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30 May 2011 @ 12:32 am
[Filter: Private]

It's worth a shot.

[Filter: Lady Lauren and Lady Rae]

I've been trying to train with guards lately to pick up some of the gossip. They're going to start gossiping soon enough, but before that they're going to want to know if they can trust me enough to start running their mouths while I'm in the room. They're going to want to know what Taerin was like for me. I know the important names I'm supposed to be saying, but there's some other things that might come up.

There's no weird training regiment in Taerin, right? It's just the standard knight training?
Mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable
30 May 2011 @ 01:07 am
[over the span of two hours, a watercolour painting emerges here. the paints are almost all in blacks and greys, with very faint, washed out colour mixed in, and the painting depicts Eina castle. the composition is beautiful and the angle emphasizes the graceline line of the castle. tiny pegasi can be see flocking to the aerie at the top. unlike most of aileen's journal-displayed work, which tends to be absent or sketchy, this piece is extremely detailed, professional, and finished.]

... I think it's done, now.

This is the castle at Eina. It's like nothing I've ever seen. I wanted to capture how ... strange it is, but how regal and beautiful it is, too. And the colours ... "winter," is what I was thinking. I know it's summer, but it's always winter, here, just bright winter and dark winter.

[Filter: Private, in Kilian]

There's something ...

There's something almost ... familiar, about this place. I can't place it.
Mood: artisticartistic
Rae of House Taerin
30 May 2011 @ 01:55 am
I went flying with Tabby today and she's so much fun!! I can't believe how fast she flies! I've never seen anyone ride a pegasus like her before. I could barely keep up at all! I hope I can learn some things from her before we leave.

Oh!! And Terrance!! You have to come up to the aerie with me tomorrow and I'm going to teach you all about all the pegasi and you're going to have to remember them all, and Tabby's going to help!
Mood: excitedexcited
30 May 2011 @ 02:41 am
[Filter: Private]

Well, who would have thought.

The kid has more determination than I'd have ever given her credit for, that's for sure.

[Filter: Public]

You know kid, when you said you wanted to train with me, I didn't think you'd be able to last so long. Not saying that you've got what it takes. You'd better not give up now.
Mood: surprisedsurprised
30 May 2011 @ 02:45 am
[Filter: Private]

How long will it be before we return home, at this rate ...? I ah ... I'm beginning to think that home is such a distant land, now ...

Ah ... I wonder what everyone is thinking of our absence, now.

I ... I know that I shouldn't think like this, but it's just been so long ... and I've been looking forward to our return for ... for such a long time that it ... ah ... it all feels so ... so hopeless.

[Filter: Lila]

Lila ... do you ah ... do you have some time?
Mood: blahhome sick
30 May 2011 @ 02:48 am
[Filter: Rayla]

So ... is it just me or are these walking dead rumors still not going away?

I mean, I honestly thought that it was a passing rumor ... nothing more than a scary story being told to scare children into going to bed on time or uh ... I don't know, eating their vegetables. What the hell is going on, here?

I'm not saying I believe all of these rumors or anything, I'm just saying that it's kind of getting ridiculous.
Mood: blahblah
30 May 2011 @ 02:55 am
[Filter: Private]

I can't believe that Rebecca's wedding just just a day away. Everyone at Court has been speaking of nothing but the exciting day ahead. I know that Rebecca is excited about the entire event, as well. Even the Prince and Princess of Dentoria seem excited to see a Hanalan wedding. I'm sure it's all very different for them.

Mother has, of course, been nothing but talk since she decided to forgive me. She's been trying to decide which outfit I should wear, which one would suit me best, what Cassandra might be wearing on the day of the wedding so that I may conveniently compliment her outfit ... hm ... this is getting to be too much again ...

Mother even controls how she and father dress. They must dress accordingly and all that ... but who really cares so much about such simple details ...? Oh ... I don't know.
Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
30 May 2011 @ 03:09 am
[Filter: Liam, in Kilian]

I um ... hello there Liam.

I've thought about what you said ... about writing to the people that father works with to help him make more frequent trips home. Part of me really does want to write to them, but then there's another part of me that knows just how selfish this request would be when he has such important tasks to attend to ...

... and even if I were to write this letter, I wouldn't know where to begin.
Mood: nervousnervous
Aes of Cresyn
30 May 2011 @ 03:19 am

I am so excited!

The entire city has just been bustling! Everything really seems to have come alive with all this wonderful news~~ Everyone's getting ready for the royal wedding~~ the palace, the vendors, the restaurants, the inns, you name it! I know it's going to be just perfect! It's going to get even more amazing as all of the guests start to arrive! I'm so looking forward to seeing all of the familiar faces, friendly faces, and the great deal of new faces arrive for the event! ♥

It's going to be absolutely spectacular! Ooh~~ and the actual wedding day itself? I can't even begin to express how I'm feeling about that day!

I can't wait~~
Mood: bouncybouncy
30 May 2011 @ 07:34 am
[Filter: House Veirnan]

All right, everyone. I know I've only just gotten home, but I'm afraid it's time for me to leave again. I shouldn't be gone very long, but you know that I'll always have my journal with me if there's an emergency you need to contact me about.

I'm going to Tullia to secure an alliance with them. I'll probably be bringing someone back with me,but I'll let that part remain a surprise for now. Be good while I'm gone, and don't give your father too much trouble, girls.

I'll miss you all very much.
30 May 2011 @ 07:37 am
[Filter: Leon]

Leon, what's going on? All of these people are saying such horrible things about you, and -- and I haven't heard anything, nothing at all from you since I -- since -- and I'm worried. Please tell me where you are, Leon, just tell me what's happening. I don't understand what's going on and I -- I'm scared. I'm sorry I was mean about Angela and I'm sorry I wrote without a filter but I just didn't know what to do, and --

You have to just tell me everything's okay, Leon, please.
Mood: scaredscared
Felicia of Mansoure
30 May 2011 @ 11:00 am
[Filter: Private]

Oh, Dragons, please let her be okay. I know the ladies of Rhia can be a bit dramatic, but something like this...I hope they're wrong. I can't believe a Megami lord would do something so terrible, and Lord Leon seemed so charming from what I've read of him on the journals.

Benedette, wherever you are, please be safe...
Mood: worriedworried
30 May 2011 @ 11:05 am
They're almost home! I just got a letter from Dad, they're getting closer and closer and he said they should be home in a few weeks! Travel's been going faster for them now that it's warm, and they're both feeling well. Everyone is so excited, Warren's even cleaning Peter's room and he hates cleaning!

[Filter: Private]

It used to be Peter and Jeff's room. ...but I can't dwell on that. It'll be hard enough that they're coming home without him, for them and for all of us. And Jeff wouldn't want us to be sad about it forever.
Mood: happyhappy
30 May 2011 @ 12:51 pm
[Filter: Private]

The seeds have been planted in Cameryn's mind. It is only a matter of time before he finally comes to see my side of things. Of course he will never believe me about Eudora. Such a sweet, kind, gentle girl. She could never manage a scheme like this. That is what makes it so damned brilliant. She's behind everything. She has to be. Alastair is a fool, and yet it would be easy to pin everything on him and get away with it, wouldn't it?

I have been focusing on Cameryn and Father for far too long. I need to find out what Eudora is doing, and find some proof to seal Cameryn's support in getting Father away from them both. I'm not wrong about this. I am not crazy. They'll see.

[Filter: Public]

Eudora~! You know what it is that I just realized? It has been ever so long since we have shared an afternoon ride through the countryside together. I am sure we both have so very much that we wish to discuss, and it is such a wonderful and perfect day for a ride, do you not agree?
Mood: deviousdevious
30 May 2011 @ 01:30 pm
[Filter: Private]

Another baby ...

... it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter at all.

I got through it once. I outsmarted that entire situation, didn't I? Destin never even talks about Violet, anymore. I'd be surprised if he saw her more than a few times a week. I burned that bridge once, and I can do it again.

... it's ... it's hard, though. Sometimes ... sometimes it feels like it's all a big lie, everything I say to him, anymore. All he talks about is how angry he is at his Father, how exhausted he is, and that's ... my fault. And I can only just lie and ...

But it's worth it. It is. I'm not sorry. I did it once, and I'll do it again.

I'm so tired of everything about this life, now. I don't ... I rarely see my family, I have to pretend to be in love with my only real friend, and all I do is work on the books and wait for Destin and lie.

Mood: blahblah
30 May 2011 @ 01:33 pm
[Filter: Fayre]

Oh, I can't hold it in, anymore, I simply can't~ I tried, truly I did, but it's just too good to keep silent, isn't it?

Just who does Sir Gebann think he's fooling with this~? Bad enough that he and Lady Ruseia could be twins, but all this cloak and dagger? Does he think we're fools?

Though judging from how few seem to have picked up on it, perhaps he isn't being unreasonable in that ...

Fascinating, though, isn't it? I would so like to hear the full story, I'm sure it's very dramatic.
Mood: cheerfulcheerful
30 May 2011 @ 01:52 pm
[Filter: Private]

This is ridiculous.

How long have I been married now, and still, the marriage isn't consumated. I've tried everything, and nothing does any good. Should I simply give up?

My life is a joke, truly. I have a bastard before I marry because I can't understand the meaning of self control, and then once I lay the red and green crown on Tessa's head, I can't even lie with her once. Wonderful, truly, the Dragons are good to me. If anything, I suppose I should simply be grateful that Lord Glenn hasn't spread rumours of my dysfunction all across the country.

And Tessa ...

Tessa doesn't want to talk about it.

Oh, she makes promises and implies that later, darling, later we'll talk, I'm so very busy right now. But ... she just doesn't want to talk about it, and it becomes more and more obvious everything she begs it off. I don't know why. Because of Kerrigan? Because it's not proper? Or simply because she's too embarrassed on my behalf ...

The last seems most likely.

Father has been making noise. Perhaps ... perhaps it's time I listened to him. Lately ... everything just seems cloying.

[there's a pause here]

[Filter: Public]

Father wants me to take a patrol out. It's been too long, he says, and the bandits Lord Hasten put down are bound to start coming back, soon enough. I'm beginning to see the sense in what he's saying, to be honest. No one has ever gotten rid of them forever, and it's been years ...

Perhaps a short sojourn.
Mood: blahblah
30 May 2011 @ 02:23 pm
[Filter: Private]

Oh, this is quaint. Business for Lord Dean in Bresa? Yes, I'm sure. There's always errands you can send a man like that on, when you're the King's Justice and the King's Eyes and Ears, both. You probably do this quite often, don't you, Eli? So very, very quaint.

I almost think that you want your husband to leave Temair. Why would you wish such a reliable sort of man away from your side, especially when he's sworn to protect you from all manner of rogues and deviants?

You put yourself as risk, my sweet.

Well, once he leaves, we'll see what we can do about that, shall we?

[Filter: Public]

A more beautiful spring morning, I haven't seen in an age! No sort of day to be cooped up inside, certainly. Anita, my dear, would you like to accompany me out into the city? I have a longing to spend some money, and I do hate making purchases alone, with no one to exclaim over them.
Mood: amusedamused
30 May 2011 @ 02:42 pm
[Filter: Lorcan]

Oh, Lorcan, I don't know what to do ...! I wish you were here. I don't know what to do, I don't ...
Mood: stressedstressed
30 May 2011 @ 04:20 pm
[Filter: Private]

It's all just too weird. Being a servant is easier than being a knight, I guess, but still...and this castle still gives me the creeps, even if everything's been going okay so far. Who knows how long it'll last...I don't want to just be sitting around waiting for something bad to happen, but something will happen. It's just a question of when.

...hah, always the worrier, aren't you, Andrew. You'd think after all this time I'd be less of one, but...old habits, I suppose.
Mood: worriedworried
30 May 2011 @ 05:00 pm
[Filter: Private]

All that, and I still didn't ask ...

Maybe I don't really want to ask. Maybe I don't really want to get an answer, but I hate that just as much as -- I hate that more than anything else. This is Sawyer. I don't want it to be just another thing that ... ugh.

I should just trust him and put it out of my head. Why can't I just do that?

[Filter: Sa

Heh, and step one should probably be not writing to him and trying to get him to tell me things without actually asking him about them, I think. Right.

[Filter: Lauren]

Hey, Lauren! I just wanted to ask -- I've noticed Rae's been a bit weird, lately. You know, one day she's her old sweet self, and then the next she's ... well, a bit bratty, I guess? I guess she's growing up, huh? Anyway, I know that you're busy being our liege lady and everything, so I thought I'd ask -- is there anything I could do to help with Rae?
30 May 2011 @ 05:07 pm
[Filter: Private]

[it's possible to tell that there was a list here, possibly of names, but it's been scratched out so furiously, with more and more frustration as it goes down the page, that it's impossible to make out anything more than that.]

[Filter: Sky]

I give up!

I thought Miss Rebecca's wedding this afternoon would be the perfect place to introduce Lydia to our replacement boy. Reasonable, right? Romance in the air, everyone's on their best behaviour, Lydia will be looking lovely in her finery. No better time, right?

Only -- none of these boys are suitable. Do you have any idea how awful this court is? Especially at her age, the boys are terrible. They're just old enough to be able to acceptably make use of their cocks and nowhere near old enough to be choosy about how they get there.

I made a list, I went through the names, and I can't think of a single one who hasn't already been snatched up who'll treat her well. I can't pull her out of the jaws of a wolf just to hand her over to a dragon, can I?

I have to be honest. This Jason fellow she's seeing, no matter how it came about ... well, I hate to admit this, but aside from taking a bribe to pay a girl attention, he's ... he's rather chivalrous, I suppose.
Mood: frustratedfrustrated
30 May 2011 @ 09:49 pm

You didn't go easy on me, did you Mister Noland?? Because if THAT was easy, I don't wanna know what HARD was! I feel like lying down for ages and ages! I think I'm gonna take a rest for awhile, so if anyone wants me for anything, I'll be in my room!
Mood: soresore
30 May 2011 @ 09:54 pm
Well, it seems the picnic was a success, don't you? I'm so glad that we managed to get the children off dear Hilary's hands for a little while, Eudora, don't you agree? She seems so much better rested now for having some time spent as she sees fit. And see, Hilary, the children have returned, safe and sound, as I promised you. There was really nothing to worry about~ Why, I think the children may want to do it again~ If you will permit it, of course.
Mood: pleasedpleased
30 May 2011 @ 10:16 pm
You know, it's easy to be impressed by warships and barges and ship-of-the-lines when you know nothing about ships, but I've always been more impressed by ships that can actually move. Frigates, small brigs, anything fast and manoeuvrable. Guess it's the pirate in me. Hard for anyone to get you if you're too fast for them.

Just a thought after seeing some ships bein built in the harbour.
30 May 2011 @ 10:34 pm
[Filter: Private]

Oh, that was all so beautiful, wasn't it, diary? I can only hope that one day my wedding will be as wonderful ... I do wonder what it would be like, to be a bride. Everyone has to make you feel beautiful, and loved, and special! They have to be absolutely certain that you're having the best day of your life ...

Rebecca did look radiant, today. I hope that she and Colin will be very happy together, just as happy as they were today, forever. That's how it should be, after you're married.
Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
30 May 2011 @ 10:43 pm
You know, forget it. I could stay here late and deal with all this crap, I'm sure that's what they want me to do, but I think instead I'm just going to call it a night and go home. Or maybe even go out! I could use some going out time to unwind, some ...

Would anyone be interested, I mean, you know what they say about drinking alone~ Pathetic!
Mood: stressedstressed
30 May 2011 @ 10:57 pm

I guess this means I'd better be on the lookout for mother and the rest of the girls, soon? Most of the rest of the girls, anyway. I want you to know, Helene, without you here my hair hasn't been braided properly in months. Months! See what you've done??

How long has it been since we've had the entire family here? I guess it's a good thing it's so rare an occassion, the poor manor is just going to give up and burst, one day. Meathans everywhere. It won't be pretty.
30 May 2011 @ 11:13 pm
Oh, my, but Lady Ruseia is a talented woman, isn't she? Did anyone else happen to see her in the practice yard, this evening? I certainly wouldn't be volunteering myself to face that, any time soon~ Though I hear she's been making noises about her interest in testing her skills against, oh, certain others~ It would seem she's especially interested in seeing how Taerin's techniques differ from Eina's~ Just a rumour I've heard in passing, of course~ ♥

I suppose I'm not really surprised to hear that Korin nobility prefer to test each other on the field, but I will say I much prefer the ... southern way of getting to know one another. That is, settled in plushy chairs over a bottle of Diarnay Gold~ ♥ Have you seen what passes for a social drink, here? No flavor to it at all, sigh~
Mood: amusedamused
30 May 2011 @ 11:40 pm
[Filter: Private]

Ooh ... it's just horrible ... I've even been having these horrible nightmares lately. I mean, it's not even like I know what exactly they look like or what they even are, but I can't stop thinking about these horrible, half-frozen people with their dead eyes and dark faces and ooh ... it's just so creepy ...!

This is just awful ... I don't know why these stories are scaring me so much ...! Everyone says they aren't real, and I should believe them when they say that, right?

... but it just isn't right ...
Mood: blahblah
Elliot (Adrian)
30 May 2011 @ 11:54 pm
[Filter: Private]

It's the both of them, now, it must be. Chasing ghosts. What else could it be?

After all that talk about keeping Karlesta well out of it -- why has it changed? Hm.

[Filter: Melyndra, in Atsirian]

Judging by the state of our affairs, then ... I gather we will not be departing with Lady Tyrande's retinue?
Mood: curiouscurious