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28 February 2011 @ 12:34 am
So I was bored, and I got thinking about ways I could have fun without pissing my wife off. It's been more and more important lately with all of the shit going on around here. I was thinking, "Fuck, it's been so long since I heard a dirty joke that I've never heard before."

Do you guys have any good ones, or am I the only one who collects them?

Also, I heard all the dirtiest jokes in the world before I turned fourteen, I'm not filtering this from "innocent eyes." If you have a problem with it, keep your kids off the fucking journals.
28 February 2011 @ 03:42 am
So, guess what I've been doing these past couple of weeks?

I've been working my butt off trying to impress these dragon rider soldiers in front of the palace ... and nothing! Man, trying to stay with Leo so that we don't get separated is really getting to be harder than I thought it would be.

I thought that maybe someone would have at least noticed us by now ...
Mood: tiredtired
Fartgus of Lireth
28 February 2011 @ 06:01 am
Well, now, I can hardly believe it's March already. The months just seem to fly by so quickly here that I can't even quite figure out what to do with myself, most of the time.

Though that does draw something to my attention, if nothing else, and that's the fact that my wedding day will be here before terribly long at all. And there is so much to be done for a wedding that it sets the head to spinning.

So, I suppose, it's with a bit of a sad heart that I announce Chloe and I will be needing to leave here before too terribly long! The roads are getting a bit more bearable for travel, after all, and better to leave sooner and have too much time on our hands than dally and have too little as a result.

Oh, how I shall be sad to see it go, however. There is so much about Emeron I enjoy.
Destin of Lysel
28 February 2011 @ 06:07 am
[Filter: Emery]

So, I come with some good news, and a bit of a warning.

The good news is that ... well, things are getting as close to normal as they're going to be for a while, here. Elizabeth is still upset, I'm sure you understand, and Father is absolutely fit to be tied, but there's only so far things can go right now. I don't think you'll be turned away again, should you come by.

The bad news is that doing so today is probably not a good idea. My father's changed his mind, you see, about me never having so much as a scrap of time off. Oh, no. I get a night every other Monday, but not just to myself! That would be too easy. Dragons know what I'd get up to. No, it's a night assigned specifically to spend with my darling wife. A comfort I'm sure will make everything absolutely better. How could all of my work ever weigh so heavily when I get two nights a month off, assigned to spend with my other assignment?

I do want to see you, you understand. I want to see you terribly, in fact, I think you'd blush if I went into detail. But ... today is probably not the best day.
Mood: blahblah
Rachelle of Rhia
28 February 2011 @ 06:21 am
Wow, the spring fashions are getting put out already~ I guess it has been warming up, but still, it's not even March yet! Close, but~ Anyway, I was going through the markets today, and they just caught my eye. Leisa, you and I should schedule a shopping day! We could bring some other girls with us, too, it's no fun if you don't have a big group~ Fallyn, do you want to come? And you too, Lady Benedette, of course!

I don't know, though, if this is really what this year's fashion is going to be, I think I liked last year better. At least it had those wonderful hats Lady Benedette made so popular~ I haven't seen a single hat I like in the store windows yet! And I can't wear my spring finest without the perfect hat! I don't have any idea what I'm going to do.
Mood: productiveproductive
Maeve [[Blanche]]
28 February 2011 @ 07:21 am
[Filter: Andrew]

So~ Were you surprised?

I'd love to say it was my idea, but it wasn't at all~ That doesn't mean, though, that I can't ask if you enjoyed yourself! I hope you did, by the way. But be honest with me, hm~?

Happy late birthday, by the way. I wish I had something more for you besides that~
28 February 2011 @ 07:46 am
[Filter: Mark]

Haha, so like, are you going to sleep with that girl who's working for Ella? Cause personally? I wouldn't. I mean, think about it! She's Kanemorian! She could have been anywhere. And I've been to Kanemoria, trust me, it's as bad as everyone makes it out to be! What if you catch something? What if you get the clap?

I wouldn't tempt fate, if I were you~
Mood: amusedamused
28 February 2011 @ 07:55 am
[Filter: Private]

I should feel more badly that I asked her to stay here.

I -- I do feel badly. I don't think that she would have stayed, if I hadn't. I do. But it's just one of many things I feel, and ... it's very small, in comparison to how grateful I am.

I just don't know if I could do this without Demi. There's Kolton, of course, but he's hardly any better than Inara, most days. Life is such a happy game to them. They're like children. And, of course, Joshua, who is a child. Kolton says I need to smile more. Kolton says I need more levity and more joy in my life, but what really makes me want to smile is just ...

Her practicality. She can be glad to be alive while still treating the world like it's serious, like it's a real place where real things happen and people live, and not just a happy fairy tale.

I don't ... I don't think I could live this life I've locked myself into, if not for that.

I know I should feel bad she's hear, but all I can think, every day, whenever I find a reason to talk to her, is "thank the Dragons."

[Filter: Demi]

I'm sorry, again, that Inara turned yesterday night into a carnival. All you wanted was some peace and quiet to think, and ...

She just doesn't read moods well, you know her.

... I hope you're feeling a little better, now?
Mood: thankfulthankful
Suaimeas (Patience)
28 February 2011 @ 08:30 am

I don't think I'm going to find anything else here. I've been in Taln for so long, looking ... and, um, I found some things but not really what I was looking for. But maybe that's okay. The other things were important too.

I don't know if I should go back or keep going though.
28 February 2011 @ 08:35 am
Burns - Aloe Vera, Calendula, Chamomile, Echinacea, Eucalyptus, Hydrangea, Lavender, Onion, Plantain, St. John's Wort, Yarrow

Exhaustion - Goldenrod, Lavender, Valerian

Joint Pain - Lantana, Lavender, Mint

Lavender is in all three. That seem unusual, does it not?

I still have so much to learn.
28 February 2011 @ 08:37 am
[Filter: Jayne, in Kilian]

Are you still ... okay? Where are you? What are you doing now?

I st

[Filter: Private]

I hate it here without her.
28 February 2011 @ 08:41 am

Rhaieen has been very busy with her work, only just able to find time to attend to her faith. I am afraid writing here has been one of those things cut the most, as well as

As a result, I have spent more time at home than usual. Which has been a gift, to be sure, especially with Jurea here. The whole family has been greatly enjoying being together again after so long. It is wonderful.

[Filter: Private]

Yes ... wonderful.
28 February 2011 @ 08:50 am
[Filter: Aiden, in Kilian]

Ah, the poor thing.

I think I finally broke him. Pity, and he's been such a joy all these years. I was beginning to wonder if it were possible.
Mood: cheerfulcheerful
28 February 2011 @ 09:03 am
[Filter: Anita]

Ah, my dearest, I must confess -- I am at a loss, and I think that only your uniquely feminine insight can possibly help me. Do you have a moment to spare for a man in need?
Mood: chipperchipper
28 February 2011 @ 09:15 am
I just wanted to let all my dear coworkers know that I won't be around the stall the next few days~ Don't worry, I talked it over with the boss already. There are a few things that I need to do in town, and I'm going to need some time to really focus on them.

Try not to go bankrupt without me, will you~? Oh, and I moved the Atsirian scarves to the front, because I got a tip that they're going out of fashion fast, and we need to unload them before they're dead merchandise. So don't tuck them behind the whiskey again!

Best luck~ I'll still be in communication, here.

[Filter: Private]

And I guess we'll see if I can find them somewhere in the city ...
Mood: determineddetermined
28 February 2011 @ 09:25 am
[Filter: Amelie]

All right. I'm not buying it, Amie.

spill the beans. What's going on with that young man and Lydia, exactly?
Mood: annoyedsuspicious
28 February 2011 @ 09:26 am
[Filter: Private]

Ah ... a nice distraction for a difficult time of year, wasn't it? Awful of me to relish it, I know. Oh, Nessa, dear, you should have learned by now that avoiding things never makes them go away.

But of course, neither does facing them.

[Filter: Franelcrew]

Haa, my darlings! I could just hug you all~

I had a positively lovely time yesterday evening. Thank you all so very much for your hard work and generousity. I've thrown more than enough parties to recognize when plenty of work has gone into one, and considering our situation, well! I'm twice as impressed as I otherwise would be~

Now, I don't know who all exactly did what, but I could see a little bit of each of you in all the little touches last night, and that's all that's needed. I and all the rest of us with February birthdays thank all of you for it, haa.

What a wonderful time that was.
Mood: pensivepensive
28 February 2011 @ 09:33 am
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

How did this even happen?

I would give her ... anything she asked for. The feel of her hands, the taste of her lips, and the look in her eyes. In those moments when we're alone together, I would do anything for her, anything at all. I'd give it all away ...

It was never like this with Vaelen.

I want ... more. More than kisses in corners, stolen moments, these ... longings. I ... feel so much when I'm with her. More than I've felt ... more than I knew I could feel.

I don't know why. I can't explain it. This isn't me. This isn't ...
Mood: indescribableindescribable
Matthias of Diarnay
28 February 2011 @ 09:34 am
[Filter: Eriena]

I've been thinking about you, lately.
Mood: blahblah
Ethne of House Karnach
28 February 2011 @ 10:22 am

Why, Reiz, did you organize these responses for me, yourself? All ordered alphabetically and neatly stacked on my desk, too. Not altogether necessary, but the sentiment is impressive. You really do want a little break, don't you?

Hm, and the responses themselves are overall favorable. Good.

Gideon, I thought it might be prudent to keep our names current in certain circles, so I've organized a bit of a monthly event. The first Sunday of each month, we'll have guests at my manor to discuss current events in the field of local literature and artistry. We may even find a few new savants to sponsor, with time, now that our previous crop seem so ready to leave the nest.
Mood: busybusy
28 February 2011 @ 10:28 am
Well, old man, and ladies too! Good news~ I've finally sorted through that rat's nest you were calling a ledger! Even got all our receipts since we got back recorded on here, and we are solidly in the black, here. Even counting all our general lapses in responsible spending that Brett likes to tsk at us about all the time~

Looks like we've had a good turnover on that haul we brought back from Salinda, too. Now would be about the time I'd start hinting that regular field trips might be a good idea, but I don't think I'm willing to volunteer ...

I swear, my eyes are never going to focus right again.
Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
28 February 2011 @ 03:33 pm
[Filter: Eric]

Ooh ... I can't believe you told a joke like that the other day, Eric ...! That was just horrible.
Mood: shockedshocked
28 February 2011 @ 04:16 pm
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]


It really was a new side to her ... one I've really never had the chance to see before. She's always only ever secluded herself from everyone else. I suppose it does show just how much she cares for Nessa, if she's going to try her best to help the way she did, hm?

I did try to tone it down, for her~ I hope I didn't scare her terribly. Mm, and she certainly did a fine job in helping with the soup. Still, just as fast as it started, I'm sure it'll end just like that.

Either way, everything worked out wonderfully, and I'm glad that we had the chance to get better acquainted~
Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
28 February 2011 @ 04:24 pm
[Filter: Private]

Displaying a scarf for them ... right. At least she didn't press me about it.

Moving crates around doesn't exactly take long, though. I don't have anything else to do ... guess I'll just go look for something else, then. Maybe she'll let me off early.
Mood: boredbored
28 February 2011 @ 04:30 pm
[Filter: Liam, in Kilian]

Um ... hello, Liam.

I was just, well, I was just writing to say hello and to see how you're doing, really.

You've gone back to working, haven't you?
Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
Lord Derek of Allba
28 February 2011 @ 04:36 pm
[Filter: Private, in Old High Dentorian]

Hm ... constant fatigue and drowning herself in simple tasks ... so far, it does seem like a good sign. Though, of course, if she isn't more careful with her body ... hn. That could indeed become problematic.

I suppose it is time that I send a healer to look after her.

Perhaps then I could set plans for our trip to Rowan without any further delays.
Mood: workingworking
Aes of Cresyn
28 February 2011 @ 04:51 pm
[Filter: Matthew, in Atsirian]

So Matthew~~

I was thinking that we could go out to dinner or even go shopping around the marketplace after your fitting! What do you think?

I mean, personally, I think we'll have to work on some sort of ... disguise for you, if we're going to do that ... but doesn't it sound like fun? ♥
Mood: cheerfulcheerful
28 February 2011 @ 05:01 pm
[Filter: Private]

Well, the letter's done. Now it's just a matter of seeing when I'll actually be able to send it. Even messenger birds are hard to come by...and birds can't always be trusted, either, too much risk of 'em getting eaten by bigger animals or something.

...man, what is it with me lately? Never used to be the reflective type...I'm really gettin' old, aren't I? Just dawned on me I'm gonna be thirty this year, where does the time go? Yeah, thirty's not that old, but it's one of the big ages.
Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
28 February 2011 @ 05:01 pm
[Filter: Private]

Well ... that could have gone better ... for one, if the gardens weren't so cold ... and well, if we didn't have to go back inside so soon ...

I didn't even get a chance to ask her.

She probably thinks I'm some silly little boy. I don't even know if it's worth it to try again.
Mood: disappointeddisappointed
28 February 2011 @ 05:07 pm
[Filter: Lila]

Um ... Lila ...?

I thought you were all right after we had our talk ... are you um ... well, is there something else the matter ...?

You don't seem very much like yourself, today.
Mood: worriedconcerned
28 February 2011 @ 05:15 pm
[Filter: Private]

Well, I suppose the only thing left to do now is wait ... patience has always been key, especially when dealing with such a delicate process.

At least I've gone through the first stages without too much incident.

[Filter: Eve]

Hello Eve. I'm just writing to give you a quick briefing on my status so far ... and to find out how things are going back in Rayla.
Mood: workingworking
Lord Glenn of House Rowan
28 February 2011 @ 07:00 pm
[Filter: Private]

I'll admit; it's more difficult thinking of that wedding than I'd thought. I'd become accustomed to the idea of her engaged, after all of this time, but ... well. It'll be no easy task, marching up north and watching father hand my baby sister off to that smug northern prancer. Hm. Connie never bothered me at all, perhaps because she's older, perhaps because the situation was so fraught with drama in the first place, I was simply too busy with being outraged to consider it all this way.

Ah, well. What can I do? By August, I may very well be engaged, myself. Eriena's certainly seemed warmer, lately, though as always with her, it's a relative term.

I suppose I ought to get to spoiling Emily some more. Eriena seems to enjoy that, and to be perfectly honest, that girl's laughter could lift the bleakest spirits. She has an uncanny knack for that sort of thing, that girl. She's too bright a thing for Keirnan, I say, but we can't help what we're born to, can we? The story of all our lives, one way or another.
Mood: blahblah
Westa of Atsir
28 February 2011 @ 07:06 pm
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

How nice to hear pleasant news for a change. More importantly, Joseph sounds more like himself. I'd worried ...

Well. It's in defeat that our strength is truly tested, or so mother often said. We're not invincible; that was proven generations ago. But we are clever, dangerous ...

And so ambitious, always. Everything we're so often accused of, and more.

I almost feel sorry for Lord Matthew.
Mood: pleasedpleased
28 February 2011 @ 07:14 pm
[Filter: Eri]


Lenore said you guys might need some help around the shop, and I figured I'd offer. You don't even got to pay me if you don't want to. I just figure I'm good at heavy lifting, and you ain't got a lot of people around who can do it for you, you know? Figure I might as well lend a hand, when it's for my girl's family, and all.

Now, it don't have to be right this minute. You can just give me a heads-up sometime you're gonna need me, and if I ain't working at the docks, I'll be there. You don't even have to say nothing here, just consider it a blank check. How's that sound?
Mood: okayokay
Keran of Sarrca
28 February 2011 @ 07:40 pm
[Filter: Private]

So desperate, my lord. How long before you crack, and you not even in my dungeons? I'm beginning to wonder if the Crow herself will manage to hold out longer than you will, and the most I've done to you is lock you up. Why are you so desperate to leave that room, I wonder? I give you the best comforts. I treat you like an honored guest. What could you possibly want that requires you having freedom to roam about the castle?

How much longer, I wonder.

[Filter: Public]

Well, now, my little Rosie's tutor informs me that she's been showing astounding progress in her magic lessons. I always was nervous that she wouldn't carry the skill, somehow, though that seems rather silly with as long as it's endured in Sarrca. Still, it's always good to be reassured. I expect she'll be learning her little light and shadow tricks before very long at all.

It only seems like yesterday that she was a baby! I have no idea where the time goes. An infant one day, a child learning magic the next. It makes a man feel positively ancient.
Ian (Agi)
28 February 2011 @ 08:04 pm
[Filter: Private]

Dragons. It just gets worse and worse, doesn't it? Some days I think that he's just going to ... kill himself and be done with it, he's so miserable. And it seems like every time I turn around it's gotten worse, too.

I just wish there was some way to help him, but I'm ... not good at these things. I never have been. There's nothing I can say to him. I don't even really know Lady Caroline, so I can't exactly write to her for him ... and he'd probably tell me not to, anyway. And I don't know what sort of ... if there's anything that can make him feel even a little bit better.

[Filter: Seraphine]

Does Eamon seem like he's getting a bit worse to you, too? I keep thinking that he just ... looks worse by the day, and I'm worried. I can talk to him all I like, but it doesn't seem like it's helping at all.
Mood: worriedworried
28 February 2011 @ 08:14 pm
[Filter: Eve]

You know, the thing about this war that unsettles me most is that I wouldn't have expected it. Everyone knows Hanmor and Nasen were prowling each other's borders, but neither one is especially the sort of house to escalate the conflict. You know that just as well as I do. Possibly better, since you're the Lady of Rayla.

I know that's hardly all that's wrong with it, but it just doesn't add up. I'm hardly so trusted as to be able to ask what started all of this, but it seems like there's something missing here. And I don't like it at all.

[Filter: Aekaran]

Have you come to a decision about your magic yet? It's not as though you need to rush it, but I was curious, since I know you've been giving it a great deal of thought.
Mood: pensivepensive
28 February 2011 @ 08:22 pm
[Filter: Private]

It's not like there was even anything to be afraid of. Oooh spooky a scary abandoned town, what's going to happen. Nothing is going to happen. It wasn't even that creepy. I totally didn't have any reason to be scared at all.

But fuck if I'm not glad it isn't me going into the next one. Anybody else can feel free as long as I get to stay here!

Watch it not be haunted and empty at all. And everybody who goes in gets a free blanket and cookie. Then won't I be sorry I stayed out here this time.
Mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable
Faith, Paladin of House Franel
28 February 2011 @ 08:28 pm
[Filter: Women in Franelcrew]


I got a bit of a dilemma for you all to help out with a bit. Sawyer's apparently right terrible at taking signals, and didn't get what Pearl was implying on Rose Day. Now, I ain't good with romance at all, but we sure got a lot of people here who are, and I figured I would ask all of you since I ain't any help.

Thing is, I know plenty about Sawyer, but I still don't get why he wouldn't figure out the message at a glance. And I figured, well, somebody here's got to have some idea of what the deal is.

So here we are. I hope that's clear enough for all you. I don't know what else to say, except if you got some idea why Sawyer's apparently so thickheaded, the input'd be appreciated.
Rhoswen of House Karnach
28 February 2011 @ 08:30 pm
[Filter: Ethne, in Atsirian]

You know, big sister, I think that we should give him a break! Just a little one. I see you noticed how hard he's been working, after we told him that he could earn one through good work. If we keep doing it like this, work work work, reward, well, I might think we could keep him civil until the wedding comes~!

He was always like that, wasn't he? Incentives are his language! Such a spoiled little baby.

He's still adorable.
Mood: amusedamused
28 February 2011 @ 08:35 pm
[Filter: Private]


He lied to her. He's made a fool of her, and he's made a fool of our family. Again. And -- and he's an actor. An actor! Who even knows what his bloodline is? He's completely unsuitable. It would be seen as something -- something shaming, something damning if Caroline were to -- especially after all of this, Lord Quinn, and then Lord Tarmon, and then the "Prince" ... and ...


[there's a long pause]

He does love her, though.

I hate that I can't deny that, and I hate that I ... I care too much about Caroline to do anything with that knowledge other than what I'm going to do.

I wish I'd never written to him.

[Filter: Caroline]

Carrie ... I ... I think that we should talk.
Mood: blahblah
Lauren of House Taerin
28 February 2011 @ 08:41 pm
[Filter: Franelcrew]

Okay, so, everything looks fine, to me -- I mean, there are definitely people. It's just a normal little tundra town.

... There was just one weird thing. The way they reacted, when they saw me and Moiraine, it wasn't ... normal. They should be used to seeing Pegasus Knights. But I saw people looking up, pointing ... they all just sort of ran inside when they saw me, like they were ... afraid?

I'm not really sure what to make of that, but I didn't stay long. I'll be back soon. Be careful, everyone that's going out there ... I don't know if they'll be very friendly.
Mood: worriedworried
28 February 2011 @ 08:46 pm
[Filter: Annie]

Hey, can you be really honest with me about something? Like, blunt, even, if you have to be. I don't even mind right now, and if I'm wrong I need somebody to tell me.

Do you think I'm too hard on Col?
Mood: crappycrappy
Symeon of Veirnan
28 February 2011 @ 08:54 pm
[Filter: Edeyn]

I miss you more than I ever thought I would ...

I don't think we've ever been apart for so long. I never expected this trip to become so complicated. I know, I sound like a stupid little boy, just like you say when you're frustrated with me, but ... I need you, here. More than I ever thought I did. You're like my right hand.

Lian's noticed I'm lonely, I think. She's been even more attentive than usual. I appreciate it so much, I do. She always knows exactly what I need, that girl. It's like she knows my heart better than I do, sometimes. Lissandra's decided to try and be you in your absence, but she's still so young. She's nowhere near as experienced as you, and she tries so hard to not show it. And Linnell ... she's been prickly, lately. Sometimes, I don't know how to handle her.

Stephanie wanted to tell you write to me. I told her not to. I don't know why. I suppose ... I just want you to think to write, yourself, rather than being told. Maybe I just don't want you to need the reminder ...

... I'm sorry, I'm being so -- but you probably won't even see this. I suppose that's why I'm just running my mouth, and saying whatever comes to my mind.

It's funny. I thought it would be Stephane I'd miss more, but ...
Mood: lonelylonely
Anita of Vernhail
28 February 2011 @ 09:03 pm
[Filter: Lady Eliza]

Lady Eliza ... ? Do you have a moment? I hope you're feeling well, my lady. I just wanted to make sure of something, if you have a moment to spare ... and if you're busy, of course you can go on your way, and I can ask you another time.

But, ah, it is a bit pressing, so ...
28 February 2011 @ 09:06 pm
[Filter: Ethne, in Atsirian]

So far it looks like you've gotten quite a few good titles. Though one of these might be a little too racy to go ahead with. I realise Midsummer Steppes is quite popular outside of Razen, but I've only found people entirely uncomfortable with the subject matter here. Even from the perspective of a noblewoman, they don't much like to think about nomadic life in a positive way.
28 February 2011 @ 09:11 pm
Well isn't that a pleasant surprise. A messenger just brought me a note of thanks from the daughters of Lord Valtes, for the flowers I sent in on Rose Day. They do not exactly appear to be written by a woman's hand, but I suppose it is the thought that counts. At least that means they did in fact get them.
Mood: pleasedpleased
28 February 2011 @ 09:14 pm
You know Casey, just for making me wear that fruity scarf, I think I'm just going to have to keep it. I'm sure I'll find a use for it eventually~

Then we can just call it even, how's that sound~?
Mood: flirtyflirty
28 February 2011 @ 09:15 pm
[Filter: Franelcrew]

Okay, so, look.

... what happened last month, that was ... yeah, terrifying, heh. But we're really running low on supplies, again. We should have cleared out more from that town, instead of high-tailing out, but ... can't change that.

Rae was doing a little bit of scouting this afternoon, and she told me that she sees a town a half day's ride east. She didn't want to get close enough to see what was all going on there, and I don't blame her, I mean ... after what happened last time.

I think we should go and check it out. If it's occupied, we stock up and move out. If it's not ... we get everything we can carry.

We're still a ways from Eina, and this is getting dodgy.
Mood: determineddetermined
28 February 2011 @ 09:17 pm
[Filter: Lysander]

Wait, hold on. The Lady of Coliya writes here, doesn't she?
Reeve of Atsiria
28 February 2011 @ 09:37 pm
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

And it is all anyone talks about, day and night, sunrise to sundown and long after.

I wish I could just bury myself in all of this paperwork and come back out after it's all over. At least then it would be done and I'd have to learn to live with it instead of hearing about it every minute of every day. About how wonderful it is, and how good of a match they make, and how everyone's been waiting so long for this day.


I need to do something productive. Make rounds on the city. Remind them that I still hold influence here, even when their Jewel is about to be wed. Remind them of the benefits I've offered them. They won't talk about the Queen and her consort when I'm there to check on their tax records and ensure everything is in order. It's been too long since I've taken tea with Jamaela, either. She'll be wondering what's happened.

I've been shirking all of this for far too long. Like a child.
Mood: cynicalcynical
Lord Rylan of Allba
28 February 2011 @ 09:38 pm
It is strange how much of a difference two sheets of paper can make. They are two important ones though. The courier burst into my study with them, nearly collapsing to the floor, and I merely nodded my head and said, "Rowan and Tersel are firmly in the black after all." He could not appreciate it, but I did. Western lords can rejoice, we once again have a surplus for spending. I know you have been told that every year, but the important thing is that we keep getting it.

With that, I am back to work. The West's finances are in good order, and I merely have to draw up the report. Now I merely have to make projections of next year's tax incomes so we can make a plan for this year's spending.

My job will be done at that point, and then I have until the end of April to finish all of the other financial information that will have to be submitted to the King in June.
28 February 2011 @ 09:39 pm
[Filter: Sawyer]

Sawyer! I need your advice. I need to put together something special for Celeste's birthday, since it's tomorrow, but I don't have any ideas. I'm not exactly good at making do with limited supplies like this ...

I mean, I suppose I could make her some more of those cloth flowers, but that just feels too ... easy. Dragons, that sounds silly. I know I'm being fussy over this, but, well, it's Celeste ...
28 February 2011 @ 10:12 pm
[Filter: Private]

I wonder if she thinks about it a lot. If she's scared by it ... thinking whoever did all of that might not be finished. If he's going to come back, do something worse, until he gets her to leave ...

Sometimes, I don't know, I feel like I wish she'd talk with me more about what she's thinking. I never know how to read her. Sometimes she looks she's like a million miles away, and I don't even know if I should say anything when she gets like that. What could I even say? She's always jumping at the tiniest things even when she hasn't done anything wrong. This whole thing ...

I hope he doesn't come back. ... I really don't know what we'll do if it happens again.
Mood: pessimisticpessimistic
Benedette of Emeron
28 February 2011 @ 10:14 pm
[Filter: Fallyn]

I have been thinking all day about our planned performance. I have been thinking perhaps it would be wise to have the start be a dance featuring the both of us in unison. I think that skill might help make even the more simple choreography appear more difficult. What do you think? We could work our way through what you have learned and then I could end it with a solo dance of a higher degree of difficulty. Also, is there some time you would wish to have it? We will need sufficient time to practice, though I am hoping for it to be sooner rather than later.

Oh, and thank you again for your help allowing Lord Leon and I some time to ourselves. It can sometimes be so difficult to have a quiet conversation here.
Dillon of Rowan
28 February 2011 @ 10:21 pm
[Filter: Private]

And how much longer before Glenn ties his own knot, and then it gets to be my turn? Dragons, I can practically hear the clock ticking down the last hours of my blissful, irresponsible life.

I suppose I'll ... have to mend fences with Hasten. Both of us will be able to use ... a break. Once I'm married. I'll need the break, Dragons know it, and I can't imagine he will need it any less, with his wife. Hopefully she'll manage to birth him a son before too much longer. I feel sorry for the man. At least I won't have to think too terribly much of my line. I'll be wed off to some merchant's daughter, or some Rhia girl, and that'll be the end of it.

Even if it is still too soon.
Mood: crankycranky
Celeste of Franel
28 February 2011 @ 10:27 pm
[Filter: Jace]

Ah, Jace ...

Do you know what tomorrow is?
Mood: excitedexcited
28 February 2011 @ 10:31 pm
[Filter: Private, in Kilian]

What could you mistake a pegasus for?

Ghosts, wraiths, walking dead ... one of those, perhaps. But where are they coming from. What's bringing this about? It can't just be us. It's -- there has to be something else. And what oh those things would be enough like a pegasus to make people run inside at the sight of it?

Unless they knew it was a pegasus knight, but ... a dead pegasus knight? If any of this is actually happening. And how can we say it's not any longer, after the last village? After everything with Lord Grigory ...

I just don't understand. And I don't know who to ask. The dead rising. I ought to ask my countrymen, but how to do it without looking mad? Or worse? How to do it at all, even looking like I've lost my wits ...
Aiden [Illuse]
28 February 2011 @ 10:46 pm
[the writing is fairly frantic]

[Filter: Marias, in Kilian]

Marias. Marias, write to me right this instant. I know you're there and I know that you can read this. Write to me right now, Marias, or Dragons help me, you'll regret it when we finally make it there. I need you to tell me what Karyl did. I know you're not a killer, Marias, whatever he says, whatever you say. I know you wouldn't do this.

Dragons dammit Marias. Write to me.
28 February 2011 @ 10:53 pm
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

I ... have not admitted that. Not even to myself.

That my memories of him are ... fuzzy. Patchy. There are blots on that record. I think about what I did during those years, and it's all a strange blur. Sometimes, I remember sitting alone in a library, seeking out notes for him. And then I remember him not being there when I went to deliver them.

He always appeared again by the morning.

... I thought I was mad, then, too.

Perhaps ...

Perhaps that is why this has been so difficult.

But no more.

[Filter: Karlesta and Adrian, in Atsirian]

I will make an appearance this afternoon, two hours before sunset. It needs to be grand, dramatic, and memorable. I need my handmaid fetched, for my appearance must be impeccable, and the both of you will need to be the same. Drum up the populance. Create buzz and excitement.

I want to steady their feet beneath them, and send them away talking about how the Prophet is as formidable as ever.
Mood: determineddetermined
28 February 2011 @ 10:53 pm
My throat kind of hurts right now. I guess it was only a matter of time before someone caught a cold in all this cold~

At least it waited until after the birthday party to start bothering me. It would have been horrible to be sick during that. And even better, I don't really use my throat as much as most people. Every now and then, that comes in handy.

Hopefully it won't be too bad and I'll feel better soon though.
28 February 2011 @ 11:18 pm
[Filter: Private]

I know, it's silly. It's so silly.

He's always been a guest here. Isanae's guest, more than anything else. He was never going to stay forever, surely. I always knew that, I suppose. But ... I'd just come to hope. He's been here for so long. He was at court in Eblar, before his courtship of Chloe, and his father's death. I ... let myself hope that maybe Emeron could become his new court. And he'd stay here, even after Chloe and he married, and I could be close to him, if nothing else.

I've grown so very accustomned to having him here ...

[Filter: Lord Alexander]

I'm very sorry if I seemed ... distant, when you were playing for us in the parlour this afternoon, my lord. Your music was as lovely as ever. I just had something else on my mind.
Mood: sadsad
28 February 2011 @ 11:21 pm
[Filter: Private]

Is it possible? I don't know. Perhaps I'm trying to make some sense out of the unreasonable. Perhaps I just made it up to appease her. I never did like seeing a woman in distress, even when that woman is Melyndra.

Still, the idea of some man of my appearance wandering around Atsiria is unsettling to say the least. My name has been dragged through the mud quite enough there.

[Filter: Celeste]

Now, I've heard that there is an important occasion coming soon, but I cannot seem to remember what it could be. Perhaps you would be so kind as to remind me what it is? I'm afraid I'm so old that my memory just is not what it was.
Hazel of Aeda
28 February 2011 @ 11:27 pm
Ah, Matthias, would you like to choose a new book? Perhaps this time, you ought to read the first few pages before settling on one. We are going to have to read and discuss it all, and I would much rather it be a book you enjoyed more than the last one. Or would you rather I made a few suggestions ...?
Damien of Noye
28 February 2011 @ 11:36 pm
There is a real speed increase when you don't have to circle islands to keep away from a tailing pirate ship. We should only be a few more days to the Glimmering Bay, and port in Holtz. That should let me hire a real crew, and put the captured pirates ashore.

The pirates do know their place, and they have not been giving me as much trouble as even I expected. This is worrisome, but they only have a few more days to do whatever it is they will.
Lady Eliza of Temair
28 February 2011 @ 11:38 pm
[Filter: Private]

The most vexing part about this is, you're delighting in this. Your face betrays nothing at all, but I know you're enjoying every minute of forcing me to accept your company.

I know you want me to beg. I know you want me to plead that you end this charade. Every bit of sense in me tells me that I must resist.

But I'm so tired, I haven't the will.
Mood: sicksick
28 February 2011 @ 11:43 pm
Some people have implied that they'd like to know a little more about what's going on in my life. Despite the current answer being "nothing of interest," I thought I'd make an effort to oblige.

Hm, let's see.

Loren let me choose which of the clients that bid for my time on Rose Day I would see, again. That was pleasant. I enjoy being able to make my own choice. I know I sound like a beaten dog, glad for anything her master gives her, but I have few freedoms in this life, and I know that Loren does it to make me feel more amenable. Since he's not fooling me, I don't see why I shouldn't enjoy what he gives me. I chose the priest, again ... one of my favourite clients. He usually just wants to talk, and pretends to be interested in what I have to say. That's better than most.

Camilla ... she hasn't been well. Her last client who was hard on her, she took it ... badly. I think something finally snapped in her. Loren is getting frustrated. She's not bringing in money, and she's taking it by him putting her up. I've talked him into giving her more time, but I don't know how much longer he'll be willing.

As for Colndor, it's slowing back to its usual tepid, smelly self. Things seem to be better down in Rechesa, and that means that Salinda is functional again. Still, things are busier here than they were, and I still see some richer gentlemen come through on their way to Norey. Maybe there'll be a small shift.

I think that's about all worth talking about, unless someone really wants to hear about the new way I found to do my hair.
Mood: okayokay
28 February 2011 @ 11:45 pm
[Filter: Casey]


Are you still thinking Brett isn't acting normal?
Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
Eudora of Fairen
28 February 2011 @ 11:51 pm
[Filter: Private]

Well now, isn't that interesting.

What are you up to, Leana, if you aren't actually, which is something I highly doubt after that lovely chat with your mother. If you want to be successful at deception, you should perhaps choose your allies with greater care~ And learn to be a better actress. Trust me about that last one in particular.

You seem so sweet on the outside but maybe there's more there than meets the eye after all. Or maybe not. Either way, I will fine out. Trust me when I say that.
Lord Hasten of Lireth
28 February 2011 @ 11:56 pm
[Filter: Private]

I don't trust her silence.

I should be grateful that she hasn't caused trouble. No raving, no shouting, no madness. Just silence and grim cooperation in all things. It's what I had hoped against hope for.

But the more time goes on, the more ... nervous I become.

It isn't like her, not since she snapped. The Elthea of the past, yes. She was always amenable, always simple, always cowering into corners. But that Elthea is dead, for better or worse. This one is a different person entirely. She stirs things whenever possible, causes conflict, doubt, and fear at every opportunity.

And yet, she is silent, cooperative, and good.

The men are losing their edge. I can command them to watch themselves all they want, but they don't see the point in wariness when their charge is so easy to handle.

I can't shake this feeling of ... dread.

She's not beaten. Far from it.
Mood: nervousnervous