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16 February 2011 @ 12:09 am
[Filter: Hana, in Kilian]

I know I said it already but it bares repeating: I had a lovely day yesterday. Of course, every day I spend in your arms is lovely. But somehow Rose Day just has that special something, if you know what I mean~

And of course, I mean it comes with a delicious meal on the side.
Cylina of Coliya
16 February 2011 @ 12:15 am
Doll just looks so adorable in her new outfits. One of my favourite merchants is in town and he brought some things just for her. I wish she would stop fidgeting so much though, she's going to get wrinkles in everything. And she keeps knocking her shoes off too.

Of course, it doesn't help that the maids are still acting all upset, just because one of them was stupid enough to have her purse stolen when she was in town. I'd just make them leave but I'll probably need one of them to take the baby soon.
16 February 2011 @ 12:16 am
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

There is perhaps nothing better in life than a Rose Day gone spectacularly well. A fine meal, a fine woman, the chance to bask in the fact that the men and women who brought that prophet to our city are having the time of their lives in the north... I must say, the day was most enjoyable. Men would kill to have my life. The good days are what makes this life livable. What they don't know is exactly how much I have to kill myself to keep this lifestyle.

And of course, letting them know is the easiest way to lose the lifestyle altogether. So there will be no doing that at all.
Hayden of Rhia
16 February 2011 @ 12:23 am
[Filter: Private]

He's lasted longer than many feared he would, myself included at times. And he seems happier to, in his own way. But we all have had to accept the truth staring at us in the face, through his face.

My father is going to die.

I can't even begin to imagine that reality. Even when I let myself try it all ends up blank. None of us know what it will really mean, beyond the obvious of course. And then there is the harder question: what should we do now? How do we make sure these last days are the best that they can be?

I think we've all done a good job so far.

I will definitely look into finding a better book for the girls to read to him. That would be something small yet meaningful. As meaningful as anything can get, at least.

I don't- Nevermind.
Amaeyra of Lireth
16 February 2011 @ 12:25 am
[Filter: Private]

A thought came to me today, while I was making pastries, one that still lingers now. If everyone were free to give a gift for Rose Day to anyone they wished, regardless of propriety or station, without fear of harm to their reputation ... I would cook for Lawrence of Franel. Without a doubt, it would be a pleasure to do so, in a way I ... I feel foolish to describe. Especially since this is only a hypothetical circumstance. One that may not ever exist in future.

Yet I cannot stop thinking of it.

[Filter: Public]

The girls quite enjoyed spending time in the kitchen, helping us make pastries. They seem to take to cooking well, and I am glad for it. Mae was good enough to be neat in mixing the filling. It is difficult to believe that she will soon be four years old ...
16 February 2011 @ 01:49 am
[Filter: Princess Seraphine]

Your Highness, forgive me. I ... hate to bother you, but ...

I was wondering if I could have a moment of your time.
Mood: discontentdiscontent
16 February 2011 @ 03:15 am
[Filter: Private, in Kilian]

Future, he says.

What does he mean by that?

We could die here. I ... I accepted that, a long time ago. Justin died for far less than what we're doing. I've more than accepted that. I've almost ... come to expect it.

And if we don't?

I don't want a future with anyone else. Do I? Of course I don't. Justin was the love of my life, and he's gone, and nothing can ever replace that. I'd never want to try.

But I don't want to be alone forever, either. It's only been a few years, and already, I -- I wonder how I can go on like this, forever. If we do survive. There's Liam, there's my parents, and there's my children, my dear children, but ...

But alone is still alone.


What do I even want?
Mood: confusedconfused
16 February 2011 @ 11:41 am
Had a good Rose Day! Did the usual things with Sandra. But heh, a few days before, I had Sam practice givin his rose to Sandra. Kept droppin the thing, and then he stepped on it and I had to go buy another one ... But it was all good in the end! I think Sandra liked Sam's rose better than mine, and I gave her a whole bouquet of them! Hope everyone had a good Rose Day too, heh.
Hazel of Aeda
16 February 2011 @ 03:08 pm
[Filter: Private]

Matthias seems to be pleased with our Rose Day. I hope that he is. At least the steak wasn't dry. Perhaps I really should try to cook something else next year. It could not hurt to experiment.

I am glad, though, that Rose Day is over. The stress of it is not something that can be borne more than once a year.
Mood: tiredtired