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Keran of Sarrca
01 May 2011 @ 12:04 am
[Filter: Private]

This is ridiculous.

You should have broken long before now. I have been at you every day, Crow. No man is this strong-willed. No woman is this strong-willed. Any other person under my attentions this long would have broken.

Why not you?

Do I need to redouble my efforts? Do I need to try something new? I'm always willing to experiment, Crow, that's no trouble. But why, how are you holding on? It is impossible. Logically, it's impossible. No human mind can bear this for so long, and whatever you like to tell yourself, you are only human.

And I'll prove it. I'll prove it to you, and to everyone else in this Dragonsforsaken country.
Mood: frustratedfrustrated
01 May 2011 @ 12:22 am
[Filter: Private]

I'm keeping the secret so well that it's a secret from me... This is the only way we can really talk, why am I avoiding it?

[Filter: Aileen]

I don't think there's ever going to be a good time when we're not being watched. It seems like every time we go anywhere, there are always too many people around. Guards... Friends... But I have been thinking of ways to get closer to you. I miss being able to be around you, and not having a pretense that we're not together.
01 May 2011 @ 12:25 am
[Filter: Eve]

So, this is another of those months where I don't have much to tell you, but I do have a little and it's horribly puzzling. But then, that seems to be becoming a bit of a pattern, with this war.

The troops on the Hanmor side of this are armed to the teeth to take down mages, as I've told you. But Aekaran has discovered there are apparently only four in the entire Nasen army, and I think you know those numbers don't add up. Four mages are dangerous, true, but still, only four of them? Chances are most of the skirmishes will never even involve one. And while I'm taking a gamble on this, I'd be willing to wager that the Hanmor numbers are very much similar to our own.

I don't like any of it. Something else is going on here.
Mood: pensivepensive
Father Forbes of Megam
01 May 2011 @ 12:31 am
I've had an interesting retreat from the city, but it seems I've come back at a bad time. Everyone seems to be busy. Well, not everyone, but there are certainly a number who seem to be unavailable when I'm coming to call.

I think I should try to get back into the swing of things. Maybe taking on a new student will help? There must be someone around who needs some help, after all.
01 May 2011 @ 12:34 am
[Filter: Benedette]


I talked to Leon! About ... you!! But I didn't say anything, don't worry! I remembered you didn't want me to say anything to him. I was just curious what he'd tell me about what he thought of you ...

And, um.

Do you think you can make him happy? Like, really? I'm not trying to ... I'm just looking out for him. He's my big brother. He's my only brother. And he's been there for me since I was little ...
Mood: jealousjealous
01 May 2011 @ 12:35 am
[Filter: Private]

Very little has changed, except my sister for the worst. Being heir has gone to her head, but I will find a way to take it back. I will not let her ruin what this house stands for.

It is relieving, at least, that Lady Lauren dislikes her as well, and is speaking to me again. She is handling herself wonderfully. I would not have thought she would have had it in her. Now if only I could get Lady Celeste to speak to me again.


[Filter: Lady Celeste]

So, I am curious as to what you think of my home~
Mood: determineddetermined
Hayden of Rhia
01 May 2011 @ 12:36 am
[Filter: Private]

I don't even know where to begin with this. This petty squabbling is something I've done my best to stay out of over the years. Not that I'm not proud of the boys for finding out about this and bringing it to my attention. Dragons only know what could have happened if they hadn't. But I just don't know what to do next. Make that I do know what has to happen but I don't quite know the best way to go about it.

Somehow, Rachelle needs to be convinced to speak. An explanation may not make things better but I doubt it can hurt her case. The worst thing that could happen is that it confirms the initial suspicion that it's all about Devine's sudden rise in Grandfather's esteem.

And, of course, the apothecary needs to determine just what was in that drink.

Until both these things happen, all we can do is wait and try to avoid too many rumours flying out about it, though given how many people were at the party to witness things that may be the hardest part.
01 May 2011 @ 12:43 am
[Filter: Mi]

Listen. Lord Niall is riding me about naming my replacement. I need an answer, and I'm sick of you stalling and not giving me one. I can only stall him for so long before he is going to go and pick a replacement for me.
Mood: annoyedannoyed
01 May 2011 @ 12:45 am
Well, I went out, and I checked with all of the people in street. All the fucking people in the street. Yeah, there are rumours about whatever this bullshit is that's got everyone's panties in a knot, but here at least they aren't panicking. They know that we're not going to let anything into the city. Rayla's the safest place in Korin, and by the giant sky lizards it's going to fucking stay that way.

I had to use a lot of alcohol to get this information, but I've got no regrets. Not a dragonsdamned regret at all.

You might say to yourself "if they were drunk, how can you trust what they said?" To that, I'm going to say that I've never known drunk people to lie that well. If they were lying, they were doing a damned good job of it, and they earned their alcohol. And a place in the dungeons for treason. We can charge people for treason if they were lying to me, right?

Yeah, maybe not. Anyway, I think I've made my point.
01 May 2011 @ 12:45 am
[Filter: Cameryn]

Have you thought any more about what I discussed with you? I can show you the letter I received from my convent if you would like. I do not wish to tell anyone else about it until I had your blessing first. It will help convince Mother if it is not just my own idea.
Mood: worriedworried
01 May 2011 @ 12:48 am
He seemed so ... different.
Mood: blahblah
Anita of Vernhail
01 May 2011 @ 12:48 am
[Filter: Private]

I ... I do miss spending the Moon Festival at home.

That sounds horribly ungrateful of me. Lady Eliza went to so much work to make everything perfect, and it was absolutely marvelous. I should be happy that we were here for it, truly, but ...

It's simply been so long since I was at home, I suppose. Everyone would tease me about how excited I was for just a story and some moon dumplings, but they would always let me have it, in the end ...

I -- I know it's awful of me to be homesick. I have Lord Nicolas here, and it's more than I could ever dream of, just being with him, but ...

It's just not the same, and it's been so long.
Mood: sadsad
01 May 2011 @ 12:53 am
[filter: col]

you always find the best places to take me on dates~ ♥ i had such a good time last night!
Mood: lovedloved
01 May 2011 @ 12:59 am
[Filter: Amalea]

Why do men suck so much?
Mood: lonelylonely
01 May 2011 @ 01:02 am
[Filter: Private]

Dragons, I need to stop being so --

[Filter: Elizabeth]

I'm sorry. I -- I really am sorry. I know what you were trying to do, and it's a good thing. You want to take care of him. Of both of us, and -- and that's admirable, and you shouldn't ...

I just felt judged. And ... and maybe more defensive than I should have been, I just ...

I'm sorry.
Mood: guiltyguilty
Rhoswen of House Karnach
01 May 2011 @ 01:06 am

Aes Eshene, my dear~! I can't hold my wagging tongue anymore, and I've never been particularly good at it! You've looked so damned radiant the past week, ever since your birthday party! There's just something about you that's ... different!

Oh, and I love those little blue butterflies you've been wearing all the time, lately. I think my brother got them for you? I don't remember for sure, but they just bring our your eyes so perfectly! I want a pair for myself!

I bet it was nice having a day when you got to be the centre of attention, with your brother and my cousin taking up all the eyes lately -- and rightly so~~ Still, it's nice standing in spotlight!
Mood: cheerfulcheerful
01 May 2011 @ 01:07 am
[Filter: Anton]

Anton!!!! We can help her right!?? I promised you'd be able to help and that she could trust you and that you could help and that I'd help too but I don't know what to do and she's helped me so much already I want to make it up to her but I don't know how and I don't know what to do and I don't like seeing her like this at all and you have to help!!!
Mood: worriedworried
01 May 2011 @ 01:10 am
[Filter: Casey]

You okay? I can tell you have something on your mind that you're not talking about you know. Whatever it is, you can tell me. You know that right?

Is it Brett again?
Mood: curiouscurious
01 May 2011 @ 01:21 am
[Filter: Private]


I'm a hypocrite.

[Filter: Demi]


Well, I knew that Clarissa hasn't been herself, and I knew that she was hiding something, but I hadn't expected ... that.
Mood: blahblah
Rae of House Taerin
01 May 2011 @ 01:35 am
[Filter: Private]

Lauren's right!! I have to start acting like a Lady and do whatever I want and no one can tell me otherwise.

[Filter: Public]

I'm going to take Siuan flying and we're going to the very top of the castle and we're going to be able to see the entire city and the country around it from up there. It's going to be really really great and Siuan is going to love it!

Does anyone want to come with me~?!
Mood: determineddetermined
01 May 2011 @ 01:37 am
[Filter: Ella]

You know what?

Not everybody is you! Not everybody gets their enjoyment from working and micromanaging and controlling. Some of us just want to stand outside in the rain, and climb on top of buildings, and get drunk on crappy wine nobody likes and sing dumb songs, and play cards with friends. When was the last time you played cards with your friends? Oh, that's right, you don't have friends. I don't want your life!

If being useless and a big baby means laughing sometimes and being able to put your feet on a table without panicking that you just watched it, then I'll be a big useless baby!

I'm not going back to Harcha, okay? I'm staying in Floran. I like it here.

You're not my mother, you know. You're not!
Mood: angrytantrum
01 May 2011 @ 01:41 am
[Filter: Private]

Dragons... I've spent how many days looking now and... nothing. I should just give up. At least then I won't have to keep that promise to Elden about... that. It's nice every once in a while but... it's just not the same... and it's not like he's actually interested in me. He just wants...

But how am I going to get better if I don't find a way to push myself? I gave up the ability to use magic how I used to love it to protect myself... and to help everyone here... and if I don't try to do better would it still have been worth it?
Mood: contemplativecontemplative
01 May 2011 @ 01:58 am
[Filter: Private]

No, I don't understand. I'll never understand. I try to, but you're right, I can't.

But you don't understand everything that's at risk, because if you did ... none of this would matter.

Ugh. Those two are just ... determined to set themselves on fire, aren't they? Why can't they see that if they do that, they aren't the only ones who burn? I ... I can't take that. After everything. After what I did, just so that I could keep my family.

I can't take losing it. It's already falling apart, and there's nothing I can do, and everything I try just ... seems to make it worse.

I shouldn't have wasted my time. Emery isn't any saner than Destin.
Mood: discontentdiscontent
Lissandra of Veirnan
01 May 2011 @ 12:39 pm
It has been wonderful having Edeyn and Stephanie back. Something about the castle feels ... lighter, now that the two of you have returned. I hope you have found that household matters have been run to your satisfaction, Edeyn. I am certainly glad for the experience.
Mood: pleasedpleased
01 May 2011 @ 02:21 pm
[Filter: Private]

Ghosts. Walking dead. Fucking hell.

Not only do I have to teach the men the quickest way to deal with the enemy, I have to stamp out stories their grandmothers tell to get them to be good little boys. And then maybe figure out where it's coming from. Ree's not here, so looks like I'll have to do.

Need a drink.
Mood: grumpygrumpy
Lady Tyrande of House Sarris
01 May 2011 @ 02:41 pm
[Filter: Private ; Atsirian]

News of the wedding has spread. Everyone is glad for the Queen, glad that she may find some measure of happiness after the tragedies of her young life. It is a political marriage, of course, but at least she had a choice in the matter, and she seems to genuinely like him.

It will be a happy day. And who knows, perhaps it may serve to inspire some romance elsewhere.
Lady Eliza of Temair
01 May 2011 @ 02:45 pm
[Filter: Nicolas]

Mood: scaredafraid
Lady Isanae of House Lireth
01 May 2011 @ 07:43 pm
[Filter: Private, in Old Dentorian]

What a pointless gesture all this is. The knights play at swords and lances, the people pretend to be enthralled with their efforts, all glance about and at one another and pretend nothing is amiss on this fine day, this lovely Spring Fair. Isaac sits there in his pavilion and watches it all with a face that may well be carved from stone, and he may as well have Tarmon leashed to him, with how close he keeps him. My lord husband himself, well, suffice to say that I do not look forward to contending with his mood, tonight. You can be sure all have noted Fransisca's absence, that chair near her father she might normally occupy, empty and drawing every eye like an emblazoned banner.

Nonsense, all of it. Ella insists that niceties must be observed, but I suspect she simply needs some mundane thing to direct her efforts to, and the fair suits that purpose for her well enough.

I would retire early, if I thought I could get away with it. And He Hah. Does Austin honestly think I am paying any attention to his theatrics, there? It hardly matters who wins the joust, idiot, no one will remember this disaster of a holiday for the tourney, I promise you that.
Mood: annoyedannoyed
Lord Glenn of House Rowan
01 May 2011 @ 08:39 pm
[Filter: Private]

She ought to be flattered, really, that anyone might express interest in Lord Brendan's leavings.

Well, a man has needs, and if she's content to guard her sacred cunt like the royal treasury itself, then I wish her the joy of that empty bloody bed of hers.

[Filter: Dillon]

I find that I am in no mood to stand by the Lady Regent's frozen sculpted side, today. If the bitch asks where I've gone, kindly inform her that a celebrating city holds much appeal for me, and I thought it better to enjoy myself elsewhere than to spoil my Lady's occassion with my unwanted presence.
Mood: frustratedfrustrated
01 May 2011 @ 08:55 pm
[Filter: Nathan]

I know I said it before, but, wow. I'm so sorry about that. That definitely wasn't them at their best ...

I hope it hasn't scared you off of them forever. Heh.

[Filter: Demi]

So that was something, yeah? Have to talked to Inara, since? Or ... Clarissa, even? I'm not even really sure what to say ... I've been avoiding it, myself, to be honest.
Mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable