Log in

No account? Create an account
10 February 2011 @ 12:49 am
[Filter: Private]

You'd think it would get easier three years later. At any other time I can just block out the hurt with good memories, but this month...no matter how many good memories I have, it doesn't change what happened, it doesn't change how it happened.

Why am I even thinking about this now? Rose Day's coming up, I should be thinking about what I'm gonna do for Ken...and Brienne's gonna be begging me to help her make something for Joey. Yeah, think about Rose Day. That's always a good distraction.
Mood: blahblah
10 February 2011 @ 12:59 am
[the page is spotted with moisture]

[Filter: Private]

More than a week thinking about it, and -- and I still don't know what to do.

I just want to freeze everything. Right now, just stop time. We could keep moving through our lives, but nothing would change. We could just live in this moment and nothing would ever have to change.

I don't know what to do.

I don't --

Why did this have to happen?

[Filter: Destin]

D-destin ...?
Mood: indescribableindescribable
10 February 2011 @ 02:09 am
Ah if anyone has been wondering about everyone in Rechesa! Prince Julian and Lady Brittany and Lord Christopher and ah all of those people, you know what I'm talking about!

Er well, after the prince and Lady Brittany had a fight here on the journals and everyone saw it, Lady Mydra was really furious and she said that she was tired of everyone making idiots of themselves where anyone could see, and no one was going to be allowed to write in their journals for as long as she had her way! Or that's what I've heard at least! No one is in a very good mood here and I haven't seen anyone with a journal so ah I suppose it's probably right ...

I was just reading and realized that since they can't write, no one would have told all of you, but Lady Mydra didn't take my journal away and ah ...~?
Mood: cheerfulcheerful
Devine of Rhia
10 February 2011 @ 06:29 pm
Great. My dad's brought up the subject of sending me into the guard again, and my mom is agreeing with him. That's exactly what I wanted. Not even my own parents believe me anymore. My dad never does, but my mom not trusting me is a first. I don't even know what to do now.
Mood: depresseddepressed
10 February 2011 @ 06:40 pm
My poor dogs are getting as sick of all this snow. They barely want to leave the barn anymore and it's starting to stink in there more than usual. It's going to need a damn good cleaning when spring comes. They're going to get fat if I can't get them to come out to exercise anymore. Shucks is already starting to look more like a watermelon than a dog. I'm going to have to lower their food intake.
Mood: amusedamused
Felicia of Mansoure
10 February 2011 @ 06:53 pm
[Filter: Private]

...hahaha. I really have changed over the years, haven't I. Lady Cerise can't imagine me being stubborn, but if she'd been here in the beginning...sometimes when I look back on my old writing, I can hardly believe that girl was me. Silly and flighty and idealistic...I actually thought I would marry Elliot, that he was the one. Sometimes I think he still

I have these memories of who I was, but somehow they seem almost like a story. A story about a completely different girl.

Mm, but I have a good life now, don't I? Married with four lovely daughters to one of the finest men in Dentoria. Just like I was always going to be.
Mood: introspective
Helene of Karnach
10 February 2011 @ 08:00 pm
Oh, the tragic irony of it all! The first year I have a proper boyfriend, I must be apart from him on Rose Day~ Yet another consequence of the unfortunate timing of my departure from Razen...thankfully, I'm still very much looking forward to Dentoria, so I've yet to regret it fully~ I suppose this is something I'll just have to live with.

So, what are everyone's plans for Rose Day~?
Mood: siiigh!