Lahn.

I feel so helpless. Dafydd refuses to let me do anything, unless Father makes him. There is so much more I could be doing if they would just let me. If it had not been from Lady Eve's pen itself, we would not even have men on the pass.

Then there's Simon. Why do I keep worrying about him? He has always been able to handle himself just fine.

[Filter: Public]

I do not know if anyone on these Journals has plans to travel near Lahn lands, but I suppose it is only right to inform you that we are closing the mountain pass into Dentoria except to those with legitimate business. If you get turned away, do not say that I did not warn you.
Mood: worriedworried
18 September 2011 @ 12:41 am
[Filter: Private]

I just need to stop thinking about it. It's as simple as that.

[Filter: Public]

I think this evening calls for a nice vintage if I do say so myself. Assuming I still have one left. My collection seems to be mysteriously dwindling as of late. I do not have the faintest clue as to why that may be happening. It is very peculiar. I have hardly been drinking more than normal.
Mood: gloomytime to get drunk!
18 September 2011 @ 12:43 am
[filter: franelcrew]

... another dead end. endless maze of dead ends.

i'm so hungry
Mood: hungryhungry
18 September 2011 @ 01:11 am
[Filter: Lady Benedette]

Oh, my lady ... do you know where Lord Antony is? It doesn't seem that anybody does ... or if they do, they're not saying. I'm getting a little worried ...

I thought he was just on one of his overnight hunting trips, but it's been a long time now, hasn't it ...? I thought that maybe he was going to visit one or both of his brothers at their new homes, but ... well, people would probably know about that ...?

Are you concerned at all ...?
Mood: confusedconfused
Celeste of Franel
18 September 2011 @ 01:17 am
[Filter: Private]

Oh ...

I am getting worse, I swear I am. I'm just ... too exhausted and sore to be improving any. And ... and it never seems worth it to block or parry when I know I'll just miss ...

I'm ... I'm awful.

... what a silly dream. Ah ... I'll never have a pegasus. A pegasus knight isn't just ... a woman with a beautiful dream mount, it's ... it's discipline! There's ... military aspects, and, and ... training, and ...

Oh, if I can't even manage this light little practice lance ...

It's completely useless. There's ... no point. There isn't ... and I'll never be allowed to catch a pegasus. It would never be worth the time ... the supplies ... none of it.

It's not ... it's not fair ... Lauren says that I'm the best natural rider she's ever seen, and ...

It's not fair.

I don't want to practice tomorrow, truly, I ... I just can't. Not with Sir Irving and Sir Loki trapped down here. I just ... I don't have it. I ... I don't. I can barely focus when everythng is going well, and ... and ...

[Filter: Franelcrew]

That's ... ah.

Did ... Dragons, did no one think to read this sign?
Mood: soremiserable
18 September 2011 @ 01:22 pm
Colin's father has been doing so much better over this last year...we're all so relieved, it seems like not too long ago he was so sick and we were afraid he might not make it. It's truly a miracle how his health has improved. In fact, he's feeling so much better he's going to participate in the tourney this Festival! We couldn't be happier for him, not too long ago he wouldn't have even considered doing such a thing. This surely is a good sign!
Mood: happyhappy
18 September 2011 @ 01:39 pm
I can't believe the Festival is only four days away now...I'm quite excited! I'm rather proud of my gift choices for everyone this year, too, and I hope everyone likes what I got for them. ...I've grown so fond of this time of year, really. All the excitement and ancitipation. And Lancel seems to be doing so well lately, that makes this year even better!

[Filter: Private]

...this is the first time I've ever purposely not bought a gift for someone. Even at Foxworth I always gave them something out of obligation. I'm not sorry, though. I treated her like a sister, I was nothing but kind to her and she repays me by saying such nasty things...!

I don't think I can ever forgive her.
Mood: pleasedpleased
Messenger of Darkness
18 September 2011 @ 10:11 pm
I hate caring. And I don't have anyone better to whine about it to, so lucky you, you all get to read it here.

It never ends well. It's irritating and inconvenient and ... and it just complicates things.


I'll never, ever learn. It doesn't matter how many times I tell myself. Stupid, stupid, stupid.
18 September 2011 @ 10:27 pm
[paw prints and ink smudges]

I really need to be careful where I put this! Sylvester's taken to walking on the tables and counters lately, and guess where I left it. Tina thinks it's so funny, too...I think she's going to end up spoiling that cat rotten. She's always giving him bits of her dinner, letting him sleep on her bed, buying him toys...it's kinda sweet, though, even if he's gonna turn into a huge spoiled brat.

...and I'm probably not helping. Cause I got him stuff for the Festival. But in my defense Tina insisted and she's hard to say no to, you know how little sisters can be!

[Filter: Private]

Four days until Festival...why am I even nervous? It's...it's just giving a gift to a friend, and she's been a great one over the last several months. If nothing else it's a "thank you" for being so nice to Tina and I.

Mood: contemplativecontemplative
18 September 2011 @ 10:31 pm
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

I know she thinks she's being helpful. I know she does. But she's --

She's so indelicate! Why do people ... like her, so much? She's so ... she talks and talks and talks, she asks embarrassing questions, she has no sense of ... of personal space. She just drags herself into whatever business she likes, and no one ever ... reprimands her, or scorns her, or turns down her invitations afterward. I just don't understand it, and I certainly don't plan to emulate it. ... This was difficult enough, without Raezi dragging me from appointment to appointment, accepting invitations on my behalf, Holy Three, I'll need to find some way to duplicate myself in the coming weeks, if this continues.

And that's not even the worst of it. If Audreyna is truly on her way ... how do we prepare for that? How do we put a spin on this that lessens the damage the obvious split in our authority will do to the integrity of the Church?

This and her bid and my bid and managing the faithful in Razen, and still the greatest concern she seems to have is what to purchase for her mother for the Festival of Leaves.

Mothers Above, I cannot handle her, not like this, constantly. I'd forgotten how exhausting it was.

[Filter: Mother, Raezi, and Adrian, in Atsirian]

I believe we need to do ... something about Lord Robert Cresyn. He cannot be allowed to continue his farce of a campaign. With every day that passes he grows bolder, and his indiscretions are gathering a great deal of notice. He's tarnishing the entire Cresyn name, and when they and my connection to Lord Matthew are perhaps our best avenue to the Queen's good graces ...

He must be eliminated from the running. Preferably in such a way that his mother has no choice but to pack him up and send him home, where he belongs.
Mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable
Lauren of House Taerin
18 September 2011 @ 10:48 pm
[Filter: Celeste]

I told Tabby and Mairenn that we just weren't feeling well, but ... well, they just won't take no for an answer! Mairenn is doing archery drills and Tabea thinks we should at least go watch, because I guess Mairenn is really, really good, but she never asks anyone to watch it, and blah blah Tabby thinks she'd appreciate us just sitting there and looking impressed. And I guess she's right when she says that wouldn't take all that much effort, if we're really not feeling well ... but I don't think she's buying that, either, heh.

You know once we get over there she's going to try and put a bow in our hands, no matter what she says about just watching right now, but I'm not sure we have a choice, here.
Mood: worriedworried
18 September 2011 @ 11:34 pm
[Filter: Franelcrew]


Loki I think we're fucked.
Mood: blankblank