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Father Forbes of Megam
15 February 2011 @ 12:03 am
[Filter: House Lysel]

I'm not sure what's going on... is Elizabeth still sick? I came by earlier to give her a rose, but... Well, I'm sure you all would know that anyway.

I don't mind putting it off until another day, really. I don't think it's the end of the world.
Lord Rylan of Allba
15 February 2011 @ 12:16 am
[Filter: Private]

It does make it harder to make it up to her when she is tired all of the time. I should not complain about it as being tired means I am wearing her out from ... No. Dragons, no. I am not wearing her out. A year ago she could run circles around me, and now she does not have the will to...

I think I need to cheer her up.

[Filter: Cerise]

I really do not mind that the servants have to finish it, love. I know that if you had been feeling up to it, you could make a meal that would put them to shame! And before you tell me otherwise, do remember that I do not love the servants, and love is the most delicious secret ingredient in the world!
15 February 2011 @ 12:18 am
[Filter: Private]

How did Dagda see this coming, and I not? He knew. Everyone knew but me. I've been focusing so much on what's a head, what I have to do, what might go wrong, how I could hurt everyone I've grown so fond of that I've completely missed what is right in front of me. How could I have not seen this sooner and put a stop to it before it got this far. I've single handedly managed to ruin that poor girl's Rose Day, and for what?

The rose in my hair. She must have thought it was for her. All of the attention she's given me. The dinner with her that Celeste had to back out of. I should have known.

Perhaps I can find a way to make it up to her. Perhaps, if this night isn't a total loss, she will speak to me again. I would hate to lose her as a friend, and an ally. Who can I use? Who wasn't making a rose.

[Filter: Sir Calaith]

I need you to do me a favor. Unless I am mistaken, you do not have any special plans tonight, am I correct?
Mood: guiltyguilty
15 February 2011 @ 12:40 am
[Filter: Erin, in Kilian]

I would apologize for not having more to offer if I thought there was a reason. Neither of us are in a position to properly do anything about this holiday. To be honest, I've not celebrated it for some time. Though you knew that already, I suppose.
Celeste of Franel
15 February 2011 @ 01:13 am
[Filter: Lauren]

Ah, Lauren ...? What ... what's happened? I ... I saw Kail's writing, and ...

Are you all right?
Mood: worriedworried
15 February 2011 @ 01:25 am
[Filter: Karyl, in Kilian]

I don't even know what you want from me anymore. I've told you everything I know. I've told you everything I know dozens of times over by now. I've told you everything about Tori, everything about me, everything about anything I remember in the least, trying to get you to stop all of this. What is there left for me to give you? I could tell you the same things again and again, but it wouldn't stop you. I'm beginning to think there's nothing in the world that could stop you. I'm beginning to think none of this will ever stop until the day I die.

I can deal with this. You know that, don't you, Karyl? It doesn't matter what you do to me. I'll find some way to patch it over, some way around it. I'm so used to anything that you can give to me that even if something bothers me, I'll find some way to cope. I'll find some way to deny the pain to myself and keep moving. It's what I do. It's what I've always done when it comes to you. You and I both know it.

He hasn't even done anything to make him worth what you've done to him.

He's breaking, Karyl. You're going to break him. There won't be anything left. Your prey is going to be gone forever because you got too overeager, and because you couldn't hold yourself back. And what then, when he's finished? Are you going to just toss his body aside and continue on? He will die. If you keep this up, he's certain to die. You don't even like death. It ruins your playthings. It's going to ruin him. Doesn't that mean anything to you?
Mood: exhaustedexhausted
15 February 2011 @ 02:29 am
[the writing is strained]

[Filter: Lord Peter]

Mn, my lord, I do hope that I'm not disturbing your Rose Day overmuch.

I had a package sent to Quinn some months ago. Chocolates, tarts, and candies. Nothing perishable, but all very lovingly prepared. I haven't heard a thing from him today, however, and I was wondering -- did it arrive? I don't ask him myself only because I don't want to spoil the surprise if he simply hasn't gotten to it, yet. Or, if it arrives tomorrow ...
Mood: indescribableindescribable
Fartgus of Lireth
15 February 2011 @ 02:32 am
[Filter: Chloe]

Well, now, that wasn't nearly as bad as you made it out to be, was it? In fact, I'd say everything went quite smoothly. I even saw quite a few envious looks cast your way, when they thought I wasn't looking ...
Mood: chipperchipper
Keane of House Sylea
15 February 2011 @ 02:35 am
What an utterly fucking pointless holiday.

I'm having a hard time figuring out a stupider one, and when we celebrate bullshit like "look, the sun isn't going down" and "look, the sun isn't coming up," that's a pretty fucking big hurdle to jump. But I guess Rose Day fucking manages it somehow, year after fucking year. Like fucking clockwork. If I want to be reminded of how fucking pointless this shit can be and how stupidly naive every one of the people writing here is, I guess I just have to wait until fucking February. We can crown it "naive romantic assholes day."

Fuck this.
Mood: crankycranky
Reeve of Atsiria
15 February 2011 @ 03:25 am
[Filter: Private, in High Atsirian]

Good to know I look as sick as I feel.

Everyone will be wondering why I wasn't out and about today. Even if I'm not courting, surely there's some lady who's caught my eye. Surely there's someone who I'd give flowers to, isn't that right? Especially now that the Queen is engaged to be married in just a few short months.

Ugh, I'm going to be suck. I am sick. Just -- watching the two of them together. Looking at them. Looking at her. Laughing, smiling, happy. This wasn't supposed to happen.

How am I supposed to salvage this? None of my contacts know anything about Matthew. None of them can find a Dragonsdamned thing. Maybe he doesn't have anything in his past. Maybe Reiz was right. Maybe ...

[Filter: Edalene, in Atsirian]

I That dress Matthew got you looks very nice on you, Edalene. You must be very thrilled with it. I can only imagine how much he had to spend on it.

I hope you had a good Rose Day. I've heard everyone talking about how happy you two look together.
Mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable
Aiden [Illuse]
15 February 2011 @ 03:31 am
[Filter: Marias]

We're on our way as we speak. If all goes well, we should be there by the end of the month. Early March, at the absolute latest. I know it's still a while away, but you have to hold out until then. You've said you have practice with Karyl, so I'm sure you can do it. But I don't want you to do anything risky, all right? Be safe. We'll be there soon. That should give you strength to hold out, if nothing else does.
Mood: busybusy
Symeon of Veirnan
15 February 2011 @ 04:17 am
[Filter: Edeyn]

... I'm not sure why you haven't been writing, lately. I don't even know what's all going on there. But I ... I do wish that you were here to write to me, today.

The girls made me a wonderful dinner, as always, and I gave them all flowers, as always. They were happy with the attention. Haha, as always. And then ... then I came back here, and I thought of Kyrene. And ... Myca. Both of them. And I thought you, and how you're always here on this day. How you always cook for me, yourself. And how you always ... listen.

And never really judge. Even though ... I know you want to.

I almost miss you as much as I miss them. Isn't that odd?

Stephanie says she thinks you might be coming home, soon. Dragons, I hope that's true. Everything here is a mess, without you, I swear. And I just ... miss you. Both of you.

Haha, and maybe you won't even see this. I can hope, I suppose.
Mood: blahblah
Matthias of Diarnay
15 February 2011 @ 04:19 am
[Filter: Hazel]

Hey, it was uh ... good steak.

Mood: lonely:f?
15 February 2011 @ 04:27 am
[Filter: Private]

Lord Leon, in Rhia?

... surely, Diary, that is too odd to be merely just what they claim it is. No one else was there that day, when Benedette brought me to help select a gift for him. They didn't see how she poured over everything in every stall, looking for the perfect thing to send him, and how she bloomed when she found something that she was happy with. And then, how she second guessed herself and had to have me comfort her!

No one else saw that. I did!

And now, he is in Rhia?

Perhaps it's just as they say, but ... hm.

Benedette has been strange lately. She has been, I've certainly noticed it. Sometimes, it seems as if she's just not quite saying something. I wonder ...

-- ah!

[Filter: Lord Alexander]

I-I ... m-my lord ...
Mood: curiouscurious
15 February 2011 @ 04:37 am
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

I am about to do something ... very, very foolish.

Mothers, forgive your servant, for she is weak.

[a long pause]

[Filter: Lawrence, in Trade]

Do you know who I am?
Mood: indescribableindescribable
15 February 2011 @ 04:38 am
[Filter: Private]

I probably shouldn't be asking, but ... well, how can I not?

[Filter: Lauren]

Uh ... so hey.

Are you all right, over there? I saw what they wrote, and it doesn't exactly seem ... I don't know ... I guess I'm just worried?
Mood: worriedconcerned
15 February 2011 @ 04:41 am
[Filter: Liam, in Kilian]

Ah ... hello ...

It's a shame that we couldn't um ... spend Rose Day ... I ah, well ... that is to say, I was just ... I ah ... I saw some -- but it couldn't have been ...

How was your holiday ...?
Mood: embarrassedshy
15 February 2011 @ 04:45 am
[Filter: Keller]

[There is a drawing of a plate of what looks like steak, potatoes, and vegetables. There's another plate that may or may not be a cake.]

I know it's a little late into the day but it's really the only time I had to draw this ... I know it's not much, but I hope you'll be able to imagine being able to eat it, or something.

Happy Rose Day, Keller. I miss you.
Mood: workingworking
15 February 2011 @ 04:49 am
[Filter: Private]

[A drawing of a flower appears on the page, only to be furiously crossed out.]

What in Dragons' name am I doing.

This is fucking ridiculous.

Being with this groups is really starting to get to me. I'm going to need to drink more than usual, tonight.
Mood: grumpygrumpy
15 February 2011 @ 05:02 am
[Filter: Lysander]

Okay, I know we thought we wouldn't have to do this until later this afternoon, but I just saw her at the market. Are you ready? We need to catch her soon, I don't know how much longer she's going to be here before she heads back to Coliya proper.
Mood: workingworking
Lady Therese of Temair
15 February 2011 @ 05:18 am
[Filter: Caroline]

Carrie ...

I know yesterday must have been hard for you. It would have been hard for me, in your place. I'm still so sorry that this had to happen to you. I don't suppose I can do anything to help you? I ... know it's a delicate situation, but ...

I'm only sorry that I was so busy yesterday cooking for Thomas that I couldn't help you then. But I thought surely I could do something today ...
Mood: sympatheticsympathetic
15 February 2011 @ 05:34 am
[Filter: Colleen]

Were things really bad yesterday? They didn't let me out, but I didn't think there was probably much for me to see anyway. I hope he wasn't too awful to you. I was up all night thinking about it. Did he make you sleep with him?
Mood: stressedstressed
15 February 2011 @ 06:54 am

Four years old. It seems impossible that it has been so long since Jayden entered my life. It seems as though he was born just yesterday ...

He was, and still is, the best Rose Day present of all.

We have quite the party planned for today, as always. Everyone is eager to help spoil him some more. And even though I have only just started, Sister Sabilla happily gave me the day off, in some part due no doubt to the fact that I was there all day yesterday.

It should be a wonderful day.
15 February 2011 @ 03:18 pm
[Filter: Private]

If ... if only we were able to be home, for Rose Day ... then I could have ... ah ... but that's not -- it's just me being silly again, isn't it?

I wonder if he's busy ... I haven't seen his writing in a while.

[Filter: Lila]

Um ... did your Rose Day go according to plan, Lila ...?

I just ... well, I was just curious, is all.
Mood: blahblah
15 February 2011 @ 03:28 pm
[Filter: Jordan]

Mm~ I suppose, for what we had to work with, we've done a fairly decent job with Rose Day, don't you think? ♥

My, and did you see what happened to Lauren? That poor girl, she doesn't seem to be able to get a break, does she?
Mood: cheerfulcheerful
15 February 2011 @ 04:59 pm
[Filter: Private]

So many roses, and none from anyone I have any interest in whatsoever.

... I wonder if anyone has warned her, yet. She seems like a perfectly lovely young woman. Royal in manner and appearance as well as in title and birth. She comports herself very well, and fits into the court quite nicely. She seems very popular.

Surely, she deserves a warning. That she's just another pretty blonde thing, like every other woman he'll ever pay any interest to. Roses don't mean anything, Princess. He gives them all roses, on his road to the prize. And then, once he has it ...

Josiah must have been wrong. Surely, it made me smile to hear him say that he trusted Philip with me. That he saw something in his manner that convinced him Philip's intentions for me were honourable, where they had never been with any of the others. But ... but he doesn't know Philip, and ... and ...

And he's an excellent judge of character. And notoriously protective. And he would never have allowed me to remain with a man who he thought would take advantage of me, never.

Oh, Josiah, but he's not with me. Haven't I hinted? Haven't I ...

It was so much easier, when I thought I was better off. Why did you let me start to think otherwise? It was so, so much easier.

[Filter: Lydia]

Well, I think it all went rather well, don't you? He seemed very charmed by that little basket! I still think you should have doen something a little more ... substancial, but it more than did the trick, I think!
Mood: blahblah
15 February 2011 @ 05:04 pm
Hah! Just going over the strongbox and a quick glance at the inventory is enough to see that we made a fortune yesterday! Putting the perfumes and jewels and Atsirian fripperies in the front was a stroke of genius, let me say!

It's going to take hours squaring this all in the books, and we won't get a final count until then, but something tells me that we made a killing, people!

Drinks tonight are on me.
Mood: pleasedpleased
Lord Craig of Rhia
15 February 2011 @ 05:08 pm
[Filter: Private]

Never gets easier, being without her.

Sometimes ... eh. Silly thoughts, when I've got more than enough left to do alive, but sometimes, I wonder if it wouldn't have been better to have not lived so long. Like ... like how it's looking to work out for Stephen. He'll go, and his girl will follow him in a year or more, maybe a bit longer. No time to be lonely and wonder how you get through it without one another.

I'm glad to be alive. Who wouldn't be? I'm not a doddering old man with my life all behind me and nothing to do with myself. But ... I'd be a lot gladder, if I had her here with me.

Stevie probably doesn't have much longer. Poor thing. ... gets me thinking about everything I could have done differently with him, and with the rest of them. Fenea was better with them than I ever was. Heh. For having so many children, I never was a good father. I even encouraged them bickering with each other, the bitterness over succession, the --

... huh.

There's a thought.

[Filter: Devine]

Had an idea, boy.
Mood: lonelylonely
Lord Hasten of Lireth
15 February 2011 @ 05:16 pm
[Filter: Private]

It makes the charade more difficult, having ... not had to perform it. I should have accounted for that when I decided to pursue it.

[Filter: Felicia]

I thought I had written to you, yesterday, but it seems that I forgot. I apologize.
Mood: busybusy
Faith, Paladin of House Franel
15 February 2011 @ 05:52 pm
[Filter: Sawyer]

So, Sawyer. How'd your Rose Day go, huh? Heard you and Pearl had some pretty big plans, ain't that a fact? Come on, you don't have to keep quiet from me, I won't tell anybody.
Mood: chipperchipper
15 February 2011 @ 06:21 pm
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

William didn't even get anything for Rose Day and I did. I can tell he's jealous too. He's even more annoying than he usually is.

[Filter: Dairanne]

I can't thank you enough for all that great food! It was so much better than the kind you get at the street vendors. How did you know I liked all of that stuff? Mother always scolds me when I eat it.
Mood: impressedimpressed
15 February 2011 @ 06:37 pm
[Filter: Private, in High Megami]

I'm not good enough. I will never be good enough.

That was perhaps the worst Roes Day ever. Father was doing so great and I spent all afternoon cooking him the most wonderful meal with all of his favorites, and he seemed so eager for it all, and when I finally finished he... He did not even recognize me and when I tried to give him the food I so lovingly prepared he started shouting something, I do not even know what, and then threw the tray and food across the room. I managed to give him something to sedate him and let him rest, but all of my hard work was for nothing.

Oh it was just awful. I have never seen him so bad before.
Mood: depresseddepressed
15 February 2011 @ 07:10 pm
[Filter: Adrian, in Atsirian]

Adrian ...

Did it seem to you that perhaps mother seemed more like herself, yesterday?
Mood: hopefulhopeful
15 February 2011 @ 07:31 pm
[Filter: Jace]

How was your Rose Day, Jacey?

[a pause]

If that seems like a personal question or something you just don't want to answer, that's fine. You don't actually have to comment on it. To be honest, I'm just looking for an excuse to write to you at all. I've been trying to find an excuse to reopen a dialogue for months, and have come up with nothing. So I settled on that.

A bit of a lazy, but, well.
Mood: okaywhatever!
15 February 2011 @ 07:42 pm
[Filter: Private]

"Relocated," hm?

And no one knows where to.

I suppose it's better than what I feared worst two days ago. At least the last anyone saw of them, they were alive, just ... fallen on hard times. That means they're probably still all right. They left after the worst of it calmed down.

... it was a little stupid, showing up and expecting -- even hoping -- that Father would be there to cook for, wasn't it? The best case scenario is what I'm looking at right now. That they're okay, in Rechesa, but that no one can help me find them. Why did I feel so good about it, knowing that it could have been worse?

Just as well, I guess. I never did like watching them together on Rose Day. Trying to cheer Father up was never a good way to spend the holiday.

I'll find them. Somehow. We're not leaving just yet, after all.

[Filter: Public]

Glad to hear about the profits~ I had a feeling we could use the loyalty and merchandise we've been working on to get some money out of that damn holiday. It wasn't a complete waste of everyone's time, after all.
Mood: blahblah
15 February 2011 @ 07:59 pm
I do hope everyone made the best of their Rose Day. I always found it to be such a joyous holiday. There is so much love in the air to go around and it is a blessing to see so many happy couples walking hand in hand through the streets. I did manage to have some flowers delivered to the ladies of House Eina, and I certainly hope that it made their day, or at least part of it.
Mood: cheerfulcheerful
Rhoswen of House Karnach
15 February 2011 @ 08:00 pm
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

Thoroughly unromantic Rose Days. I should be used to them by now~

But they still bother me. Sigh.

I guess I don't really blame him. After all, I'm not madly and deeply in love with him, either, and at least he's nice enough to look at~ He probably sobs to his Goddesses every night that his wife's ass takes up half of the bed.

It really should have stopped bothering me, by now.

[Filter: Lady Westa, in Atsirian]

My sister and I were having a debate!

Are you here? On the journals? Neither of us seems to know for sure, but she thinks no for some reason, and I definitely think yes, but I can't say exactly why, and it's really just been driving me crazy ever since!

Tell me I didn't imagine you~~ I'd feel stupid!
Mood: blahblah
Mi (Hermione)
15 February 2011 @ 08:06 pm
[Filter: Private]

Ugh, whatever, at least it's over.

[Filter: Public]

Hey, Jarvis. I know I don't usually suggest stuff like this, but some of the guys have been complaining about being bored in their spare time, or not having enough to do since it's winter or whatever, and I know you were talking about your dogs ...

I know you don't trust most of the recruits with them, but it could be good for them to take your dogs out for walks, or play with them, or something, and none of them are really the type to be mean to them, I think. If they are, then they are and I made a mistake, but if they're not, well, what can it hurt, right?

It'd help your dogs lose some weight, anyway.
15 February 2011 @ 08:11 pm
The party yesterday was really fun ...!

I wasn't sure if I'd like it! Usually, Lorcan and I just do our own thing and don't really come out to the rest of the House, so I've never done it before. But he's away on business, this year, and the boys were all settled down for the night, and ... well, Lorcan said that I might have a good time ...

And I really did! There were so many sweets, and I just love watching all of the little magic tricks the ladies do ...! Isllyn's been putting that sort of thing into our act for years, but seeing them all work together can be so amazing ...! And they're much better at it than Isllyn. That makes sense, because they've had so much training ...!

And everyone looked amazing ...! I liked all the red that everyone wore! And there were roses everywhere ...

It would have been nice to have Lorcan here with me, but the party was really something.
Mood: cheerfulcheerful
Rachelle of Rhia
15 February 2011 @ 08:36 pm
Leisa, I'm going to go check on Clarice, do you want to come with me? I can't imagine yesterday was very easy for her. I hope Declan was sweet to her, the last thing she needs is her own husband treating her like trash on Rose Day! But I didn't see her around for the parties last night, so I was worried ...

Anyway! Like I said! Do you want to come? We can put together a little goody plate from the kitchens, or something.
15 February 2011 @ 09:05 pm
[the writing is hurried]

Dra -- Dragons, Cameryn, would you fetch the midwife and get here at once? I think it's starting. Augh, Dragons, no matter how many times this happens, I will never be used to it.

Please hurry. With as much as has gone wrong already with this -- Dragons
15 February 2011 @ 09:16 pm
[Filter: Private]

Yeah ... this is going to be a lot harder than I thought it was going to be ...

I just hope that they won't just turn me and Leo away without even considering it. Maybe we should go and show of our skills or something ... it couldn't hurt, right? I mean ... it's not like I want to show off ... but really, what else can I do if I want to keep Leo by my side?

I can't keep mooching off Eri and Lenore like this ... sheesh.
Mood: stressedstressed
15 February 2011 @ 09:19 pm
[There's a rough sketch here of the rose gardens Col took her to]

yesterday was so much fun. it was a perfect day to go out! i cannot believe i have never been to the gardens there before. they were so pretty and bright.

and the best part is i did not even ruin col's meal~! ♥
Mood: flirtyflirty
15 February 2011 @ 09:28 pm
[Filter: Private]

I think ... after all of that worrying, it really didn't turn out so badly, after all.

Cassandra seemed to like the rose ... at least, she didn't seem too horrified by the thought of me handing it to her. Of all of the girls at Court, she's always been one to give me some space. I um ... I don't really know what she's expecting from me now, though.

[Filter: Courtiers]

So um ... I have another question ... I know I seem to have a lot of them these days ... but, well, what exactly am I suppose to do after the girl accepts my rose ...?
Mood: curiouscurious
15 February 2011 @ 09:38 pm
[Filter: Private]

I should have just told him. I know why I didn't, but that doesn't matter. Maybe I just need to beat myself up about this a little bit more, but I was crazy for thinking I should have let them do that. Of course she was going to come to him on Rose Day. Why wouldn't she? And now all that work is just sort of sitting there, on fire, and not even giving us a lick of heat.

[Filter: Gebann]

Are you going to be okay?
Lord Derek of Allba
15 February 2011 @ 09:38 pm
[Filter: Private, in Old High Dentorian]

Hm ... constant fatigue ...

Well, surely that is a good sign. I've seen it on several occasions, after all. Surely, our trip will be able to go according to plan. This could not have been a better Rose Day, to be sure.

I do hope that my dear wife enjoyed all of those roses that I had prepared for her.
Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
Aiden [Illuse]
15 February 2011 @ 09:58 pm
[Filter: Marias, in Kilian]

Marias, talk to me. I've been thinking about what you said all day. Tell me it was just a moment of weakness, Marias. I haven't told anyone about it because I knew that you would never do that. Tell me that you've regained your senses and it was just a mistake. A misunderstanding. Please, Marias, say something to me.
Mood: distresseddistressed
15 February 2011 @ 10:12 pm
[filter: Justine]

... your husband was just here.
Mood: surprisedsurprised
Westa of Atsir
15 February 2011 @ 10:12 pm
[Filter: Joseph, in Atsirian]

Your silence is becoming increasingly deafening with each day that passes, you realize.
15 February 2011 @ 10:26 pm
[Filter: Private]


Looking back, all of the signs were rather obvious, weren't they? I blame my own short-sightedness for what happened, here, I do. Sensitive Megami sensibilities sometimes can't see what's right in front of them, even when it's plain as the nose on a face. How I like to say that I've left all those old predjudices behind me, but, well, that's clear enough that they're still there.

But the past can't be changed, and there's better things I can be doing about this than sitting about being sad that I didn't stop it. Broken hearts to get on the mend, for starters.

[Filter: Lauren]

Now, dear, how would you like a plate of cookies? I made too many for Keagan, yesterday, and it looks like I don't have anyone else to give them to!
Mood: guiltyguilty
15 February 2011 @ 10:44 pm
My dear, sweet, wife, you must be so very eager to please me on this day, are you not? Even with your indiscretions forgiven, you seek to make me very happy indeed. Why, all my favourite foods, and my favourite wine. You must have toiled long and hard, and you seem to think that your work is not over yet.
Mood: amusedamused
Francisca of Emeron
15 February 2011 @ 10:51 pm
[Filter: Private]

Rose Day for the past two years has made me think I should find someone of my own! It's been some time since I had to perform, and everyone knows I'm recovered now. It would be great having a boyfriend, and I wouldn't have to spend all day with Cavvy either! And it doesn't matter if it's a merchant's son or anything because I'm not expected to marry a lord or anything. I can court whoever I want.

The only problem with all of this is Daddy. I might have to wait until I'm older than Tarmon before he'll let me start. It doesn't bother me yet, but I just know in a year I'm going to want to start, and there will be a big fight, and the boy I'll want to court will get sent away or something!

Benedette has the most awesome friends. Leon would be the perfect man if he was closer to my age. I don't know his age, but you have to be old enough to start travelling the world, and a world traveler would be so interesting to talk to! Megami so he definitely isn't some kind of heretic, nobility so he knows the way I'd want to be courted, exotic because he's from the colorful jungles, and he knows all about the strange things in them, and wow I'd better stop writing about this... He's Dette's friend. And old! Ew.

I guess I'll go back to playing Settlers with the young crone, and see if I can beat her today. At least I'll get a man before her.
15 February 2011 @ 11:17 pm
[Filter: Private]

I think that yesterday was really a perfect Rose Day, hee ...! I spent all d ay in te kitchen, trying to get everything just perfect for Zach ...! I was hoping that he would like the food that I made for him, too. Of course, he got me the most perfect roses ever!

I didn't even expect more than one rose, ohh ... and he got me three of them ...! I mean, I guess it's true, isn't it? One just doesn't seem like enough, but two just seems odd, and then three is just perfect!

Ooh, but I guess it is time for us to get back to work again, isn't it?

[Filter: Public]

Ooh, these breaks are so nice, aren't they? It's such a nice time to get some time to yourself ...! Ooh, but back to work and to training, of course ...! I'm not complaining or anything ... I'm just ... umm ... yes!
Mood: happyhappy
15 February 2011 @ 11:19 pm
[Filter: Marias, in Kilian]

He's dead this morning, is he?

Well. What a surprise.
Mood: pleasedpleased
15 February 2011 @ 11:24 pm
Wow, I still feel stuffed from yesterday. We cooked all day, making so much food. Soups, salads, all these types of meat, it was amazing. And then there was a chocolate cake for dessert!

It was pretty hard to get up this morning and go back to work.
15 February 2011 @ 11:29 pm
[Filter: Private]

When did I come to not hate Rose Day? It's not surprising that the anger could slowly fall away... I would be more concerned if it didn't. But was it because I moved on, or was it because I have someone else? Aileen is not Aine... We'll never be able to celebrate Rose Day publicly together. I don't see it ever happening.

Have I even moved on? I still feel the day is about Aine and I whenever I think about it. On our last Rose Day, we never even thought about it being our last one. I never thought... I didn't know that she would...

None of this changes the fact that the same people who were after Aine are after Aileen. I loved Aine, I think I love Aileen... Lately she doesn't think she fits in, and that the group is going to kick her out.

I need to come up with a way to change that... That's the only thing that should matter. Not trying to figure out... why Rose Day is much better for me now.
15 February 2011 @ 11:31 pm
I hope everyone had a really great Rose Day! I definitely did, it was really fun. I think Joshua really liked it too. Can you even imagine him getting older and actually giving someone a rose? I can't but I'm sure it's going to happen on day and that's really crazy to think about.

Only two weeks until my birthday!
Xander of Meirsu
15 February 2011 @ 11:34 pm
[Filter: Aekaran~]

And how does this lovely day find you, Aekaran? I do so hope you are well. Though I suppose, given the timing, it is rather unlikely~ I can't quite picture you as the Rose Day type, unlike, say, me. But maybe I'm wrong. Did you receive any home cooking yesterday for your troubles?

I certainly did, thank you so much for asking!
Stephan of Rhia
15 February 2011 @ 11:36 pm
[Filter: Private]

It was not a bad day today. It has been too long since I last spent Rose Day with my wife. It may be my last.

I am tired. Too much seemed to happen all at once. My granddaughters all thought to make me something. Small morsels, all bland and uninteresting, to add to Aleta's simple meal, because they have been told that anything too rich or too sweet will sicken me further.

I would convert to goddess worship for a custard tart right now.
Mood: sadsad
Aes of Cresyn
15 February 2011 @ 11:40 pm
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

I have the best brothers ...! Oh, but as much as I'd hate to say it, Matthew is the best~~ he just has to be ... he just knows exactly what to say to me to cheer me up!

I wish I'd had someone to give a wonderful meal to, this year ... but, well ... I mean, I guess I just needed a break, for once. They have to have understood. They all should have understood that ... shouldn't they?

It has been a long time, so maybe I should be -- ooh, but I'm just ... not ready yet.

Rose Day has passed now, anyway, it's over. I'll just worry about it when the time comes again next year.
Mood: blahblah
15 February 2011 @ 11:45 pm
[Filter: Private]

Sometimes I think the others are lucky to have someone to cook for on Rose Day and sometimes ... not so much. It can get so messy so easily sometimes. I still don't really know what happened but even so, I can at least try to help.

[Filter: Lauren]

I'm sure lots of other people have already asked this but are you feeling any better? And is there anything I can do to help?
15 February 2011 @ 11:55 pm
I'm going to come right out and say this Rose Day was a fucking success. And now I will go back to loving my wife like it's Rose Day for the rest of the year, and the only reason she won't get a colored rose every day is because they only come around once a year. And because it could put a serious dent in Rayla's budget.
Eudora of Fairen
15 February 2011 @ 11:55 pm
[Filter: Alastair]

Your brother is a very strange person, isn't he? Especially in his devotion to your sister, though I suppose twins are meant to be close.

Do you know why he chose to disinherit himself?
15 February 2011 @ 11:58 pm
[Filter: Private]

It will be the same this year as it was every other year. We will sit together by candlelight and I do not even have to think of what he would like, or the kind of conversation he would prefer. It simply comes to me. In return, he will treat me like a queen. And yet, after all these years, I still cannot find it in my heart to love him as he deserves. The sense of dissatisfaction within holds me more tightly today than any other day. It will not let me go, no matter what I do. And I fear it will never leave.

[Filter: Public]

I sincerely hope that Rose Day has gone as planned for all who have a loved one to cherish. There is nothing more satisfying, for a day such as today, than a plan executed to perfection, and the reaction on seeing what you have wrought.
Mood: depresseddepressed