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27 June 2011 @ 12:11 am
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

It's not as if I'm going to go right out and accuse him of anything from the rooftops. Because if there were a smart move at this point it would be to call out the man who tortured me -- the one who is untouchable by anyone except the Queen -- and have this out publicly? No, I'll keep quiet, and simply fume here at home. Everyone knows there's bad blood between myself and the Prince, there is no need to call any more attention to it. And when I vote with the Queen on this matter -- myself, a known pragmatist -- I'm one less vote that he would get during an issue of security.

Please do trot out "witnesses", and perhaps conspirators so riddled with scars that the council will have to turn away or be sick. I wonder if he knows exactly how close I came to confessing to things I didn't do, myself? Years of border patrols never gave me nearly as many terrible thoughts to go to sleep to as what he did to me. And I was lucky; He would never be allowed to take the knife to a seated council member. For fuck's sake, what he did to me was illegal enough, but what does it matter when he's the law? I had mostly abandoned my republican sentiments for being a lapdog before that.

Even if the votes go Matthew's way... I can't imagine how even a nobleman recovers from these things very well. Reeve has ruined the man's future regardless of how any of this goes. I only managed to pick up the pieces of my career by not being accused. All of my friends would have turned against me. Reeve has a powerful voice. For that matter, I have no idea if I'll be in the majority when I vote for his innocence. It doesn't really matter.

The only possible way I see myself voting otherwise is if his evidence includes some very persuasive facts. Very persuasive facts, indeed.

[Filter: Ethne, in Atsirian]

I'm not going to jump out of the window, and call for the Prince's head in the streets.
Mood: pessimisticpessimistic
27 June 2011 @ 12:22 am
[Filter: Lydia and Sky]

Now, I can't imagine why the two of you have been glaring at once another all day, but I have something so very juicy and exciting to tell you both that I'm sure you'll instantly put aside all of it!

Do you know that wonderful bit of gossip that's been floating about the court? That the Prince and Sir Agi are secretly brothers and Sir Agi has been kept in subserviance to teach him his place and remove all aspirations for the Crown from him? Well, yes, of course you do! It's all that anyone has been talking about, the last week or so. Thrilling, isn't it?

Well ... it's all true.

And do you know how I know? I'm the one who found out! Me and Philip, together, unraveled this little mystery!

Oh, and I've been waiting for just the right time to tell the two of you! Isn't it exciting? What drama! It's just like the legend of the Man in the Iron Mask, isn't it?

That should turn those frowns upside down!
Mood: excitedexcited
Eriena//Brendan of Keirnan
27 June 2011 @ 12:30 am
[Filter: Private]

Perhaps ... perhaps I should have apologized to him directly before he left for so long.

... no. No, that would have been -- I had nothing to apologize for. He overstepped himself, and I let him know that I did not appreciate it. I had to be harsh, because he simply refuses to listen to anything else! That is reasonable of me. Fair.

After all, I cannot start making concessions before we are even wed. And he did not seem so very upset, before he left. If anything, he seemed rather sincere in his regret to be leaving my side.

I wonder if this will simply keep This one point of contention ... well, it will mean nothing once we are wed. I do not know how much of his crudity I can take before Surely he is simply ... frustrated. I should understand that. I

Am I so desperate for a father for Emily that I will lower my standards enough to

These courting games are so exhausting.

[Filter: Glenn]

Emily asks after you daily. The poor thing seems concerned that you may never return to her.
Mood: annoyedannoyed
27 June 2011 @ 12:41 am
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

I don't think that my Lady Mother is going to be finished any time soon ...

I wanted to ask her about this before I did anything, but she's been in there with Saeritha Eshene since she came by this morning, and whenever they shut the door to the study like this, they don't want to be disturbed. That's when they talk about "sensitive" things, the things my Lady Mother says that it's not time for me to learn yet. I shouldn't interrupt.

But I told myself today would be the day. I've been waiting and waiting since the day of the the wedding didn't happened, and nothing has come up. No one wants to organize anything social at all in the court with Lord Matthew in custody and the mood so violent and upset in the city.

... I'm such an awful person for thinking about this instead of that. Lord Matthew was such a nice man, and Her Majesty must be of such broken heart. This is so sad, but ...

I just can't help it. She's my sister and she's here in Razen and everything ... everything I've done since Lady Mother took me from the orphanage ... every step of it, I've thought about her and what she would think. I was so scared for so long to see her again. I'm still scared, and that's why I need to just ...

[Filter: Karlesta, in Atsirian]

This probably isn't what you expected from Razen, I suppose ...
Mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable
27 June 2011 @ 04:30 am
[Filter: Private]

I suppose I oughtn't pry.

Cameryn will tell me when he's ready, I'm sure. ... And I'm not entirely sure I'm ready to hear it yet, from the look on his face. If it's been causing him this much distress, then perhaps I don't want to know.

But I don't want him to have to bear this alone ...

Soon. I'll ask him about it soon. Just ... not yet. Thomas is still hesitant to speak to me, and the others are reluctant in their own ways. I've neglected them far too long, even if they do remind me of that poor little boy ...

[Filter: Public]

I suppose it's well and truly summer now, isn't it? I was thinking I'd like to take the children for a ride, and I thought I would invite everyone to come along. I'm sure Carlotta would rather spend the time with Father, the poor woman, but I supposed everyone else could use a bit of fresh air and time away from the manor.

Of course, don't feel obligated just because I asked.
27 June 2011 @ 04:35 am
You know, Lenore, you're staying out later every night. Don't think I don't know where you're going all the time. I'm not stupid, Lenore.

You know, I wouldn't even be angry if you'd just be honest with me. Just tell me you're going out with Col. That would be better than sneaking around and pretending you think I won't notice. You know I notice these things. How many nights have I stayed up late looking after you?

I hope you're having fun with each other. As far as I'm concerned, both of you deserve one another. Whatever. Have fun, Col, I don't even care anymore.
Mood: bitchybitchy
Aiden [Illuse]
27 June 2011 @ 04:37 am
[Filter: Jayne, in Kilian]

I ... saw you speaking to Ciaran's family. It couldn't have been easy for you. I wouldn't have known what to tell them, myself.

Thank you for taking care of that. I'm only sorry I didn't have the courage to do it myself.
Mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable
27 June 2011 @ 04:42 am
[Filter: Amelie]

You know, I have to admit, this has spread much farther and faster than I thought it would. I could never have expected everything to move so quickly, but there you have it.

And, to reassure you, I am indeed quite certain that Ebony's been looking very green with envy the past few days. I'm sure she already knows who's behind it but she doesn't intend to give credit where credit is due, and how very like her.
Mood: satisfiedsatisfied
Faith, Paladin of House Franel
27 June 2011 @ 04:49 am
Damn, I am rusty.

The soldiers here are good enough not to call me out on it, but I could tell I was out of practice for a while now. Happens, I guess, since we've been pretty without much way to practice since Aelvir, but damn, I didn't think I was off this bad.

At least they're being patient with me. I think I've given them a few laughs, that oughta be good enough to make up for being shit at sparring. Think some of them are being a little too nice in what they say when I'm on my ass on the ground, but I guess they're trying not to insult me.
Mood: workingworking
Lian of Veirnan
27 June 2011 @ 08:24 am
The picnic yesterday was really fun ... wasn't it? I thought it was nice. The tarts were really good too, I'm glad Linnell asked for them.

I still wish ...

[Filter: Private]

It would have been nice if Father was there but then ... I probably wouldn't have been able to talk to Stephanie again. So maybe it was a good thing after all.
27 June 2011 @ 04:24 pm

Oh, dear...Father hurt his back this morning while dusting the high shelves. It's nothing serious but still very painful. Mother is a wreck, she's actually a bit upset with him for not being more careful and he's not making things any easier by insisting he can still move about when he should be resting.

Charles is offering to take over all the work Father won't be able to do for a while. I hope he knows his limitations, it wouldn't do for him to end up injured as well.
Mood: concerned
Laurel of Nallen
27 June 2011 @ 05:11 pm
[Filter: Private, in Dentorian]

I wonder how Debby's magic studies are going...oh, but every time we talk about it she seems so frustrated, it's so hard for her. And that makes me feel a little bad, it's so easy for me and I just love it, but then I think of poor Debby and how it's not going for her as well as it should be.

I suppose some people take to things a little slower than others, but still...she loves her teacher, Miss Josephine is so knowledgeable I'd imagine Debby would be ready to cast spells by now, too. Then the next time she and I saw each other we could show off our new skills together.

It'll happen for her, though. It just has to.
Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
Aes of Cresyn
27 June 2011 @ 09:19 pm
[Filter: Private]

I can't --

This is stupid. I can't just sit in my room all day, wallowing ... no, I need to ... I need to ...

What do I need to do?

Knowing Reeve, he's already hard at work telling everyone about his evidence, trying to convince them that my poor, innocent brother has done something just terrible and unheard of. We all know that Matthew would never even hurt a fly. He wouldn't.

I need to make them all see, somehow, that there's just no way he would ever. He doesn't have a single bad thought in his mind, let alone something as awful as this.

I can't just ... I can't just sit in my room when Matthew is -- oh Matthew. Everything is going to be okay ... I just ... we'll find something to help you. We will.
Mood: distresseddistressed
27 June 2011 @ 09:23 pm
Well, Mom's made her choice. She's going back to the farm with Grandpa so he won't feel lonely...she seems pretty sure it's what she wants. Tina and I will miss her, of course, but she's always welcome to visit us again. And I talked to Grandpa, asked if he was sure he wanted to go back after being here...yeah, he's sure. Once a farmer, always a farmer.

In other news, the cat's here to stay. I think I'm actually getting used to him...just a little. We can put up with each other, and that's enough.
27 June 2011 @ 09:35 pm
[Filter: Private]

I still can't believe what they've been saying ... it's just unbelievable. How could they have done that to their children? Especially with how long they've been looking for the Princess and how much they missed her and grieved for her ...

This is just so shocking. So like the Man in the Iron Mask.

I'm still trying to get over the stories that have been spreading over the Courts like wildfire.
Mood: shockedshocked
27 June 2011 @ 09:57 pm
[Filter: Private]

Oh, I can't believe it. I just can't believe we're home. It's just ... oh, every moment that we've been back has been so wonderful.

Everyone has just ... ah ... and the food. Well, not only the food ... but I can actually work in the kitchen, now. I ah ... mother won't let me, though. She says that I should rest, but I don't want to, I want to do something for everyone. I want to cook ... I want to just ... be home.
Mood: happyhappy
27 June 2011 @ 10:15 pm
[Filter: Private]


A lot of people are actually curious about the walking dead stories on these journals. I mean, writing to ask where the stories originated, and people writing back to discuss the different things they've heard and seen. It just seems a little less, I don't know, unreal maybe?

But that's ridiculous. It's not like I'm letting these stories get to me or anything. Still, even it answered a few questions I had about the whole walking dead situation. I got a few interesting tidbits out of it.
Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
27 June 2011 @ 10:35 pm
[Filter: Private]

It all still feels like a beautiful dream. Home. Mom, Dad, Robin, Aunt Juniper, Uncle Garrison, everyone and everything I thought I might never see again. We're really here. I keep expecting to wake up and still be in a tent, or at an inn. Still keep expecting to hear Brienne snoring, or Joey and Ken arguing about something stupid.

I'll never take any of this for granted again. Ever.
Mood: happyhappy
27 June 2011 @ 10:43 pm
Heeey, everyone?? I've got a question! And it's really important that you answer!

Do I REALLY act too young for my age? Mister Noland said after training this morning that he can't believe I was nineteen! And when I asked him how come, he said I was too immature to be nineteen! And I was so mad at him, I think I beat him up more than I have in training ever!

Then I asked Daren if I was REALLY immature, and HE said that people who don't really know me might think so! I don't know what's THAT supposed to mean ... So should I act more ADULT or something? Is it really that bad to be like me when you're nineteen??
Mood: anxiousanxious
Nerida of Allba
27 June 2011 @ 11:07 pm
Oh, I have never seen Aaron so dismissive of my company until Derek, Constance and the children came along. His little jealousy of Claudia is a thing of the past, now that he has the attention of a doting aunt and uncle, and three very enthusiastic playmates. Why, it is almost enough to make me wish I could have him all to myself again~ Almost, of course.

I'm delighted that he plays so well with others, and that he has this chance to know his mother's family a little better. It has been some time since I received a visit from my family, though I suspect once he is reminded of Rylan and Cerise, he will want to visit them. Just in time to see the new baby, I should hope~
Mood: amusedamused
Var (Varelia)
27 June 2011 @ 11:29 pm
Um ... Jasmine said that I do not talk about me very much. I don't mean to not talk about me, but I don't think it would be very interesting. Um, let's see, what would people like to know ...

Oh, yes! Sindre and I are trying to find a place to live, because we can't always be at the inn. I want to live somewhere that feels like it is my place. Even when I was young, I had a place that was mine. And Sindre, he had one too, even though his family travelled a lot. And Sindre and I together have always been moving, even before we met Lord Lawrence, and now in this inn, it does not ... how do you say, feels like it belongs to us ...?

Anyway, that is what we have been trying to do. It has been taking longer than we thought, Floran is not a big city, at least, that is what Sindre says, but a lot of people still live here ...
Mood: contemplativecontemplative