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Lord Rylan of Allba
16 March 2011 @ 12:06 am
[Filter: Private, in Korin]

This is a good desk. For two weeks now I have told myself that this desk has been in the family for at least two generations. It is good, solid wood. It has held the weight of the entire economy of Dentoria. The only desks that have held more financial weight are my goodbrother's, and Lord Nicolas's.

Every time I sit at it, I get the same vague images of when I bent that woman over it.

Not even Cerise has ever had that honor, and . . . I feel as if I have shit in my bed. I cannot get rid of the desk. More to the point, I cannot get rid of the guilt. I tried to make it up to Cerise, but I made things worse by making her sick.

Now this place where I used to go to when I needed an escape has turned into a prison of work with no end in sight. As much as I can put on the brave face in public, Lord Nicolas has been gone a little long. It is not as if he has ever been the most reliable man, but I have never had to fix a stupid mistake of his. Show me the work of twenty coin counters, and I will show you forty stupid mistakes at the very least. Now I have the work of two to do in a place I would rather not be.
 
 
Jonathan
16 March 2011 @ 12:08 am
[Filter: Lawrence, Keagan, Jace, Gebann and Dagda]

Well, I'm afraid that I have ... nothing. I've asked my countrymen about this, and there are no answers to be had. We have our ghost stories, of course, but none of them match up with ... with what we've heard. Walking dead, something about the moons? No Kilians I spoke with recognized either of those things from our fairy tales.

I even went so far as to ask if it could be an artifact, like the one we thought might be ... causing Celeste's difficulties, those years ago, but no luck there, either. Whatever is causing this, I don't know what it is.
 
 
Mood: pessimisticpessimistic
 
 
Deborah
16 March 2011 @ 12:47 am
[Filter: Privit]

Ive ben doing my best. Ive been trying so hard that Ive barly been sleeping well at night. Im always doing Josephine's consintrashin tekniks, and my head never seems to want to just ... go to sleep, at the end of the day, after all that work.

I cant help but think it would all cleer up, if theyd just let me see Ariel.

Ive ... Ive ben thinking about her a lot, latly ...

... Ill just need to work harder.
 
 
Mood: exhaustedexhausted
 
 
Queen Edalene of Atsiria
16 March 2011 @ 12:59 am
[Atsirian]

Hee! Oh, this is so fun, isn't it, Matthew? Look at them scurry! Oh, this was the best idea ever, wasn't it~?

This is what I'm always going to do from now on! Whenever I want something from the city, I'll just make them come right up here to the Palace and set it all up for me to enjoy here~

And it smells heavenly, doesn't it? Oh, I do hope we get to eat soon!

Reeve, Cousins~! Are you going to come to my little restaurant set up in the first floor second wind balcony~? If you're all in the Palace, it'll be open ...~
 
 
Mood: chipperchipper
 
 
Oscar
16 March 2011 @ 01:07 am
[Filter: Jayne, in Kilian]

Alina said her first word today. It was "Mama." It was really neat though David says it should have been "Dada." But he's really proud of her too anyway.

I just thought you would want to know.
 
 
 
Xander of Meirsu
16 March 2011 @ 01:10 am
I have been trying to avoid doing so but alas, it must be said! I have, most unfortunately, caught a severe case of writer's block. I simply have not been able to write a single line of music which I thought worth keeping. It is quite the tragedy, I know.

However fear not, I have endured this before and shall do so again! And in the end I know that I will be victorious~
 
 
Eve
16 March 2011 @ 01:12 am
[Filter: Keller]

Heh.

I've seen you, moping about when you think nobody is looking.

You miss her, don't you?
 
 
Mood: touchedtouched
 
 
Isobel
16 March 2011 @ 01:13 am
I think my cold is finally going away, maybe? It's hard to tell especially since it's lasted for so long. And of course it's still really cold all the time and it's hard to get completely better when that happens. But my throat definitely doesn't hurt as much as it did a few days ago.

I really hate it when you get sick for so long though at least I wasn't ever really, really sick.

Thank you again to everyone whose helped with tea and other things. I'm sure that's the only reason I'm feeling better at all!
 
 
Melyndra
16 March 2011 @ 01:15 am
[Filter: Adrian, in Atsirian]

I don't suppose that you've had any luck?
 
 
Mood: workingworking
 
 
Maire of Lysel
16 March 2011 @ 01:16 am
[Filter: Destin]

Is there anything special you'd like to do for next Monday night? It feels like it's been forever since the last one, even though it's only been two weeks. I really wish we could see each other whenever we wanted to, like we used to.

Has your father been in a good mood lately? Maybe I could try talking to him again.
 
 
 
Kray
16 March 2011 @ 01:17 am
Is anyone else glad that almost no one is talking about the Days of Radiance? Not that I want to stop anyone from talking about it, but I've never really seen the point of the holiday at all. I know a few of you are talking about it, and you can go ahead and do that if you really want to. I'm just glad there isn't a giant clutter of it. It gives me faith in humanity, honestly.
 
 
Lyonesse
16 March 2011 @ 01:22 am
[Filter: Private]

Well, this is one minor heartbreak I may be able to prevent before it goes too far.

Mother would have had something to say about how reponsible I feel for the one that slipped through the cracks. Oh, how she hated the way I always felt the need to take the failings of others onto my own shoulders. At the time, I thought it was because she was strong enough not to be affected by them.

I know her better now. She just never had the empathy to care ...

Glad enough that her lessons never ... haa, stuck~

[Filter: Calaith]

Now, dear, I think that I might need to step in and make a suggestion to you, mn~?
 
 
Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
 
 
Erin
16 March 2011 @ 01:30 am
[Filter: Norman, in Kilian]

You're a scholar, and well versed in magic. Do you think there could be some sort of ... of magical property to the moons?
 
 
Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
 
 
Kara (Aekaran)
16 March 2011 @ 01:39 am
[Filter: Davan]

Are you aware that the people here, in this army, know who you are?

It's true. They don't talk when you're here, but when I am, without you, I hear it. The one-armed warrior. They respect you. You ... impress them. None of them can see why you still fight after you lost the arm. Some of them have fingers and toes missing, but a whole sword arm? And you still kill better than half of them.

That's what impresses these men. Who kills the most with the least available arms.

They talk about me, too, and don't bother avoiding having me hear. They say I'm your girl, which is amusing considering our usual arrangement. And the fact that you are far more ladylike than I am, thank you.

I don't understand soldiers. I never did. They drove me mad back home in Quen. Filthy, crude, unrefined, simple. And now I'm sitting among them, eating oily gruel? Oh, my life has taken a turn! I certainly showed Mother just the sort of man I could be outside of her influence, didn't I? So very impressive, Aekaran. She would be floored at my destiny.

Wearing her gowns and being one of her girls seemed like such an insult, when I was younger. So naive.

... trained men or not, I'm going to tell the captain that I'm a mage, well-trained and skilled. Anything is better than this, except for freezing to death trying to go somewhere else.
 
 
Mood: indescribableindescribable
 
 
Eriena//Brendan of Keirnan
16 March 2011 @ 01:47 am
[Filter: Private]

Of course, I can hardly say what I am really thinking, in regards to Emily's increasingly appalling behaviour. That ... that I fear how much of her father she has in her.

I am so grateful for Glenn's hand. He knows precisely what to do with the girl, when all I can feel is exasperation, and -- and terror, that someone looks at her and sees Diarnay's rebellious brat all over her face. While I lose my head to that fear, Glenn calmly identifies exactly how to take her in hand and either show her she is being foolish, or punish her for it without breaking her spirit.

She is spirited. Should I not be glad for that? It is not the mindless spirit of my sisters and cousins. She is a brilliantly intelligent girl, curious and clever. That is what I wanted for my daughter.

I just ...

She has his eyes. His nose. The more she grows, the more evident it becomes. When she takes on his mannerisms, I just ...

... what happens, if Brendan's wayward sister ever comes home? She knows. She knows everything.
 
 
Mood: scaredscared
 
 
 
Caitlin of Bresa
16 March 2011 @ 01:51 am
[Filter: Private, in Kilian]

Every time I see them together or hear about it, it just -

Why can't you see that, love? I have never known you to be blind before. Not e And yet here we are. And even as the weeks pass, I just cannot let go of this idea that you are wrong. Yes, love, wrong.

[Filter: Public, in Trade]

What a fine day today was. True, the air is still quite chilled but the sun was bright and gave everything that lovely glow~

I think perhaps I may venture out for a walk. Anyone who cares to is welcome to join me.
 
 
Matthias of Diarnay
16 March 2011 @ 01:52 am
Wow, okay, then.

This book is defintiely not what I'd have ever expected Four Eyes to get me to read! The first chapter consisted of a storm, a shipwreck, and then the guy wakes up to find tiny people -- yes, you are not reading this wrong! -- crawling all over him and tying him up! And then hauling him off to their town.

Tiny people! I'm not shitting you, here.

It gets some novelty points at least. Something tells me none of my professors back at the Academy would consider this 'literature.'

Not that I ever found out just what that word meant.
 
 
Mood: amusedwhat
 
 
Eudora of Fairen
16 March 2011 @ 01:56 am
[Filter: Private]

It's curious, isn't it. Maybe dear Sister Leana is not quite so simple after all. Perhaps I have been foolish to dismiss her as I have.

And then, of course, there are the other two. It's going to be quite the family reunion, isn't it. Such a happy family too.

[Filter: Public]

Eudora can't wait for everyone to get here. It's too bad we have to wait for so long, waiting for guests is the worst thing ever! But maybe we can plan something special to do for when they do get here, Eudora thinks that would be really nice.
 
 
Lord Hasten of Lireth
16 March 2011 @ 01:58 am
[Filter: Private]

Damn them all.

I tell them to remain vigilant, but I see their guards lowering. She is so harmless, they say with their eyes. They think I am cruel for caging her so. Half of them suspect who she is. How I will ever keep this a secret is a --

I should kill her.

I should just -- go into that wagonback and draw a knife across her throat. It would be a mercy. The woman who was my sister is gone, and that creature should have been put out of its misery an age ago. It would be best for everyone, including her. Before she manages to ruin everything, everything.

I am fooling no one with my plans, not even myself. No garrison on a seaside cliff will hold her, no matter how well outfitted.

Why am I too coward to be kinslayer, now. I killed my own father. How does this compare.
 
 
Mood: frustratedfrustrated
 
 
Justine of Ysak
16 March 2011 @ 02:05 am
[Filter: Rolen]

Do you think I could stay here forever?
 
 
 
Kolton
16 March 2011 @ 02:07 am
Inara, did you find out what it was that Clarissa wanted to talk to you about??? I'm really worried that it might be something bad but it also might be something very good which would be exciting. So which one was it, good or bad?
 
 
Chloe
16 March 2011 @ 02:17 am
Things That Could Possibly Be Beyond The Southern Sea

- Edge of the world. Some people think the world is flat, though that's a little outdated a thought now, because of how the horizon, you know, curves, but still, it's a possibility.

- Ocean, just ocean. Ocean forever and ever. Boring, possible. Probable, maybe. Bollocks.

- More land. Isn't this an amazing bloody thought? Imagine if there's a whole second Eire down there. There could be people with cultures and governments as advances as ours, wondering what's north. Isn't that just the most amazing thought? Maybe they're launching an armada right bloody now to come see what's up here.

- Korin! Because think about it! If the horizon curves, that means the world must be ... round! Right? Stay with me! If you go around a sphere all the way, eventually you end up where you started. So someone could actually get to the far side of Korin, the side we don't know a bloody thing about. Of course, they'd freeze to death.

That's a curious thought to think about. If there is Korin down there, when does it stop getting warmer, and start getting colder?

What do you all think?

I really can't get this out of my bloody brain, since it was brought up.
 
 
Mood: cheerfulscience!!
 
 
Lady Mariana of Tersel
16 March 2011 @ 02:25 am
[Filter: Private]

A spring ball in Lireth. That is quite a tempting idea. It has been so long since I last saw my sister and her children. And their children, my what a thought that is~ Of course, I would not want to impose on the family reunion without being invited to do so. And I shall see everyone in the summer regardless for the wedding.

I also still have not come up with an answer for Gareth's question ...
 
 
Fallyn
16 March 2011 @ 02:31 am
[Filter: Private]

I just ... need to stay focused. When I start thinking about it, I get to nervous, but when I just focus on the dancing, the routine ... I feel a lot better. So I just ... need to do that. Focus on that ...

I can do this! ... maybe ...

[Filter: Lady Benedette]

Did you have a nice talk with your friend ...? I just ... I want you to know, I really don't mind taking care of that for you ...! Actually ... I'm glad to be able to do something for you at all! It never feels as if I can pay you back for everything you do for me ...!
 
 
Mood: nervousnervous
 
 
Nansi
16 March 2011 @ 02:32 am
[Filter: Private, in Kilian]

Tash and sluagh, oh my. Those are two things I haven't thought much of in years. I never really wondered about whether or not they could be real, not since I was old enough to know that they weren't.

Or at least I thought I knew it ...

I hope Aileen is okay.
 
 
 
Symeon of Veirnan
16 March 2011 @ 02:33 am
[Filter: Lian]

Sweetling! I, ah, I had a thought, and I can't really do it alone, and I perhaps should have gone to Lissandra, but ...

Ah, well, I'd rather it be you.
 
 
Mood: cheerfulcheerful
 
 
Emery
16 March 2011 @ 02:38 am
[Filter: Private]

'It's not like you're responsible for this,' he says. Except ... I am.

... and I still don't even feel badly. And I can't even bring myself to feel badly about not feeling badly. Ugh.

He's miserable. But I'm happy. And I do what I can for him, whenever I can, and I give him everythng I have, and it makes him feel better, and ... and he hasn't said a single word about the baby in months. And I just can't feel bad, not even when he says something like that.

Maybe ... this is what Destin feels like. Just this ... peace about it. Even when it's something I should -- peace should be the least thing I feel. But the more time goes on, the more I just ... sink under and float away. Maybe it's just like he always says.

We're going to Hell anyways.

[Filter: Maire]

Er, Maire, I -- I was wondering. Do you have any updates? On ... the proposal, I mean?
 
 
Mood: blankblank
 
 
Varnes
16 March 2011 @ 02:38 am
[Atsirian]

Today Jurea mentioned returning to Razen for the first time. However it was unexpected in that she seems to be questioning whether or not she wishes to do it. After all, Cleraine has quite a bit to offer, not the least of which is her family.

It still would be quite a move, to leave some of her political ambition behind for now ... or perhaps for good.

[pause]

[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

Even though I see her every day ... I miss writing to her here.
 
 
Lord Craig of Rhia
16 March 2011 @ 02:42 am
[Filter: Private]

Smart idea, boy, even if you never meant to give it to me, and whether or not you like it. Sometimes, you need to bait them and draw them out. Fine, then. Let's play that way.

[Filter: Public]

Devine.

I miss a good game of chess.
 
 
Mood: deviousdevious
 
 
Keagan
16 March 2011 @ 02:43 am
[Filter: Private]

If I were to write a changed history of how we were not involved in anything terribly bad, I do wonder if I could do it justice. I do enjoy tall tales, and I do enjoy tearing easily dispelled myths apart. Putting these two things together would be natural, wouldn't it? I would rather not admit to myself that our journeying around has had all of these effects in the first place. To begin denying them . . .

Before I couldn't say that I was having a large effect. It was Kail and Sawyer. It was Lawrence and Faith. Now it is me. Celeste and I are the ones who will be making the changes. It will be her, for the most part, of course. I can't exactly play innocent though. If I denied the battle, perhaps things would not happen as badly as they might? Though, it would likely kill me.

I am not sure I want to think of all of the implications.
 
 
 
Megan of Ysak
16 March 2011 @ 02:46 am
[Filter: Private, Atsirian]

Why does she keep looking at me that way?

It is impossible, isn't it? That is what I have always told myself. But Ellisae is right about the Goddesses' teachings. And if I can put my faith in the rest of it, why not that as well?

Except it is not so simple. Nothing ever is.

I'm sorry.
 
 
Taylor
16 March 2011 @ 02:48 am
[Filter: Private]

The other side of the ocean. It would make a good story but which one of those concepts is best? It is hard to choose, not without knowing what the truth might be.

Perhaps I should go to the harbour and ask.
 
 
Elizabeth
16 March 2011 @ 03:01 am
[Filter: Forbes]

Um, hi.

We haven't -- we haven't really had ...

... I thought I ... maybe should write something. Even if it's just something small.
 
 
Mood: indescribableindescribable
 
 
Gideon
16 March 2011 @ 03:04 am
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

One of the best parts of this arrangement is how much easier it is to manage social life between the two of us than doing it on our own could ever be. I hadn't realised exactly how much effort I had to put into before compared to how much work goes into reports. Really, it's been freeing. I've had more time to actually do work, and more time for the enjoyable parts of social events.

It's much like a dream coming true.
 
 
Cameryn
16 March 2011 @ 03:05 am
[Filter: Leana]

From Eudora's writing, it sounds like you're all getting ready to receive us, already. I'm glad. Thank you, really. Hilary ... she needs this.

I was wondering if I could ask something from you, specifically, sister?
 
 
Mood: busybusy
 
 
 
Norman
16 March 2011 @ 03:17 am
[Filter: Private, in Kilian]

I might as well adopt this as my new language. It's not as if I have been speaking or writing anything else for weeks now. It's simply easier to use it exclusively when we're alone out here. It's strange, he said I'd never use it outside of our chats on magic when he taught it to me. Here I am, carrying on an illicit affair with a Kilian woman because I was the best person available to be her guide.

It's been a long time since I've reflected on the power of coincidence in my life. It certainly has brought me a long way from being an ignorant shoemaker's son.
 
 
Druce
16 March 2011 @ 03:31 am
[Filter: Nessa]

I have a question that might be a little awkward for you to answer. I'll understand completely if you don't feel right answering it... But it's been on my mind, and now I'm curious.
 
 
Liam
16 March 2011 @ 04:49 pm
[Filter: Private ; Kilian]

So I guess I've all but admitted it, huh? I like her. And not in a platonic "hey, let's be friends!" way either. It's something more than that.

This is ... kind of scary to think about.
 
 
Mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable
 
 
Keller
16 March 2011 @ 05:35 pm
[Filter: Private]

...

Yeah. I miss her. Feel ridiculous saying it, but I do. It's not the same.