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Damien of Noye
15 August 2011 @ 12:57 am
I've reached the upper edge of the Broken Ocean, and I'm sailing headlong into the White Sea. The winds are picking up so close to the September storms, and I'm actually glad I'll be north of worst of the hurricanes. Progress is excellent, but my crew is not northern born. A shame they have to live and die part of a rivalry that they never knew existed until some days ago. I'll keep them in line. I have no choice. There are no friendly ports anymore north of Chiaco, and I couldn't sail this ship into that shallow bay even with a miracle.

Once I reach the White Sea, there are no friendly vessels anymore. Any flag I find north of Megami waters is an enemy flag. I refuse to recognize Korin flags, they are Varise. I am the only Noye ship in the water, and I am at war with any crew I find. There will be no taking of prisoners. I will take food, and everything else is going into the drink; Men, women, children included. The ships will be burned.

Everything in this world except for my ability to enact vengeance has been taken from me, and I intend to exercise the one thing I have left to the best of my ability, Dragons help me. Tread Korin waters carefully. This is your only warning on this point.
Mood: indescribableindescribable
Queen Edalene of Atsiria
15 August 2011 @ 01:13 am
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

So many people. And more are getting here every single day, too! I can't keep even them all straight ... trying to figure out who are good and who are bad is ... it's impossible.

Some of them are honest, good, smart people who are exactly what I want on the Council. But some of them just look like that, and they're not. They've heard about my speeches and they know what I want to hear, and they're just such good liars. I don't want any liars. I've had enough of liars. But I don't know how to pick out a lie ...

Reeve would be able to find the real ones. I bet that Reeve can tell whenever anybody lies. If I could trust him to help me, I'd ask, and he'd give me the best Council anybody ever had ...

But I can't. I can't trust him. He'd tell me he found the right people, but he'd only just find the liars who'd lie for him, and then I'd be in the same place I was. No -- I'd be worse. A lot worse.

I can't have Reeve help. But I can't do it alone, either ...

This is going to be so hard. The last time was awful, but this ... this is impossible.

[Filter: Ellisae Eshene, in Atsirian]

You haven't declared.
Mood: stressedoverwhelmed
15 August 2011 @ 01:59 am
[Filter: Private]

[nothing more appears under this filter for a very long time. when the writing eventually appears, it's very halting, and it wavers as though the hand holding the pen is trembling]

I never went looking for any of this.

I just wanted to find my parents.


But who knows how long ...

No, don't write about it. Don't talk about it. Never talk about it.
Mood: indescribableindescribable
Symeon of Veirnan
15 August 2011 @ 02:06 am
[Filter: Private]

I should talk to her about it ...

Something happened. Stephanie would never have lied, I know she wouldn't, Stephanie is pure and good and innocent and sweet. There isn't a lie in her. If she thinks that something happened, something happened.

... but it doesn't need to be what she thinks happened. She's a sensitive soul, the pure ones always are. If she took something the wrong way, she could have assumed the worst. And Linnell and Lissandra ... it would be just like them to make her believe the worst. Linnell, especially. Lately, I don't even know what to do with that girl.

So if it was just something small, why approach Lian? Why scare her? She'll think I'm attacking her, and why not? That will be what it sounds like. I could drive a wedge between us I could never fix, and that ... that would be ...

... but then there's what Lancel told me. He wouldn't have lied, either. Or would he? I found him with Lian, in that position ... he might have said anything to have me not assume the worst. Maybe he lied. Maybe he told Linnell or Stephanie that lie, and somehow it got mixed in with everything, and, and ...

Disease is easier than daughters.

[Filter: Public]

Lancel really does seem to be responding well to the treatment. I'm still not confident enough to say that it's healing him -- it may just be treating his symptomns. But it's been long enough that I'm getting very, very optimistic.

I may tell him, soon. At least that I might be able to give him some sort of almost normal life, if the treatment continues to keep his sickness manageable. He's still weak, but he has colour, and I saw him up and about earlier this week ...
Mood: stressedstressed
15 August 2011 @ 03:07 am
[Filter: Eve and Keller]

I thought it might be best to let both of you know ... there's something I've found out recently. I've been circling the grounds from time to time, hoping to come across any sort of news or information and, well ... I came across a few of the commanders talking amongst each other. It seems that there have been a few deaths among the soldiers to magical means.

Now, I'm not completely certain that these deaths were caused by magic just yet ... I've yet to see it for myself, or even get to speak to someone about it ... it's just something I heard in passing. They started to quiet down when they saw me, but I could have sworn they said that it was magic that caused their deaths. I'll let you know if I find anything else. I'm going to have to step up in ranks fast if I'm going to get anywhere anytime soon.
Mood: workingworking
15 August 2011 @ 03:11 am
[Filter: Private]

This has all just been ...

Some twisted-- and now they're all just ...

Fuck this shit.
Mood: annoyedwtf
15 August 2011 @ 03:18 am
[Filter: Liam, in Kilian]

I ... ah ... hello.

I was just writing to um ... well, it seems like it's been quite I while since I've spoken to you last, and um ... I just wanted to see how you've been doing.

I ah ... also had something to tell you, about the progress I've been making with some of the things I've been practicing. It's just ... well, I've learned to channel my energy and thoughts into every line in my head, as you said I should, but I seem to be having a bit of difficulty in the more ... minute details of the spells. I ah ... I would ask my tutor, but it seems so ... juvenile. I wouldn't want him to think me so simple.

I ah ... I trust you not to think such things of me, and ah ... I hope I'm not bothering you. You must be very busy ...
Mood: curiouscurious
Lord Hasten of Lireth
15 August 2011 @ 06:26 am
[Filter: Elthea]

You read, don't you.

Surely you do. I know you. You often tried to get a journal while you were in captivity, from Lady Eriena's men, and then from my own. It's in your nature. You always did want to feel connected, even when no one remembered that you existed. You always hated feeling outside.

And you need to keep an eye on us, to know when you'll make your move.

I know what you intend, Elthea. Not the details, no, but you made yourself perfectly clear. You hate us, all of us, for things that you know as well as I we could never have chosen differently for ourselves. And you hate that we continue to not choose differently, and you want to force us all to hate ourselves for that, as well. You refuse to understand that when the alternative is becoming what you have, lies and resignation and misery are not so bad. You were not subtle about declaring your intentions, no. We both know that Amaeyra is as blind as always in this. You will not simply slide between the cracks of the world and disappear from our lives. You will do what you will do.

I feel I should return the favour. I will make myself perfectly clear, just as you have.

I am waiting for you.

Twice, you slipped through my fingers, but I learn well, and it will not happen, again. I am waiting with vigilant men watching constantly, and with my own eyes trained on every door and window. I am expecting you, Elthea. I am waiting for you. And I am waiting with sword in hand.

You have made some ... implications about me, sister. Let me tell you, then, that your implications are not incorrect. Take that for what it is, and realize that I will do what must be done. I have no wish to harm you. I never did. Right until the end, I pitied you. I hurt for you. You were and are a broken, pathetic thing and I have never wished harm upon you. But if you force my hand, Elthea, I will do what must be done. They say no man is as accursed as the kinslayer, but, implications aside, surely it is not so bad when the kin is one who is already dead.

I hope that you understand.

Let me offer you a piece of advice, my poor, mad sister: do not come for us. Do what Amaeyra longs for you to do. Vanish. Live as happily as you are capable of somewhere far away. Let never the world imagine that Lady Elthea of House Lireth survived her tragic end. Just let us alone, and we will do the same.

I trust you're reading. If not now, tomorrow, a week from now, a month, a year. Take my offered counsel, Elthea, or pay my promised price.
Mood: determineddetermined
15 August 2011 @ 06:34 am
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

Just like that, the choice is taken from me.

She is not wrong about me. However wrong her choices of who to trust may have been in the past, this time, it is different. I did act out of obligation ... at first. But now ...

There is a Queen, buried somewhere in her. And when I see it, I recognize my duty to kneel and do my part to support it. Alexa sent me to Razen for her own reasons, but I have no true loyalty to her, to our business, or to Feldri -- but love my country.

And my Queen.

... so much has changed. And so much might continue to change. But perhaps ... perhaps it is best that she has taken the decision out of my hands, as she has. I am only too glad to follow the commands of one I respect. And, against all odds, the Queen has become such a one.

Whatever ... whatever else is to happen ...

Yes. Yes, I am happy with that.

[Filter: M
Mood: pensivepensive
15 August 2011 @ 06:37 am
The war always catches up to you.
Malcolm of Sylea
15 August 2011 @ 08:59 am
[Filter: Keane]

I didn't expect to find this waiting for me. I guess it will make things easier for you, to have me at your beck and call.

What do you want me to do first, my lord?
Eudora of Fairen
15 August 2011 @ 11:08 am
It is very lonely here now that Leana is gone. Even though a lot of people are still here, Eudora misses her very much!

The party was very nice though, at least. Eudora decided to use pink and white and yellow ribbons and it looked perfect. And there was lots of good things to eat and drink too and everyone had a really good time together.

Eudora wishes everyone could still be together just like that.
15 August 2011 @ 08:13 pm
[Filter: Private]

[handwriting is shaky and uneven]

Why can't I put all this behind me? Why does this have to keep happening? If only we could have gotten on a boat as soon as we arrived. No one was following us. I made sure of it. Either they got here long after we did, or Casey's right and it was one of the other crew members. At least none of them got on the boat with us. No one's left but us, but why don't I feel safe yet?

It's a mistake. All this time they think I'm something I'm not. That's the only explanation. It's not going to stop until I'm dead unless I can catch them first. I'll catch them and convince them they're wrong. I have to stop it. I can't let this keep happening.
Mood: scaredscared
15 August 2011 @ 08:51 pm
[Filter: Private]

My, is that all it takes to be rid of her? A visit by some well intentioned priest? I should remember that for next time~ As highly as that girl thinks of herself, in the end, she is one of tens of sisters living in some unimportant little convent. And I may very well be the lord of Fairen sooner rather than later. Much to Father's horror, no doubt, but he can hardly express that feeling, now can he?

Now, I wonder what will take my dear brother and sister away. Perhaps an emergency at home? Maybe I should make them thoroughly sick of being so close to me, every single day~ Dragons know I can manage that.
Mood: amusedamused
Amaeyra of Lireth
15 August 2011 @ 09:02 pm
It is a little difficult to believe that the wedding is in only a little over a week. The chapel has been cleaned, and the flowers ordered. Chloe's gown is in its final stages. She truly does look lovely in it. I know she says that it is uncomfortable, but I am sure that on the day of the wedding, it will be the furthest thing from her mind.

As for the wedding banquet, ah, you have looked over the menu, Chloe, have you not? We will need to confirm it with the cooks later, so if there is anything you feel ... strongly about, it had best be known today.
Mood: anxiousanxious
15 August 2011 @ 09:17 pm
At least we're getting a bit of interest in renting the place out now. I had two people ask about it today, but I don't think we'll be hearing back from one of them. They didn't seem to like the uncertain terms of our return. The other, I'm not so sure. He seemed nice enough at least.

I don't know how we're going to decide on just one of we end up having several people interested. Do we, I don't know, take bids? How's that supposed to work anyways?
Mood: pessimisticpessimistic
15 August 2011 @ 09:19 pm
[Filter: Franelcrew]

Pegasus girl says you fuckers need an archer worth a damn in your magic fucking funhouse. She won't stop bitching at me about this until I fucking offer, so which fucking one of you sorry bastards do I talk to and what in the damned fucking hell needs shot so fucking badly.
Mood: angrycranky
15 August 2011 @ 09:20 pm

I'm happy to report that my father is feeling much better. He's still not completely healed, but he's doing much better than he was weeks ago and has been a surprisingly good patient. I guess he knows Aria-that's the name of the healer-means business and won't appreciate him being stubborn. I'm so relieved, and so are Mother and Charles...I'm glad we were able to find Aria when we did.
Mood: pleasedpleased
15 August 2011 @ 09:52 pm
[Filter: Private ; Kilian]


I've changed, she said. What is that supposed to mean? I asked her that and she just looked at me. That look she gives me that's all Oh, you know the answer, Liam, you're not thinking hard enough. Maybe I just want to hear it from her.

She tells me I never used to work this hard before Erin left. I think she was expecting an answer, a reason. Well, that's too bad. Let me keep my secrets. I'm Kilian, it's what we do. She should be glad I'm keeping some at all. It makes me a normal person around here.
Mood: irritatedirritated
15 August 2011 @ 09:57 pm
[filter: col]

hey col~ i know you're busy and trying to find a job and you probably don't want to talk but do you know arthur at all? his sister works with us and he knows halster and mianne? he has a journal and he wrote to me the other day asking all about you and it was really weird. he was acting just like eri only not as mean.

its not fair. no one believes me when i tell them how good you are and how much i love you.

... i miss you
Mood: lonelylonely
Tasha of Mera
15 August 2011 @ 11:12 pm
[Filter: Private]

So maybe if I write the whole situation down it won't sound as bad? Let's go!

All the guys I've been talking to say that the spies they think they've found are up to something. They've not explaining nearly enough of this to me, so I'm thinking about going hands on, but that's beside the point I' m trying to make to myself~ There's a lot of movement going east from the house they've found. They're going to move in soon if I give the word. Except if these are really Keran's spies, he's going to know that they've disappeared, and he's going to know something's up here.

So all I've got is a manor and some men. Clara keeps checking in to make sure I'm not going to do anything that's going to get us all rolled under rocks. If I stir up this bee hive, there's a good chance we are, and ugh, I just wish there were more important decisions for me to make. I really don't want to be the one sitting here with the final say in everything happening to our little rebellion in this corner of the sky. I don't want to be the one who fucks this all up!

So what would Jessica tell you that you should do? You could ask her~ But what's the fun in actually getting an answer.

Yeah, I need to see this house for myself. And yeah, the situation's just as bad as when I started writing it down! Thanks magic journal.
Fartgus of Lireth
15 August 2011 @ 11:22 pm
You know, brother, something has occurred to me about your wedding. I know, I know, it was so long ago you're likely to tell me to drop it entirely! But it's very sad, in my opinion.

You never got a proper sendoff from the realm of bachelorhood, did you, brother? Well, now, I know it must have been very hard for you, but you're lucky that I'm here to remedy it. You see, considering how close my birthday and my wedding are, I was planning to celebrate my last nights of bachelorhood on Thursday! And I thought I would have the grace to extend you an invitation, since you missed out on one of your own.

There's no need whatsoever to thank me, of course. Your acceptance will be more than thanks enough.
Mood: deviousdevious
15 August 2011 @ 11:28 pm
[Filter: Allison]

That was a lot of fun...it's been a while since we did our Festival shopping at home. I remember last year, wondering if we'd ever have another Festival of Leaves at home with our families...it almost seems too good to be true, doesn't it?
Mood: happyhappy
Rae of House Taerin
15 August 2011 @ 11:32 pm
[Filter: Private]

I really wish she wouldn't talk like that all the time. I know she's not being mean or rude or anything but that's because I know her and she is always nice to me. If she just didn't say things like that people would want to be friends with her too, and then Lauren wouldn't be mad at me for spending time with her. She's a good person. Even Finlay thought so! Finlay wouldn't have had her come with us if she wasn't.

...Maybe I can get her to watch me take Loki's big test! She and Loki and Irving have to get along. I bet they could be friends too!! Then they can all three help me get better at the same time!
Mood: hopefulhopeful