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Stephan of Rhia
01 April 2011 @ 12:04 am
[The writing is slow and careful]

The play was good. Aleta chose one with plot that was not taxing to follow. Good music. Unfortunately, I cannot remember the time. I suppose it hardly matters, if I had a pleasant time. But it does bother me. It was not so long since I saw it.
Mood: tiredtired
01 April 2011 @ 12:13 am
[Filter: Private]

Mmm. I still find that I can't shake the feeling that there was more to his question than what he said.

Perhaps it's just, ah, the time of year. Aine has certainly been on my mind a great deal, the last month, as she always does around her birthday. I wouldn't blame him for asking questions about romance and diverging paths when that's heavy on his mind. But certainly, if that were all, wouldn't he say it? Especially after I'd already brought her up.

I'll keep my eye on him. That boy would drive himself off a cliff, if not for someone watching to be sure he didn't, I swear. He always did worry me, mn.

[Filter: Lord Gebann]

Haa, well, if all these trees really do mean that we're on our way to Eina well and true, now, I suppose I should start thinking about what exactly I'm doing with your disguise, shouldn't I~?
Mood: curiouscurious
01 April 2011 @ 12:24 am
[Filter: Private]

Oh faeries and Dragons and everything else! There's only ten days left. How did that even happen? I'm sure I have no idea.

I think everything we need to know about has been decided at least. Now it's just time to bring it all together. Of course, the idea of that makes me a little sick to my stomach. I never would have imagined that this could be so much work. And the wedding isn't even that big!

I am really excited though. Very, very excited.
01 April 2011 @ 12:25 am
Dear Irving,

Go hunting immediately. Drag your brother along for the ride. Take the good arrows.

Our fondest regards,
The stomachs of everyone here.
01 April 2011 @ 12:27 am
[Filter: Private, in Kilian]

At least we're getting close, I suppose.

I'm ... nervous, that much is true. I don't ever know what to expect of the Moon Festival, and I know even less this time. With the stories we've heard, with the information I haven't been able to find, with the rumors circling ... and with the moons themselves. If they are some sort of focus, well, that explains a thing or two, but there are so many other questions ... How would no one have ever put the pieces together before now? What about this is so -- if the moons are a focus, why has no one ever guessed?

And, of course, who could be powerful enough to do all of this, but that's the question I keep refusing to answer, isn't it.

I wish there was someone I could ask about this. Someone who would at least understand my -- hesitation in all of this. Why I can't simply believe ... why I can't come to an answer that satisfies me. But there's only one person here who might see what I'm struggling with, and ... and I can't ask Aileen about it.

I can't ask anyone about it.

Aelinoir was terrified. Aelinoir told me what she did to try and keep me safe as much as her. In veiled words and subtleties, and maybe even then, she went too far. I don't even know if she's still alive. I -- hope, but ... but when she went to those lengths to try and help me, even at her own peril ...

I still wish she could have come with us. Maybe she would have more answers about this. Or at least some idea of where to look for them.
Mood: pensivepensive
01 April 2011 @ 12:30 am
So far I have to say that I think the shell collecting idea is quite a good one. Siera has found some lovely shells for her collection already and they all look very nice. I do not know who made that suggestion but it was a sound one.

[Filter: Private]

I still do not know why she needed this hobby. Maybe I should just stop trying to understand why she does anything, the questions never get answered.
01 April 2011 @ 12:32 am
[Filter: Aileen, in Kilian]

I figure it's as good a time as any to ask you for an update. What are the lot of you getting up to these days? Other than apparently hunting moose? That sounds a bit exciting and ... dangerous.

Have things becoming any easy for you?
Francisca of Emeron
01 April 2011 @ 12:46 am
[Filter: Private]

Wow, he really is intent on finding something out! If I didn't know any better, I would think Tarmon was going to tear the castle apart looking for this secret! He's not exactly being quiet about it. I should just say out of his way...

I'm getting closer and closer to finally beating Cavilla again! I've done it once already, and it's not like working her into these fits is getting harder. It took me two weeks of hard work to really get under her skin again, and she's starting to get paranoid. She's seeing things I'm not even trying to do! Just another few days and I should win again.
01 April 2011 @ 01:21 am
[Filter: Private]

I haven't heard from you, my dear.

Giving it thought, are you? Letting it roll around in your mind? Making absolutely certain, just as I asked?

Well, take your time. I want you steadfast and sure.

But there's no need to draw it out. You already know your answer ...
Mood: cheerfulcheerful
01 April 2011 @ 01:33 am
All the people at all the events I stand with Prince Julian for have been ah so exciteable lately!! And there have been a very many lot of events!

Everyone is always talking about the candidates! They finally got announced just very recently after a lot of talking about ah such, and ah I still really don't understand how it all works, but everyone always wants to argue about who is better!! It doesn't seem as if anybody can agree on anything at all ...

Prince Julian told me which one he likes better, but he didn't say why. I don't suppose I would have understood it, so I'm not upset about that ~~ I didn't ask, anyway!

I just don't like seeing everyone disagreeing, and everyone is! The way it's done in Dentoria seems er much more easy, doesn't it? It's all very simple when it's just a matter of ah birth ...

... I haven't had much time to look for my friend ...
Mood: confusedconfused
01 April 2011 @ 02:02 am
[Filter: Private]

I hate it. I hate it, I crapping hate it, but I have to admit that yeah, okay, maybe, maybe ... maybe she has a point. Maybe. I don't -- I don't know.

I just --

I don't know.

[Filter: Eri]

So, like --

I didn't bring this up when we were talking yesterday because you were really upset about that whole Col thing, and that's cool, but if you're maybe calmed down a bit today, I like ... sort of have something on my mind and I'd really like to talk about it and get an honest opinion from you and yeah.
Mood: blah:|!!!
01 April 2011 @ 02:04 am
[Filter: Private, in Kilian]

It's strange being this close to possibly being finished. If we find the artifact, and we successfully get it out of here, then we'll have to run for the safest way out. Whoever these people are, they have a good deal of resources. It won't be a safe journey until...

Well, I told my followers that they might have to lead themselves for a time. It's not as if this isn't important. If I want to make sure this artifact leaves Megam, I will have to go with her to make sure nothing happens on her journey home. If only to the border of Kilia. I'm not optimistic enough to think she'll want a foreigner going with her past the surrounding mountains.

She may not even want me on the boat. Though I'm not quite foolish enough to let that happen. I'm going to get her safely to her home. We're going to survive this if we have to cut and burn out way through every cursed, suicidal maniac in this entire country.
Damien of Noye
01 April 2011 @ 02:10 am
My name has been cleared of piracy. Circumstances do have a way of turning ironic though. I have to make myself useful if I want to be seen as a reasonable seagoer. They just happened to have a shipment of biscuit that has to be delivered to an island in the general direction I want to go. My first venture as a "merchant" will be loss of profit from the outset.

It's a good thing I'm not planning to make a life of this.
01 April 2011 @ 02:22 am
[Filter: Private]

I can hardly believe this!

I ... I almost feel that I should be jealous, isn't that strange? I should feel it somehow unfair, that Benedette has gotten everything she could possibly have wanted, and Fartgus is about to leave Emeron forever with Chloe at his side. But, I can't, oh, I can't! I can only feel so happy for her.

Happy, and sad, of course! I do feel sad for her! How dangerous and complicated and miserable it is, how tragic! She's betrothed! But oh -- it sounds like she's -- ah, but she wouldn't! She just wouldn't. I know my sister, truly, she's the responsible one, she's grounded and proper and correct, always correct, and ... and ...

And she loves him, and love makes fools of absolutely everyone! And why shouldn't she do something a little bit foolish? It's not as if he's a pauper! He's a nobleman, in his own way. And surely there will be someone else for Lord Antony. Perhaps even ... Ah, there's no --

Oh, my dear, dear sister. You never thought you'd find romance, did you? And here, here it is, the most inspired romance I've ever heard of outside of a novel! I can't wait until she tells me absolutely everything. I want to hear it all ...

Poor, tragic, lucky, wonderful Benedette.
Mood: excitedexcited
Queen Edalene of Atsiria
01 April 2011 @ 02:29 am


I always thought that nothing could be more glamorous and exciting and wonderful as planning for a big, formal, important ball. But I was so wrong! Planning for a big, formal, and oh so very important wedding is much, much, much, much better!

I hate that this is the only time I'm ever going to get married, because I want to do this, again! Everything needs to be so big and dramatic! Ooh, and no one tries to tell me to scale back, nobody at all! Everyone knows how special this is~!

I'm having so much fun!
Mood: energeticenergetic
Symeon of Veirnan
01 April 2011 @ 02:36 am
[Filter: Private]

Oh, Lian ...

I don't understand.

Why do you not want Stephanie to come home? I know that she's felt left out, but ...

She doesn't understand. It's not -- it's not something she -- it's not as if I'm taking something meant for Lian, and giving it to Stephanie. Nothing has changed. Before ... before, it was Myca who I made my focus. And Stephanie isn't a replacement for Myca, but ...

Or maybe she is, in a way, but is that so bad? Everyone ... everyone needs a replacement, sometimes. It still doesn't mean ...

... and she wouldn't tell me. What am I supposed to do, or think, when she doesn't even do that?

I don't know what to do. And I don't understand. Lian has always been the sweetest girl, the most selfless, the most giving, the most ...

Why would she feel this way?
Mood: confusedconfused
01 April 2011 @ 03:14 am
[Filter: Private]

I should probably wonder what happens to me, if Lucius ever finds out that Destin lies to him to spend time with me. Haha, after what I did ... what I said to him ... how this all started ...

I don't.

[Filter: Public]

Er, one of the books that I was working on, these past few weeks, I've actually found a very, ah, enlightening read.

It was about the mediums. It's rare to actually read any documentation about them. The Church tends to try and keep most of it secret. It's not ... regulated, exactly, just kept under control and suggested to be ... well, private.

But this book was fairly frank. It was older, so that might explain it ...

Ah, it mostly just talked about what their abilities can actually do, which is the least we know, isn't it? We see them all the time, especially here in Lucre, but most natives don't pay much attention to them. And, ah, pilgrims and such don't tend to ask questions. We know where to find them, and we know they give small benedictions and prophecies and that they often come true. And we know that certain forms of incense and, er, herbs can enchance the effect, and that hurricanes on the horizon make their abilities stronger ...

Anyway, what I read, it was a fascinating account by an actual medium who was retired from service. She hadn't had visions in years, but had apparently been fairly powerful when she had, and often served in the Grand Temple outside the Chamber of the Altar because of it. She actually wrote about her visions, themselves, which is what we never hear about.

The most interesting thing was ... well, her visions were all visual, always. Er, that sounds like it should be obvious, but she said that she would "see" things in the air, quite physically, and that it would always be silent, there was never any sort of sense involved other than the visual, which I found interesting! What she'd prophecy would then be based on those images. They could be quite detailed, she said ...

She did recount one occurrence when she had a vision that had sound with it. She was on a ship, visiting family on an island, and her ferry was hit by the tail of a hurricane. She was knocked almost senseless by a loose bit of equipment, and she said that when she was there, she had a vision that involved a woman singing. It was the most vivid she'd had, she said, and she swore the saw the images in the clouds, themselves.

Er, of course ... most assumed she was just ... well, she was hit awfully hard, and she was middle-aged by this time, so everyone thought ... ah, but I thought it was interesting. She'd know a vision, wouldn't she? Logically ...

... er, that's ... I just ... thought it was an engaging read, I ... that's all.
Mood: goodgood
01 April 2011 @ 03:21 am
[Filter: Private]

Empathy wasn't what I expected to gain from that.

I wish ... mn. I wish that he'd been willing to take the offer, after that. Not for the same reasons, anymore. No, Sir Sawyer, you became a real person to me after your confession and explanation, and so the game was over and certainly no longer amusing. But sex was the drug I needed, and part of me wishes I could have administered it to you.

Silly. He can't even begin to understand what I've seen, what I've done, and what I've been cursed with. We're not the same. We're more different than ever. It's foolish.

Empathy is such an illogical force.

I should have given it up when Fayre first teased me. Now, look at what it's done. I can't get free of these thoughts and memories.

I miss when it was so easy to just be someone else, get lost in the mindless games, and forget about Elden and Michael, both. I miss that so much. That game is over, isn't it? My first mistake was to try and pretend I could still play it at all.

Where is this all headed? Dragons, dragons, I'm slipping more and more, and caring less and less.

There's art to it, though. If I were going to choose where to come apart, well -- Korin would be the place.
Mood: blankblank
Messenger of Darkness
01 April 2011 @ 03:57 am
[the writing is wild]

Soon. Oh, Dragons, soon. So soon. Everything is coming together. So, so soon. Just keep me through a little bit longer. Steady. Steady. Steady ...
01 April 2011 @ 02:41 pm
[Filter: Private]

We are not far from Eina now, so I'm told. We could be there for the Moon Festival, if we are not delayed. We will have to be careful here. The forest provides ample opportunity for any attacker to hide and surprise.

There seems to be an air of uneasiness here. I will have to ask Gebann about it one day.
Mood: anxiousanxious
01 April 2011 @ 03:30 pm

Mother has had the idea that it's never too early to have the triplets start learning their letters. Poor children. They're going to look back on this time and realise that this was the day they stopped having fun. They're growing up way too fast.
Mood: boredbored
Hazel of Aeda
01 April 2011 @ 04:17 pm
[Filter: Private]

This has gone better than I envisioned. He seems to be truly enjoying the book. It is good to know that I have done something right. Perhaps after this, he will be willing to try something more ... refined. Or would that be going to quickly? Perhaps I should just wait until we have finished with Gulliver's Travels. Yes, I believe that would be best.
Mood: happyhappy
Lady Eliza of Temair
01 April 2011 @ 04:23 pm
[Filter: Private]

If I approach him, I can never take it back. It cannot be erased. My betrayal would be complete.

And in the face of that, I still cannot refuse.
Mood: nauseatednauseated