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05 August 2011 @ 05:21 am
[Filter: Private]

I suppose that's the best we could hope for! If Jack does anything untoward enough, and surely, he must, I just know Lauren will keep her word and write here. Lydia will hardly be able to deny that!

Until then, I'm just going to keep paying Jason until the moment is right to tell him to follow his heart and court Lydie on his own! Really, Josiah is being completely unfair about that whole thing. I really do think that he likes her! I didn't pick just anyone to bribe! ... of course, the fact that he was new at court helped, but ... well, yes! I remain optimistic!

[Filter: Public]

Lydie, Josiah, I can't find my floppy turquoise hat anywhere! Have either of you seen it? Oh, I'll just die if I can't find it before we leave tomorrow! I coordinated my entire outfit to match it, and I don't know how I'm supposed to withstand the heat without it to shade me!

You must know it! The one with the little violet silk roses along the base, and the white lace?
Mood: rushedrushed
05 August 2011 @ 05:27 am
[Filter: Eliza]

Oh, come now, my dear. Won't you talk to me like an adult?

You've been terse and distant for weeks, now, and I waited for days for you to write again, the last time we talked seriously. It almost seems as though you're going out of your way not to confront some unspoken concern that lies between us. You avoid me at gatherings, you roll your eyes when you think I'm not watching, and, why, you barely say a word when I fuck you.

I do hate to be so frank, it's terribly tacky, but it would seem that you've become quite immune to my delicately assembled questions. Dearest, really, you must tell me ... have I done something to offend you?
Mood: amusedi am a bag of dicks
05 August 2011 @ 05:50 am
[Filter: Lady Fayre]

Well, that was an amusing little trip, wasn't it? Well worth the time. I had worried for a moment, when our search had provided no results, but ah, Lady Nessa does always come through, doesn't she~?
Mood: chipperchipper
05 August 2011 @ 02:38 pm
A man died recently. He was a simple man, earnest, and very lonely. He was wealthy, as well, a curse for all lonely men. He had few true friends. Only one, in fact, and a reluctant one at that.

He didn't deserve to die. He certainly didn't deserve to be murdered by the one friend he had.

There is some consolation perhaps in the fact that he never saw my face, at the end. I never gave him the chance. I had his journal. He never wrote here. He quit when the Channels opened, like so many others, but I believe he still read. I wonder if reading made him feel less alone.
05 August 2011 @ 08:21 pm
[Filter: Lorcan]

... are you okay?
Mood: worriedworried
05 August 2011 @ 08:32 pm
[Filter: Isanae]

I ...

I know that you're very busy, Isanae. There's so very much to do before we leave for Lireth, and you have Tarmon and Mother to contend with, and oh, I'm sorry, I really am sorry to bother you. I just ... I ...

... I just always go to Benedette when I have a problem, or something I don't understand, or something that I feel I need help with. Oh, not with everything certainly. There are ... I don't need help with everything. I know that some of my problems must be contended with on their own and I'm not ... I just ... I ...

Do you know how Mother said that I should be the one to write to Benedette, and tell her about what happened to Father? And I said that I would do it?

... w-well, I never did ...

I just -- oh, Isanae, I don't want to do it. It's the most awful thing to have to tell someone. I still can barely believe it myself, and Benedette's first reaction is always to be sharp, always, and I don't know what she'll say, or whether she'll be upset at me, or, or --

Just -- can you talk to me about this? Oh, please, can't you? I feel so lost and alone and I know I'm being silly and girlish but it feels so unfair, I don't want to do this, and nobody ever asked me if I wanted to. Haven't I done enough, making Friska come out of her room? Must I do this, too? Please, make it all make sense to me, like Dette would do if I could talk to her. Please ...
Mood: distresseddistressed
05 August 2011 @ 08:59 pm
So I talked to Jeff's father today. He said he'd be glad to help me get a ship and a crew...and then he suggested Jeff quit his job and be part of that crew! Jeff was as surprised as I was, his dad's always been so serious and kinda stern, he never would've approved of this in the past much less suggest it. Wonder what's gotten into him.

I hope Jeff decides to go along with me. We get along pretty well and it'd be nice to have someone I know along.
Mood: surprisedsurprised