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Kara (Aekaran)
27 May 2011 @ 12:53 am
[Filter: Davan]

Well, I asked.
Mood: stressedstressed
27 May 2011 @ 04:18 pm
[Filter: Private]

I just won't let myself be alone with him too much, that's all. I'll spend as much time as possible with my studies and Lancel.

...but I should still ask him at some point, should I? About what Lian said...I don't understand, if he feels so strongly for me why would he want me to leave? Unless it's because he doesn't want me here if I'll never No. He's not like that, Stephanie, he wouldn't have taken you in at all if he was. I-it must be a misunderstanding, that's all. Maybe he thinks I want to leave.

...or maybe he is upset about what happened in Aelvir. Edeyn told me not to worry so much, that it wasn't my fault, but it's hard not to blame myself. Not when I made such a stupid mistake and caused all those people all that trouble.

I'll have to talk to him. But when?
Mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable
27 May 2011 @ 04:58 pm
[Filter: Private]

I don't think I've ever been so happy.

Dragons, I never -- I never imagined what it could be like, but now I'm here, and I damn well can't imagine life without her. I'm one of those idiot boys who loses his head and becomes boring and settled and content, and I wouldn't trade it.

Any day now. We see a moment where no one's looking, and we run. Just her and me, fleeing across Dentoria, looking forward to the future ...

Father will love her, in the end. He'll have to. And a Dentorian noblewoman is a far better wife than a Kanemorian madwoman. He can't complain about that, at least. This might be the best, most accidental marriage our family has ever made.

I'm taking her home with me. The rest of my life starts here.
Mood: contentcontent
Lady Cerise of House Allba
27 May 2011 @ 06:26 pm
I had to have my seamstress let out all my gowns today. She's still not quite done them. I have a lot of gowns! But she's finished most of my favourites, and my best nightgown.

I'm showing, now. Everyone keeps telling me that!! Everytime they see me, they wink and say that I'm showing and soon I'll be waddling about everywhere. All the mothers tell me stories about when they were pregnant. They say that this was the best time of it, that they felt so good and they miss that part!

I do feel good! Actually, I feel wonderful!! I am showing! I see myself in the mirror and I can see it!

I haven't felt the baby move, yet ... but soon, I hope!! My midwives say I should start hearing them within the next month!

Colin wants me to come visit before I'm too far along, but ... I don't want to take the risk, I really don't. I've waited too long for something to go wrong! I told him that he should come see me, and to bring Mother and Father along. I haven't gotten a letter back, just yet, but maybe soon!!

Oh -- here's my seamstress! I think she's finished more of my dresses!
Mood: happyhappy
27 May 2011 @ 06:32 pm
[Filter: Allison]

Can you believe Jeremy? Even now he still won't show any remorse for what he did! All he cares about is whether his precious Lady Elthea is okay...I can't be the only one who wants to slap him. I won't, of course, that's not going to help find her, but still.

...I wonder how far she could've gotten by now. She has to stop and rest sometime, after all...if only we knew where to look, we could catch her while she's resting and bring her back. Probably not a very realistic plan, but still.
Mood: angryangry
27 May 2011 @ 08:40 pm
[Filter: Private]

At first, it was just awful.

What Tarmon did, and what Friska had to suffer, and how angry Father was, and how strange it was the no one could find him, that night. It was hard. It was terrible. And I thought that time would never end. But ... but now ...

Father really means to -- control him. Tarmon's hardly been allowed to do anything without Father's approval and permission. And the moment he says anything awful to any of us, Father just -- oh, how he snaps. And Tarmon had that look about him, but he's even stopped fighting it. He knows that there isn't any point.

He's still terrible when Father isn't there to see, but -- but I think even that is getting less.

It's like something from a dream. I can't help but flinch when Father raises his voice, like he does, and I'm sure that Tarmon takes it all out on Isanae, when no one is looking, and Friska should never have had to see the hardship that she did in order for this to happen, but, but ... after all these years, could it be that Father will force Tarmon to grow up?

I can scarcely dare to hope ...

[Filter: Benedette]

You just wouldn't believe how things are here, lately, Dette.
Mood: hopefulhopeful
27 May 2011 @ 08:57 pm
Oh Dragons.

Leon, Angela's pregnant.

I -- I snuck into her room when I had chores by it and nobody was looking and she looks ready to pop. Leon, she's pregnant.

I don't even know what else to say.
Mood: shockedshocked
27 May 2011 @ 09:56 pm
[Filter: Ree]


This ... is going to sound crazy, but I need you to look into something for me while you're out there trying to find out what's going on with that potential third party.

... you know all this talk we keep hearing about some sort of undead?
Mood: embarrassedembarrassed
27 May 2011 @ 10:51 pm

My gown for the wedding is nearly ready!

I've never owned anything so beautiful, before. It's so strange ...! When I first went to court with the dress my Lady Mother had made for me, for my debut, I thought the same thing. I felt so grown up! But now, looking at this dress ... I really didn't realize just how simple my tastes had been, I suppose ...

It's mostly in the traditional style, but my Lady Mother likes the cut of Megami style gowns, so she had our seamstress work some of that influence into the traditional Atsirian look. I think I'll be the only on wearing anything like it. I'm so excited ...

Of course, I'll pale next to you, Your Majesty. You'll be the most beautiful woman in all of the world, on your wedding day.

Ummmmm, James, I still want to see you in one of your nice new suits ...! Maybe your mother would let you wear one out? That would be nice, wouldn't it ...?
Mood: excitedexcited
Felicia of Mansoure
27 May 2011 @ 11:22 pm
[Filter: Private]

She'll be here soon, I can hardly believe it. I hope the trip hasn't been difficult for her.

I almost feel like a girl all over again, wanting to impress her, hoping she's proud of me. I know she is, but it's hard not to feel a little...well, nervous. I just need to relax, everything will be fine. She'll be so happy to see everyone, we'll make her feel welcome...she certainly picked a wonderful time to come!
Mood: happyhappy