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08 September 2011 @ 01:31 am
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he laughed at me. why did he laugh at me i thought i was doing what he wanted and i wanted to too i really did but he laughed at me. i just wanted to make him happy. tonight was supposed to be perfect but it wasn't and it's all my fault.

cols never going to love me and eri's going to think she was right about him but she's not. he was just sick and having a bad day and he was tired from work. that's all. it's me that's the problem. it's all my fault and i don't know what to do. i wish i could talk to eri about it but she doesn't care. all she cares about is her stupid boyfriend and gloating about how much better than col he is. she doesn't say it but that's what she means! it's not fair!

why can't i make col happy? what do i have to do? i don't want to be laughed at anymore.
Mood: lonelylonely
08 September 2011 @ 05:58 pm

We came across another razed village yesterday. It wasn't only destroyed, but burned and scattered. You've seen it all before, so I won't share the horrors. Some stories, no one wants to tell or hear.

It was the magic again, though. That much I can say for sure. The blackened beams were all covered in a thick coating of ice. With the freezing rain like it has been for weeks, now, no natural fire could have burned so long or so hot. What's more, the mages had sealed many of the villagers into their homes before torching it all. It was all set intentionally, intended to hurt.

Daren still says he thinks it's Nasen work, and I'm inclined to agree with him. I don't care if we haven't seen many mages on the field when we meet them. Daren says they must be hiding them, only bringing them out like this to confuse and torture us. It sounds just like that, doesn't it, Father? It sounds more likely to me than these rumours of a third party flying no colours sneaking between two armies and burning innocent villagefolk. Daren says they'll wait until we're terrified, and then bring all the mages together to the main force and drive us back to the castle. He says he's seen this tactic before, in the west.

You should listen to him more.

I'll meet you when we make camp on Friday evening. For now, be well and fight hard,
Xander of Meirsu
08 September 2011 @ 08:11 pm
[Filter: Private]

If I ever wished to be flung into chaos, then I can consider it granted. Who would have thought there could ever be so many of them here, all clinging to their stories, each story as unbelievable as the next. It is a poet's dream come true. So why am I having a hard time using it?

Who knows. Who cares.

Still, there are always those moments when I catch myself half believing it. If you hear one story often enough, it seems like it must be true. Even if it can't be.

Maybe tomorrow, inspiration will strike. Or that day after. Or the day after. It's not like I exactly have any pressing need to get it done now anyway~
08 September 2011 @ 09:07 pm
[Filter: Terrance and Nessa]

I could use a little advice. I...I kinda don't know exactly what to get Druce. So far my only idea is a music book, but he probably has more than enough of those already and I don't wanna be boring. I...I kinda know what else he likes but I can't seem to make any real decisions.

Any ideas?
Mood: embarrassedembarrassed
08 September 2011 @ 09:24 pm
[Filter: Those in Rayla, Ree and Kray]

So, does anyone want to hear more bad news? I thought so.

Notice the stream of people coming to the city lately? They're refugees. Want to know why they're refugees? Bloody bandits drove them out of their villages, and they figure they'll get protection, justice and vengeance from their liege lady. Let's say the city dwellers aren't exactly happy by this turn of events. I didn't know I was the designated man to submit complaints to. I want to throttle the next whinger moaning about how people setting up camp in the street is killing his business.

Funny how shit just happens. Being sarcastic there. Just thought I'd clarify.
Mood: grumpygrumpy