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Alys
31 July 2011 @ 12:13 am
Well, that's the second ship this summer, just floating in the water with no one on them. Normally, you'd think pirates, the more vicious kind than me. At least I don't take people. But no, there isn't a mess, when there would be. No one hiding either. No one just up and leaves a ship in the middle of the sea without kicking and screaming.

Heard of this sort of thing happening before, but just as some gossip you don't put much faith in. Now I know it's just as weird and creepy as it sounded.
 
 
Mood: restlessrestless
 
 
Josiah
31 July 2011 @ 01:29 am
[Filter: Private]

Yeah, this has gone on more that long enough. With Lydia's problems as looming as they are, I'd feel a whole lot better if Amelie's were fixed, and hers ...

Much easier. All this situation needs, now that they're in a good place and she knows what she wants, is a little push.

[Filter: Philip]

I really hate to impose, but I think I need your help with something. Do you have a moment to listen to a proposition? Though I suppose it's less a proposition and more a plea, to be honest ...
 
 
Mood: deviousdevious
 
 
Lord Hasten of Lireth
31 July 2011 @ 04:02 am
[Filter: Private]

It will be ...

It will be odd, having him here. It is different, somehow when it is far away, under someone else's roof. Having him take his meals with my family, smile at my children, and exchange courtesies with my wife ... it will be odd.

And perhaps I make a mistake by all but begging him here, insisting we continue on as we were in Keirnan. Father would certainly say so. He's say that, and a great deal more. Whatever else he may have been, my father was never wrong about his feelings on discretion and caution and the need for appearances to be flawlessly maintained.

And yet, the only mistake I can honestly believe I may be making is giving the implication that I am more ... emotionally invested than I am. That, perhaps, may have been ill done of me, when I know what he has sought and will doubtless continue to seek from me, but ...

I can hardly bring myself to care.

And can hardly bring myself to care about that. With all else crowding my thoughts, it hardly seems worth the time or the energy to hate myself for something I've long since resolved I cannot change.

[Filter: Amaeyra]

I see that Mother is still doing her very best to make a proper Northern lady of out Fartgus's bride. She ought not bother. The girl is a waste of time. Frankly, I'm surprised he decided to marry her in the end, but I suppose he does love to throw his rebellion in the faces of the rest of us.

Cathleen is the better use of her time. You, as well.
 
 
Mood: anxiousanxious
 
 
Col
31 July 2011 @ 04:30 am
[Filter: Private]

Are you kidding me?

I don't have any more cash, you sack of shit. Don't you see me take my pay, every fucking week, and hand it straight to you? This is all I fucking make. You can't hold out on me. That ain't part of the deal. Oh, I know you heard the stories of what I do on offtime, but that's so I can eat. And even that's been running dry lately, nobody wants to play someone they know they're gonna lose to. I got to get new blood, but that ain't exactly easy. How the hell can I do that, just some scruffy, dirty dock worker like every other guy in this part of town?

You can't fucking hold out on me. I'll have more cash next time I get paid. And that's going to have to be enough, you sack of shit, and don't you even think of giving me that look. I'll work overtime, is that what you want?

[Filter: Public]

Oy, Lenore, sweetheart. Think we're gonna have to put off our picnic for a few weeks. Things at the docks are getting hairy, few guys up and quit without a word to boss, so now we all got to pick up their slack cause he's too lazy to hire somebody else.

Sorry about this, sweetheart. You know I'd get out of it if I could for you.
 
 
Mood: distresseddistressed
 
 
Rory
31 July 2011 @ 04:43 am
[Filter: Private]

I don't ...

He wouldn't lie about it.

He knows Colleen and I could find out the truth, if the Crow was still alive. He knows it wouldn't be hard for us to look. He might try to stop us, but ... but why lie to us in the first place? If the Crow was alive ...

... If the Crow was alive, he wouldn't be so angry.

I don't like how much freedom he's given me the past few days. The way he looks at me. It makes me nervous. Is he going to try to get information out of me next? Try and find out if I know who killed him?

I Colleen

There's too much [all furiously scratched out]

[Filter: Public]

It's been nice to get to walk around the castle freely again, Lord Keran. I wanted to thank you for that. I guess now that the Crow is ... it's probably safer, isn't it? I've seen Rosie and Devon wandering around more too ...

I wish it wasn't so bright. It always seems like it's one extreme or the other up here ... in the winter I always wish there was more light, and all summer I wish there was less. Doesn't it ever bother you, living so far north?
 
 
Mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable
 
 
 
Irving
31 July 2011 @ 05:00 am
You know, Rae, I think you actually are getting pretty good at this! Okay, so I haven't been talking to Leigh or anything, and I know she's more of your teacher than I am, but I have been talking to Loki about it, and I think he's pretty impressed. You're picking up on all of this really fast, you know? Even if I think shooting from horseback is still giving you a little trouble, it's not exactly the easiest thing in the world to learn. And I bet pegasus-back is even harder, since you're flying ...

But anyway! Loki wanted to give you a few tests today since I wouldn't shut up about you, do you think Leigh would be okay with that? They can be after your lessons with her or whatever, that'd be fine. He's just really curious how much I'm exaggerating. And I know you won't make me look like a liar, so ...
 
 
Mood: cheerfulcheerful
 
 
Skyler
31 July 2011 @ 06:14 am
You know, I have to say, that joust the other night with the lamps was entirely something else. I don't know how people come up with these ideas! But then again, I also haven't any idea ho anyone manages the aptitude to be able to pull them off.

Speaking of that, I was very impressed, Josiah, with how well you did in the joust! Putting all of your opponents to shame, as usual. I don't think I've heard applause like that in years! Oh, and I saw your sisters just absolutely cheering for you. Glowing with pride, in fact. (It was very easy to do, considering how close we were I don't think I've heard applause like that in years!

Amelie, of course, was also glowing with all that well-deserved praise she's been getting. I might have to ask her to tell me the story of how she figured everything out for a twentieth time, I simply can't get enough of it. I suppose I could ask Philip, too, the way you two seem to tell the story in tandem, but, well, I thought that went without saying.

[Filter: Josiah]

There we are, I hope that makes up suitably for not doing enough during our last conversation.
 
 
Mood: amusedteasy
 
 
Verity
31 July 2011 @ 06:29 am
[disguised]

[Filter: The Lady of Coliya]

Hello.

I trust you are keeping your end of the deal.

My partner and I should have some orders for you soon. We are waiting to see how things develop in our affairs elsewhere, but it should not be too long. I just want to be sure that you have no ... plans of your own.
 
 
Mood: busybusy
 
 
Meghan of Tullia
31 July 2011 @ 06:33 am
[Filter: Lissandra]

Um ... hello!!

I'm sorry if I shouldn't be asking, but things are just, um. Linnell was really cross the other day, and Stephanie's been ... um, really quiet, I guess. More than normal! And you've been so nice to me that I thought I should ask if ...

Well, ummmm, is something going on? Is there something wrong?? Is there something I can do?? It's so hard to see everyone upset like this ... I want to help if I can! And I figured you would have an answer for me, since you've been so kind to me ...
 
 
Mood: curiouscurious
 
 
Daisy
31 July 2011 @ 02:02 pm
[Filter: Demi]

Nothing, he's just completely avoiding me. He honestly doesn't think he has anything to apologize about! It's like he doesn't even realize how mortified I am, Dragons, I'm the one that invited him there! I'm the one that's been telling everyone it would be fine, Nathan just takes time to open up, blah blah blah blah and he doesn't even care! Well I never asked you to do that Daisy, like it wasn't a favor! He wonders why he doesn't have any friends! It's because he's ridiculous!!

I am not going to him first, I know you're just sitting there rolling your eyes at me right now but I don't care, I'm not. He's ridiculous. I can't believe him!
 
 
Mood: angryangry
 
 
 
Demi
31 July 2011 @ 02:12 pm
[Filter: Private]

If I ever find -- someone. I hope someone hits me if I ever act like they do, sometimes. A lot of the time. Most of

Talk! All you need to do is talk. Why is that so hard for people? But it's not like I can say well Daisy, maybe you should have known how bothered he was! Maybe you shouldn't have pressured him into coming when you knew it was bugging him! Maybe it's just as much your fault as his! No, definitely can't say that.

Why do I have to be the one to fix things all the time? I can't even take care of my own -- things. I don't even
 
 
Mood: annoyedannoyed
 
 
Lord Glenn of House Rowan
31 July 2011 @ 03:23 pm
Well, as expected, Claudia is a perfect little darling. She plainly favors you, Nerida! Why, there's a bit of you in all of her little features, so far as I can tell. She's practically Lady of the House here, at the moment; there are even fewer people here than I'd expected. Father is apparently bringing all of Rowan with him to the wedding, Chloe, I do hope you're prepared.

We'll be leaving tomorrow, I believe, just as soon as the last of my men make their way back from their homes. It's the least I can do, really; I can only hope these past few scant days home will tide them over well enough until the return trip. Dillon is of a mind to adjust our pace, and I find myself agreeing. We've still quite some way to go, yet, and there is this competition to consider! Don't think I've forgotten!
 
 
Mood: cheerfulcheerful
 
 
Karlesta
31 July 2011 @ 03:29 pm
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

What is he up to now? No one hardly dares breathe, and he arranges a gathering for the entire court?

[Filter: Mother, in Atsirian]

Have you heard about this ... affair, being held at the Atsir manor?
 
 
Mood: annoyedsuspicious >:[
 
 
Westa of Atsir
31 July 2011 @ 03:46 pm
[Filter: Joseph, in Atsirian]

You'll be glad to know that letters of acceptance are arriving more quickly than the staff can sort them. The first squall of that impending storm you graciously forewarned me of, no doubt.

Do you have any idea what she intends to say?
 
 
Mood: amusedamused
 
 
Fayre
31 July 2011 @ 03:55 pm
[Filter: Private]

There really may be something to this, hm~ The more questions we ask, the more uncomfortable everyone gets, and people only get that uncomfortable when there is a particularly interesting secret they're sitting on. That's always been my experience.

Though I think we may need to at least appear to lose interest, soon. We can connect a few lines together without painting targets on our backs, I'd hope~
 
 
Mood: curiouscurious
 
 
 
Calaith
31 July 2011 @ 05:00 pm
[Filter: Private]

Dragons... this song just isn't turning how I want. I like the first half but after that it's just... I don't know. It's not good enough. I should just trash that entire section and find a way to redo it. Maybe if I just sit on it for a while and come back to it with a fresh mind it'll be easier.

[Filter: Faith]

Hey... um... I haven't seen you down at the practice yard the last few days... is everything alright? I mean... it's not a big deal or anything, but I thought practicing my sword might take my mind off some things. If you're not up for it that's fine... I was just curious.
 
 
Mood: blahblah
 
 
Lysander of Mera
31 July 2011 @ 05:08 pm
[Filter: Private]

I shouldn't even be considering doing it later. Even if Jess is dead ...

I should put a stop to this right now. Verity would learn to live with it. I'd learn to live with it. It'd be easier for both of us to concentrate without that hanging over our heads all the time.

I should do it right now. I should write to her and just say, look, Verity, we can't keep this up ....

[a long pause, several absently-doodled lines of ink]

I should do it.

I really should.
 
 
Mood: blah... but I won't
 
 
Lenore
31 July 2011 @ 05:14 pm
[filter: private]

i shouldn't be mad that he's busy. he's got to work and work is important and it's not his fault a bunch of people quit. i should be mad at them.

maybe i can surprise him when he's working with a cold pitcher of tea and cookies so he can have a nice break and i can see him just for a few minutes. i wonder if i would get him in trouble. his boss can't get mad if i have enough cookies for him too. everyone likes cookies.
 
 
Mood: disappointeddisappointed
 
 
Karia
31 July 2011 @ 05:25 pm
[Filter: Private]

There's no one following us. With how windy it's been, and how much dust is being kicked up, there's hardly anyone else on the roads. The heat is almost suffocating, but that's just another reason I shouldn't be worrying about all this. If someone were following us I would have seen it by now.

I guess it's possible they could be several miles back, just out of sight, but they'd have to be damn good trackers or know exactly where we're going. Unless there's more than one of them, and they got a scout checking up on us at night. There's always that possibility.

I should sneak out tonight and do some scouting of my own. If someone's on the road with us I should be able to find them easily enough. Just need to sneak out without anyone else finding out about it. It shouldn't be too hard, except with Casey maybe. That girl's more alert than I used to give her credit for. It's hard to get anything past her.

I'll figure something out.
 
 
Mood: paranoid
 
 
Destin of Lysel
31 July 2011 @ 05:32 pm
[Filter: Elizabeth]

You know, if little sprees like this improve your mood so much, maybe we should beg Father to let me go with you on them more often. Just enough that he wouldn't begin to expect it was my idea in the first place. Tell him stories about how much you miss my company, that ought to help. And how much it meant to you that he let me off work to come along with you, I'm sure he'll listen to that.

Are you feeling better? You look the part, but Dragons know I fake that much all the time.
 
 
 
Tarmon of Emeron
31 July 2011 @ 05:36 pm
[Filter: Isanae]

Tell me again why your brother and his Western whore are so much more important to deal with than the aftermath of my father's death. There is justice to be seen to and affairs to get in order now that he is passed, and we hardly have the time for a wedding. I am sure even Lord Hasten, as highly as he thinks of himself, could brook no argument for why we ought to attend some frivolous ceremony when things here are in full danger of falling apart.

Please, do prove to me why I ought to feel that this is my duty over putting my father to rest and picking up his duties before the city falls into chaos.
 
 
Mood: angryangry
 
 
Tallys
31 July 2011 @ 05:46 pm
Well I put out a sign about an apartment for rent. I left out the part about keeping an eye on my shop for me as well. I wouldn't want to scare someone off before I even find out if they're interested. Who knows if I'll actually find anyone interested to begin with. I had to do a bit of shopping around to see what other places were going for and I think I'm asking a fair price, not to mention the refund when I get back if everything's the way I left it.

Might as well leave the decision on if I'm leaving to fate. If I find someone to rent the place out to, then there's nothing keeping me here and I'll go. If not, then I'll stick around and maybe try again next year. Or not at all. That could just tell me what an awful idea this was in the first place.
 
 
Mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable
 
 
Lawrence
31 July 2011 @ 05:50 pm
[Filter: Franel and Retainers, Nessa, Jonathan, Aileen, Jace]

Well. I'd say we should seriously consider reinforcements. None of us will be able to defeat that ... thing. I was hoping that we would not require more than our present company, but our strength always has been in numbers, and there ought to be someone strong enough to overcome an animated rock.
 
 
Mood: tiredtired
 
 
Reiz
31 July 2011 @ 05:51 pm
[Filter: House Karnach]

Did you know about this? I mean, does Edalene know about this?

Are we allowed to go to this? Am I, specifically, allowed to go?
 
 
Mood: curiouscurious
 
 
Tanner
31 July 2011 @ 06:09 pm
[Filter: Private]

Mm, there have been so many wonderful shows of strength and agility these recent days. To think on how hard they must work at it to be so good at what they do ... I wish I were half as good as Josiah ...

Even though I've taken up fencing as mother suggested, it's never really been my thing, has it? I love to go riding, but I'm not nearly good enough to jump my horse as well as the others do. Hm ... well, I suppose it could hardly hurt to work at it, could it?

Oh, and the archery demonstrations will be coming up soon, as well ... I'm sure Amelie will excel at that, as usual.

There's a reason why they're all so popular among the Court. Perhaps ... perhaps if I were to ... to excel at something. Have everyone look at me with the same sort of admiration ... hm ...
 
 
Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
 
 
 
Stephanie
31 July 2011 @ 06:14 pm
[Filter: Private]

Why do I feel like I've just made everything worse?! Now Symeon's probably going to talk to Lian and she's going to be angry at me, I know Linnell and Lissandra said I had to tell him but I wish I hadn't!

Maybe I am just a burden on everyone after all...


[wet splotch]
 
 
Mood: distresseddistressed
 
 
Aes of Cresyn
31 July 2011 @ 06:17 pm
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

Oh ... right. The invitation. I know it has to be about something very important ... and as difficult as it's been to even ... to even get out of bed in the morning, I know I'll have to go.

I'll have to look my absolute finest. I'll have to put on a smile ... to accept all of those condolences ... I'll have to be strong. For mother ... for Edalene ... for Matthew.

I know it'll be difficult, but I know I can't miss it. I can't cry. I can't ...

Hm ... I should go pick out the dress I'm going to wear ...
 
 
Mood: blankempty
 
 
Queen Edalene of Atsiria
31 July 2011 @ 06:20 pm
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

... I can't hide from it all.

I want to. I wish I could just go back to that morning and stop time there and be with him in that moment forever, but I can't do that, I can't, and I can't hide.

I'm the Queen. I have things to do.

None of this ... none of this should have been able to happen. It's my fault that it's happened. I've been so blind for so long because -- because I've spent all of my life hiding from anything I haven't wanted to see. I can blame it on Reeve all I want, but I'm not stupid, I'm not. I always knew, deep down. I did. I had to have.

I let it happen.

Well, not anymore.

I'm the Queen, and I'm done being lied to and controlled and used and ignored. The Council is gone, fine. Good. A fresh start. I can make a new Atsiria.

One without Reeve.

I can do that. I need to.

For ... for Matthew.

[Filter: Joseph and Ellisae, in Atsirian]

I need your help.
 
 
Mood: determineddetermined
 
 
Sawyer
31 July 2011 @ 06:24 pm
[Filter: Private]

I don't know if I should have told her that ... I'm sure Keagan would be furious with me, if he knew. It only takes one leak, but -- I do trust Pearl. And ... I hardly want her to think I'm avoiding her. She's been a bit strange, lately ... there's something on her mind, I'm sure, but ... Honestly, it's

I ... I wish that this wasn't so ...

Why would she think that, unless she thought there was something to avoid? I hate to think of her assuming the worst about me, or even about herself, but ...

I just need to do better. I need to be better at this. I just
 
 
Mood: blahblah
 
 
Colleen
31 July 2011 @ 06:58 pm
[Filter: Private]

I have so many secrets I need to keep from him, now.

That Lysander is alive. And his sister. And Verity. And now this, too. This, especially.

It isn't fair that they blame him. He didn't do it. He didn't even want the Crow to come here. He told me not to ask her. He begged me. It's not fair. Not at all.

But ...

... but I'm glad they think that.

If they think it was him, that means that don't think that it was me. And that's for the best. It has to be. If Keran suspects me of working against him, I'll never be able to. And ... and I made a promise. I said I would. I meant it.

Still ... someone should warn him. Keran already thinks he brought the Crow. He's already watched and treated poorly. He needs to know that it could get worse.

He doesn't have to know that it was me who did it.

[Filter: Rory]

R-rory, we -- we might have a problem. I don't know ...

Ever since Keran told us all that the Crow died, I've been listening to the men. I've been seeing what they have to say about it. And I think ...

I think they all think that you did it.

... did you?
 
 
Mood: relievedrelieved
 
 
 
Nathan
31 July 2011 @ 07:06 pm
[Filter: Private]

She just doesn't understand.

Nobody will understand.

Ian isn't -- he's not --

He's not what everyone thinks he is. Ian is a bad guy. He's always been a bad guy and he'll always be a bad guy. There's nothing good or honest or -- or --

He's never done an altruistic thing in his life!

I'm not being a child, I'm worried about this girl. I was the one who couldn't stop thinking about her. I was the one who offered my help. I want to help her!

It's not about me, it's -- I don't want Ian to ruin her life, not when she's already going through all of this. Can't everybody just see and understand that?! Can't they?!

They all just see me being ... well, I'm not. That isn't what I am!

I know him.

Why won't anyone just ... just listen to me.

I know him and they don't. None of them do. Not even Daisy. ... and that hurts the most, because if nothing else, she knows me.
 
 
Mood: frustratedfrustrated
 
 
Amelie
31 July 2011 @ 07:11 pm
[Filter: Private]

Five hours before the horse jumping this evening, and my dress will be easy to get into ...

I suppose I have the time now, then. Certainly more than I'll have tomorrow, with the archery demonstration. I'll need to practice before I leave ... surely I can't be seen doing anything but winning, with my current celebrity, and ... and Philip will be there.

I do want to impress him.

But the light just isn't right for practice tonight, and ... yes. Yes, the time is right. I do think Josiah is overthinking this, but it certainly can't hurt, and I have missed talking to her ...

[Filter: Lauren]

Now, I have not heard from you absolutely in ages! I do worry terribly about you, up in that horrible barbaric country where you learned to treat arrow wounds! That dress I sent with you can't withstand that sort of treatment, you know!
 
 
Mood: happyhappy
 
 
Rhiannon
31 July 2011 @ 08:09 pm
[Filter: Private]

... so I was right about this ... I mean, it's taken me long enough to gain their trust and join their ranks, but now that I'm finally inside, things seem to be moving at a faster pace. This situation between Nasen and Hanmor ... well, we weren't saying it outright, but it's obvious that there's a third party involved. I figured that would be the case, but there were always doubts.

It seems as if all it will take now is some hard work ... hopefully I'll be able to rise in the ranks faster, now. I've been away from Rayla for far too long.
 
 
Mood: workingworking
 
 
James-Chauncy
31 July 2011 @ 08:27 pm
[Filter: Private]

I'm glad Dairanne has been too busy with her mother and everything going on for us to see each other much. Trying to be a good boyfriend all the time is hard and I never know what I'm supposed to do or say. I don't even know what to talk to her about anymore. I don't think I ever did. How does everyone make this look so easy? I don't like having to think about what to wear or how to act or going to really nice restaurants just because they're nice and she wants to be seen there. Why does it always have to be about impressing people? I wish things could be like they used to be when I didn't have to think about things like this all the time.
 
 
Mood: crappycrappy
 
 
Dairanne
31 July 2011 @ 08:30 pm
[Atsirian]

Oh ...

An invitation!

Thank you, Joseph E Lord J Joseph Eshene! My Lady Mother is so relieved. She's gotten exhausted being the only person with her house open in the evenings, and she's glad to see someone else will be doing something.

Is it going to be a very big affair? The invitations look very formal ... um, the things we've been doing at our estate have been very small and quiet. Out of respect. Of course. Oh, but you're a friend of the Queen's, and I know that you wouldn't be doing anything ... ah, what I mean to say is, I hope that it's something more grand and that it's a sign that the Queen is recovering well from her ordeal.

What about everyone else here? Um, are you all going?
 
 
 
Inara
31 July 2011 @ 08:35 pm
[Filter: Anton]

I'm sorry Anton! I know you're mad at me cuz you've been acting all weird and working late even though you're not really that busy and you're not talking and that means you're mad and I know it is and I'm sorry cuz I didn't mean to and I don't know what to do but you should talk to me!! Is it about the planning party and me asking about Demi's soup cuz I didn't mean to make you mad cuz I was just curious and I know it's not a contest and I know she's better cooking than me but I'm trying and I want to be good too and I want to make you happy but now you're mad at me and I'm sorry!
 
 
Mood: lonelylonely
 
 
Brett
31 July 2011 @ 08:38 pm
[Filter: Private]

If that body and that message were for anyone, it's Darin. He's offended who knows how many people and made who knows how many enemies on the road. Or Karia, she's got a dark shady past she doesn't like to talk about. Someone killed her brother, and this isn't the first time a body has followed her around. And what about Noland? We've all seen all of those scars he has under his shirt. He didn't get those cooking and helping children cross streets. Or Darren? He's a damn madman, everybody knows it except Zahra. I'm surprised the boss even keeps him here.

I am fine. I am fine, I am fine. Some dead girl in the street, who cares? Who cares? With all of the crazy people here, what does it matter what I've been doing or who I might have pissed off? It's nothing to me, it's unrelated to my parents or the questions I was asking or -- or anything else. Anything. I'm fine.

Just another trip south. Just another day.

[Filter: Public]

Do you want to do some oral lessons today, Zahra~? The dust seems a little better with the rainshower we got last night, so we don't have to be afraid to open our mouths.
 
 
Mood: stressedstressed
 
 
Pearl
31 July 2011 @ 08:42 pm
[Filter: Sawyer]

Hey ...

Um, don't take this the wrong way, but, listen. ... where have you been lately? I haven't seen anything of you all week ... At first I didn't think anything of it, but I've really started getting concerned. I went looking for you last night, even, and nobody could say for sure where you were. It seems like I mean, th

You're not ... avoiding me, are you?
 
 
Mood: worriedworried
 
 
Canti
31 July 2011 @ 08:51 pm
[Filter: Private]

I don't want to write to her. It's not fair. I shouldn't have to be the one to tell her something so ... so ...

She just lost her chance at a happily ever after with Lord Leon, and now she's being bought and sold and blackmailed for, and her husband will always know her as an adulteress, and I can't ... I can't ...

I can't.

I have my own ... I ...

I have enough to do. I have enough.

[Filter: Friska]

Friska ...

Mother ... Mother really wants me to ask you to come down for dinner tonight. She says that you still have a lot to do before we go, and she wants you to say something at Father's ... at the ...

She really wants all of the children to say something, and you were his ... she thinks that you're especially important to have there. And she's been very ... she hasn't been herself, and I think she'll be angry if you don't come down.

Won't you? Please? For your family? Mother will just be upset at us if you
 
 
Mood: indescribableindescribable
 
 
Kara (Aekaran)
31 July 2011 @ 09:10 pm
[Filter: Private]

Maybe I should have just gone back to Quen. Even Mother couldn't be so bad as ... as all of this.

[Filter: Davan]

Have you heard any of these rumours about House Gathre? I don't like it at all. I suppose it could just be panicked idiot soldiers, making up stories somehow worse than their own pathetic lives, but ...
 
 
Mood: nervousnervous
 
 
 
Gebann
31 July 2011 @ 09:20 pm
[Filter: Private]

I knew it. I knew there was a passage hidden in here that lead somewhere out in the city. Why is it boarded up now? Why would they close off a perfectly good exit? It's recent too, or at least within the past couple of years. The wood's too new for it to be any older. Why can't I remember where this lead? There was something about it that made it particularly interesting compared to the other passages. Why did I not listen to Father more when he went over these when I was a boy? I should have been able to find this sooner.

[Filter: Dagda]

Are you busy? I could use your help.
 
 
Mood: excitedexcited
 
 
Elden
31 July 2011 @ 09:22 pm
[Filter: Lady Fayre]

I'm having a bit of a thought~

I do agree with what you said earlier. As fascinating as this situation is, I do think it would be best if we ... ceased in our explorations for now. After all, stare too long at a corpse, and you're likely to become one yourself, hm~? And there's very little we can discover without speaking to someone who has been in Eina while these curious little, mn, incidents have taken place, which will lead to more questions, which will lead to the above stated problem.

But this is where my train of thought has brought me.

Isn't there a native Einan on these journals~? No, not Sir Gebann or his beloved partner. There was another, wasn't there~? And as I was thinking about him -- a priest, I believe~ -- it came to me ... didn't I see my dear Lady Fayre flirting with that priest, some months back~?

It is a thought, hm~?
 
 
Mood: cheerfulcheerful
 
 
Allison
31 July 2011 @ 09:50 pm
[Filter: Private]

It's truly amazing, watching all of these Lords and Ladies arriving ... ah ... guarding the gates really does have its advantages, it seems. Well, though most of them are worn out from their travels, and surely not looking their best, they still present themselves in such a way ... aha ... I wonder if I could ever carry myself the way they do. They're so confident with themselves ... ah ... I don't suppose I'll ever have that confidence, will I ...?
 
 
Mood: calmcalm
 
 
Ren
31 July 2011 @ 09:52 pm
[Filter: Private]

Man, I didn't think that drinking like that could be so fun. I didn't throw up at all, heh. I mean, I guess I felt a little out of it the next day, but it was really something else. Daisy's so laid back and fun to hang out with. I mean, I know that everyone else is fun to hang out with, too ... but they're always too busy still seeing me as a little kid that they just can't get over the fact that I'm not so little anymore.

Daisy's like the only one out of everyone that treats me more like a friend and not a little brother. It's cool to have older sisters, but like ... I don't know, it's just different.

Hopefully she'll want to hang out more often, now.
 
 
Mood: cheerfulcheerful
 
 
Eric
31 July 2011 @ 10:05 pm
[Filter: Private]

Man ... these rumors are getting really bad ... I'm starting to think that maybe ... possibly ... there can be some truth to it all. I mean, that's ridiculous, right? Something like that shouldn't even be possible ... should it?

Eh, I don't know.

Either way, it helped me get more information to father, like he wanted. Filled the letter in with some juicy details and gossip that I'm sure he'll appreciate ... without giving too much away. I guess it comes with being able to be away from home. Not to say that I don't miss some of the people there, I'd just rather be away from him. Fuck ... I know that this isn't going to last forever, but still ...
 
 
Mood: weirdweird
 
 
 
Aurnia
31 July 2011 @ 10:09 pm
[Kilian]

[pages are ruffled and ripped in several places]

Oh ... oh my ...

I ah ... well, that was ... well, that was certainly surprising, to say the least.

I didn't think to affect my journal so, but still ... I'm glad to say that I don't regret it in the least, aha ...
 
 
Mood: pleasedpleased
 
 
Noland
31 July 2011 @ 10:11 pm
[Filter: Private]

Finally feels familiar again. Can't believe I'm saying this, but when I'm traveling is when I feel most at home. Hell, I haven't been home in ... I don't even fucking know.

What the hell would I even do if we were to reach Hanalan? I'd still most likely drop in to see her, no matter what I tell myself not to do. Can't help it.

Still, Hanalan is a ways away. Nothing I need to think about, now.
 
 
Mood: blahblah
 
 
Jasmine
31 July 2011 @ 10:19 pm
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

Hm ... the poor dear. I had wondered what was happening with that entire situation. To think ... someone she loves so much ... my, it really is such a shame. I do hope she'll pull herself through the entire ordeal. I'm sure she will, but it's really nothing I would wish on anyone. Such a difficult position, to be Royalty, isn't it? So many conspiracies and attempts at -- mn, well, there's no use in thinking about such things.

[Filter: Fayre, in Trade]

Do you have a moment, dear? I was just wondering if you've possibly heard any news about our dear Queen.
 
 
Mood: worriedconcerned
 
 
Hayden of Rhia
31 July 2011 @ 10:29 pm
[Filter: House Rhia]

Some of you may have already heard but those who have not, I regretfully must inform you of my father's passing. He died during the night, peacefully in his sleep.

My brother Cillian took charge of helping Father with his last wishes and will be likewise taking care of most of the necessary arrangements.
 
 
Benedette of Emeron
31 July 2011 @ 10:33 pm
[Filter: Private]

Dragons ...

I cannot even imagine what it must be like for Lord Hayden or any of his sons right now. I've only gleaned pieces about what happened with Lucas and Torrence and it is so hard to believe. And then there was the trouble I caused them. And now this.

I know I have not done right by them before this but I promise to do my best now to be supportive in all ways. It is a truly terrible time for them.
 
 
 
Lord Derek of Allba
31 July 2011 @ 10:41 pm
[Filter: Private, in Old High Dentorian]

Mm ... an adventure, yes, I suppose it is.

I admit admit that while being away from Allba for so long has made me feel ... left in the dark, it has been nice to be away from it all, all the same.

Dear wife, the things you do not know. These things you must not know.
 
 
Mood: calmcalm
 
 
Megan of Ysak
31 July 2011 @ 10:55 pm
[Filter: Private, Atsirian]

[long pause]

There is nothing to say. I still scarcely believe what has happened myself. The Queen is [illegible]

[pause]

I will do my best to support my sister. And I will pray to the Goddesses everyday that things work out for her better than I fear they will.
 
 
Isobel
31 July 2011 @ 11:02 pm
Okay, I think tonight is the night! Anyone who wants to come and play games is welcome. I decided that the best place would be the one dining room on the fifth floor that I don't think anyone uses. It seemed good and out of the way and big enough so that everyone who wants to can come and have room.

So come and if you have a deck of cards, bring that too just in case we need more because there are too many people for just one game. I hope lots of you come, it's easy to lose track of people here and not see them much.
 
 
Eudora of Fairen
31 July 2011 @ 11:05 pm
What colour would be the best for the party decorations? Eudora is really not sure. Pink is Eudora's favourite but maybe it's not the best colour for everyone. Some people don't really like it, though Eudora definitely doesn't know why.

It's going to be a really great party though. Eudora is so excited for it!
 
 
Lian of Veirnan
31 July 2011 @ 11:18 pm
[Filter: Private]

... I feel like maybe something is going on and no one is telling me. Again. But I don't know what to do about it. Linnell is being really ... nasty. And Lissandra won't tell me anything. And Stephanie ... I don't want to ask Stephanie.

Maybe Meghan might know. Probably not but ... maybe.

[Filter: Meghan]

Hello. How are you?
 
 
 
Caroline of Nallen
31 July 2011 @ 11:35 pm
It is always strangely quiet here, when Thomas is away on patrol with all his men. Especially this time, when Patrick has gone with him. It is always amazing how much difference it makes, in a way, even though it also makes perfect sense.

I do hope they will return soon and have very little to report back, aside from a lovely view of the countryside.
 
 
Damien of Noye
31 July 2011 @ 11:37 pm
[Filter: Private]

It could be tomorrow. Tomorrow might be the last day when there are more than two people from House Noye alive. Dear Dragons, why did I leave? It's not as if I could have stopped it from happening, but I could have at least gone down fighting. I'm already a lord in name only, and tomorrow I could be a lord without a house. Damien of Korin. Every rule I put forth for myself gone, every expectation of what my life could be like will be gone as well. I become a normal man who just happens to have a very strong ship.

The only family I'll have left is a selfish whiner who refuses to leave Quen. He'll hear the news of Beatrice's death, and the fall of his house. He won't care. Not after I dragged him away from home and left him out there to rot. A lesser daughter, Quen will never truly be our allies. As if Charles ever had any loyalty to the family.

And so I will pirate, I will pillage, and I will assassinate. I will drag Varise into hell myself. If anyone will join me, I will welcome their help, but I'm taking this ship north to fulfill the reason it was created.

I don't curse you by telling you the truth, Relette. You're already dead. And your death is not the reason I will avenge you. I am avenging you for Beatrice. And if I die, I die. And if I live, Varise dies. And then we'll see if this ship can handle a second pirate captain as brutal as the first.
 
 
Irene
31 July 2011 @ 11:50 pm
Today has been one of my very rare days where I was not required to work. I was even, in fact, given specific orders not to even read about herbs and their uses. I can't say it quite stopped me from thinking about specific concoctions but I did try to avoid that when I could.

Jayden of course was able to be a very good distraction. It has become too rare a day when he can stay with me the entire time. Naturally, he insisted upon riding Egwene first thing. He does not seem to have inherited any of my reservations about heights. Afterwards we just spent time together, reading and playing. Jayden is learning to read a bit on his own, both in Trade and in Megami as well.

It was a lovely day.

[pause]

[Filter: Private]

I knew it was coming and after what she told me ... still, Morrigan, I will miss you. There has been too much death.