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Acantha (sometimes Talli)
30 January 2011 @ 12:14 am

For anyone who wasn't at the markets today, I'm glad I can finally say something! Miss Vaelencia has finished the last private commission she'll be taking for a couple of months. Her next work is going to be three stained glass panes that she hopes will be featured in the middle of a street. They will be tall representations of each of the Holy Three!

I'm going to have to cut back on my jewelry work until it's finished so I can help her, but it is certainly worth it in my opinion. Oh, we've already got a good deal of sketch work done, so we should be able to start firing the frames soon. I am very excited about it!
Damien of Noye
30 January 2011 @ 01:32 am
I've capture Gene, for what it's worth. I'm not sure how successful my mission will be past this point. I have to wait for another ship to come by the island I've stranded myself on. My ship is broken on the rocks, and I don't have the manpower to take the Ice Dragon. It's sitting off the shore with a crew that might soon starve, but not soon enough for my tastes.
30 January 2011 @ 01:43 am
[Filter: Private]

I'm starting to worry.

Dragons, but how could I not? This is ... madness. Unprecedented madness. I think I may be doing something that no man has ever done before! Aren't a few nerves just to be expected?

It just -- it might now be what I've hoped. I might not be what she's hoped, she might not -- this is impossible to know how to predict. We say we're in love and yet have never met face to face. What if it's all different, face to face? Not to mention all the other problems, Dragons, she's in a position for this perfect marriage. Once she sees this is real and not some fantasy story she can live out on her spare time, maybe she won't be interested anymore, maybe it won't be worth the risk. Hell, maybe I'll be that perfect.

I'm not doing anyone any good, entertaining this, but I can't help it. It's all in my head, here. It won't go away.

Some people would find this funny. Me, uncertain? Insecure, even? Have the moons crashed in one another and plummeted down out of the sky? Are the rivers running red with blood? Ugh.

[Filter: Benedette]

Your country is lovely. I feel like an intrepid explorer, here, seeing new lands for the first time.
Mood: stressedstressed
30 January 2011 @ 02:22 am
[Filter: Private]


You know, the more that I think about it, the more something seems quite wrong!

Lydia obviously had someone in that group updating her on their movements. I suppose it could simply have been any of the others, except for the fact that she deliberately told me that it was Lauren! Now, why would my innocent, honest sister lie to my face, unless she had something she was trying to hide?

Yes, I think I understand what's going on here. I think I understand quite well!

I simply can't believe that she would stay committed to this ridiculous little fantasy of hers, especially after everything that happened! It's outrageous! Just what is wrong with that girl? Does she think that Josiah and I are idiots?

Well, we are just going to have to do something about this! And soon! For now, a distraction, perhaps? It might even serve as a solution! Surely, she's only so stuck on this morally bankrupt scoundrel because she has no other prospects! Yes, just so.

I'll just ... need to be careful not to make myself her enemy again. Goodness, that was awful. Hm.

I do wish he would just leave her alone!

[Filter: Lydia]

You wouldn't believe what happened to me at court today, Lydie~
Mood: annoyedhrm >:|
Rhoswen of House Karnach
30 January 2011 @ 02:25 am
[Filter: Ethne, in Atsirian]

You know, dearest, for what it was worth? I rather liked your little play.
Mood: okayokay
30 January 2011 @ 02:30 am
Whoo, finally~!

It looks like we'll be pulling into Rechesa within the next few hours. I'd say sooner, but the processing lines at the gates for mercantile groups is looking punishingly long. I want a hot, scented bath and a warm, soft bed more than anything, but, ah, the things that we give up for the almighty gold piece, hmmm~?

We're going to need some help unloading and cataloguing all of these goods once we get into the city. Are you all ready to help?

I swear, this crick in my neck is going to drive me crazy if I don't get to relax soon~
Mood: tiredtired
30 January 2011 @ 02:34 am
[Filter: Gebann]

Hm, you know dear, there have been some times over the last few weeks you and I have been spending together where I have the impression that you're waiting for the opportunity to say something. You have this expression on your face, from time to time, and when I see it, I do try and give you the opening ... but you always appear to change your mind and the moment flutters away.

There was one just now, in fact, before I left your tent.

I thought that perhaps a little prompting might help you make up your mind ...~ So, let me ask you, darling, do you have something in particular you want to ask me?
Mood: curiouscurious
30 January 2011 @ 02:42 am
I think it's safe to say that it is legal here to ban the Queen Consort from a tavern if he starts making a mess. I didn't think it was, but I was wrong! It's not what you think, I didn't start a fight, I just stumbled into something and knocked a shelf of booze over. They told me I either had to pay damages for the whole stock, or be banned.

I was willing to pay to replace the piss I knocked over too! But then they gave me the bill, and it says I knocked over their finest wine. I asked for their finest wine in the first place, and they said they fucking didn't have any.

Fuck that, pay for your own piss.
30 January 2011 @ 02:55 am
[Filter: Gebann]

So. Your new friend. What's up with her?
30 January 2011 @ 03:32 am
Hm, everywhere we can see is saying that really wide, loose, flowy sleeves are going to be all the rage at court this spring, and that means that all the lesser socialites in the city who we sell to are going to be wanting them, too. They always try to copy what's happening at court, and when we sell designs that match that, we make more sales ...

[there are a few seamstress's pattern sketches of low hanging, winglike sleeves here]

I think something like this? I don't know, I've only heard descriptions, not seen them, but I want to get some practice before the season starts.

I really don't like fashions like this. They're such a waste of fabric. I know that sounds silly, but we don't charge for the materials, we just charge per piece. That means we're going to be making a lot less money selling these gowns than I'd like. Things are still a bit rocky from, ummmmm, last year, and stuff, and I just don't know ...

I guess I'm in sort of a weird mood, today, anyway. I really wish Brian would come by more often, and a lot of the people I really want to write with on these journals don't seem to be reading as much, lately ...
Mood: blahblah
30 January 2011 @ 03:40 am
[Filter: Marias, in Kilian]

My, so very cooperative lately, my love. I barely even know who you are. It seems that every question I ask, you have an answer to, and everything I want you to do for me, you're willing to do.

Does the plight of your fellow man suddenly concern you so very much? What happened to the lone wolf who'd fight me with every breath no matter who it hurt?
Mood: amusedamused
Lord Craig of Rhia
30 January 2011 @ 04:01 am
[Filter: Devine]

Something is going on. I don't know who is all involved, but I think I know how to find out.

That girl, Clarice, she's in on it, somehow. I know that much for sure. I asked her a few questions, played nice grandfather. She's not a great actor. She knows something and she's scared I'm going to find it out. She wouldn't be a tough nut to crack, but I suspect everyone else involved will only use her a scapegoat if I did.

Starting to eye her husband a bit. Never did like that boy.
Mood: workingworking
30 January 2011 @ 04:05 am
[Filter: Private]

He's taking so many stupid risks.

I made him promise, back then, I did. This was the whole condition for me keeping my mouth shut, wasn't it? That he's careful. He promised me that, and now ...

I wish there was some way to talk to Daddy. He needs to know that what he's doing is making a mess of everything. This is just what Destin does, when he gets stressed out and angry, he falls back on Emery. It's what he's always done ... Daddy doesn't see anything wrong with that, as long as Destin is "learning," but he doesn't know.

All it would take would be for there to be one little, stupid mistake, just like the one they made the day I found out, and then ...

Dragons. Maire would -- Maire's life would be over. Violet ... I can't imagine Maire would want her anywhere near him. And that's nothing. Daddy ...

Daddy would kill him. He really would.

I just -- whenever I tell him this, he thinks I'm the enemy. I'm not. I'm not even angry at him, not anymore, I'm just terrified for him. How long is it going to be before this all comes to pieces? And what is going to be left of this family after it does?

I hate this. I hate it.
Mood: scaredscared
Destin of Lysel
30 January 2011 @ 06:24 am
[Filter: Emery]

Oh, you would not even believe this. Are you sitting down? Sit down. Trust me on this one.
Mood: tiredMY LIFE
30 January 2011 @ 06:45 am
[Filter: Eri]

So, what do you say to giving me a bit of a discount when I come in to pick up flowers for your sister? You got any suggestions for her, by the way? Besides the roses, of course, I ain't that dumb.
Mood: cheerfulcheerful
Keran of Sarrca
30 January 2011 @ 06:52 am
[Filter: Private]

Now, Crow, how much longer are you going to play these little games with me?

I know who it was that told you where I was. There's no need to play coy with me. You would spare yourself so much suffering if you would simply start talking. I suppose you think it very admirable, don't you, to hold your silence for so long? Oh, but my friend, you will talk.

All of them talk, when I'm finished with them.
Mood: busybusy
30 January 2011 @ 07:04 am
Oh, the midwinter doldrums, how they cling to all things, shakeably persistant and eternally present! If I were at home, I'd take my men for a foxhunt, but I know that we're all quite above such pastural amusements here in the East, aren't we?

Nevertheless, I insist that I seek out some stimulation! Eliza, Anita, my lovlies, please save your boorish peer from shrivelling away and winking out of existance. I insist we seek out some entertainment, tomorrow night, the three of us. I suppose your charming husband may be invited as well, Eli, though you must tell him to smile a little more, he's such a terrible wet blanket whenever I try to include him.

Anything! A play, a ballet, an opera. I'd settle for an evening in the parlour playing cribbage, so long as wine was flowing, but please, just do not let me go to bed another week with the snow sucking my soul out!
Mood: cheerfulcheerful
Rachelle of Rhia
30 January 2011 @ 07:04 am
[Filter: Leisa]

Ugh, she's such a wreck ... I wish she was in any condition to go out. I just want to make everything better for her. I can't even feel vindicated when I look at her, you know? I still want to punch Devine right in his stupid face for it, but mostly I just ...

I don't even know what to say to her. What do you say, when it's like this? Ugh, I don't even know what to do.
30 January 2011 @ 07:10 am
[Filter: Private]

Oh, Diary, I still can't believe that happened.

It's horrible of me, sitting here, thinking about all of it even while the atmosphere here is still so thick and horrible. I thought that things would be better, after the child was born, but it hardly seems it. I should be focused on how to cheer my fellows, like a good lady, but all I can think is of the two of us, in that library ...

He ... certainly is not Lord Fartgus. Or even Lord Glenn, for that matter. I'm horrible for that, too, for playing it over and imagining that it were one of them, instead, but ... but that doesn't change that it was wonderful. And that he's actually interested in me, in me, in that way, which was more than could ever be said for Fartgus or Glenn.

If I had to settle, a handsome musician with such a way with words, why ... that would hardly be settling at all, would it?

... he is a Lord. Koriner, but ... ah, well, that's something. Perhaps Father would be fine with it. My prospects aren't so very impressive, and there is no one he is eyeing for me that I know of. The alliance would be very shakey, but it would be there. Should we go to war with Korin again, having support on their side of the border would be good, would it not?

Though ... though it's very far from home ...

I get so ahead of myself. There's such distance between then and now! It was only a kiss. A single, wonderful, perfect kiss ... and that's all he asked. no pressure and no fuss, just a wonderful kiss and that's all. He truly was a gentleman ...

It was wonderful. It doesn't matter if it's not the romance I might have chosen for myself. He is charming and talented and handsome and kind, and that is more than I ever thought I would actually find for myself. I ... I'll just have to see what happens from here. I'll see what he does. What he says. I'll just ... see.
Mood: bouncybouncy
30 January 2011 @ 07:17 am
[Filter: Private]

I just hate all of this, so much ...

Isllyn tries, but I don't think she really gets all the politics of the manor, and I'm still such an outsider here ... especially with Lorcan gone. I hate being around so many unhappy or angry people, and being outside of them, not being able to help ...

At least the boys can be with Isllyn, sometimes ...! She's been for them than I am, when I feel like this ...

I keep thinking of

[Filter: Benedette]

Er, I was wondering ...! Would you like to have a longer lesson, tomorrow ...? I'm only asking because it seems like when we start really making progress, you have to go, but I know that you're busy, and we still have a long while left to get ready ...

... just let me know ...!
Mood: blahblah
30 January 2011 @ 07:24 am
[Filter: Tessa]

... you've been acting differently. Around Caroline, especially. At first, I thought it was just her fight with Mother, but now ...

Do you know something?
Mood: worriedworried
30 January 2011 @ 07:48 am
let it go let it go
this is smaller than you know
it's no bigger than a pebble lying on a gravel road
let it go let it go
got to leave it all behind you
give the sun a chance to find you
let it go

My jaw hurts!! I've been singing this song all day from the time I was dismissed until sundown and I think it gave me a headache! Er and some people came along and gave me money for it and I didn't want to stop singing for long enough to explain that I wasn't doing it for money er so I have so money now!! I think I might give it to one of the churches that are trying to help with repairs and relief and er things like that ...

This song is beautiful, but ... it makes me sad, too. He was trying to tell me something in this song ...

I should have listened to him ...~

you wasted on the ground when you know you should be flying
what are you waiting for?
Mood: sadsad
30 January 2011 @ 08:17 am
[Filter: Private]


Rose Day. Wedding dresses.

Oh yeah, and crap at home exploding, there's always that. How long am I going to kick around Floran pretending like I belong here and eating off Eri's table?

Mood: blahblah
30 January 2011 @ 08:34 am
[Filter: Private]

I need to get to the rookery again. That's the problem. There has to be somewhere that can help. There has to be. What else can I even do? But the minute I leave this room, Keran will think that means I'm a traitor, and I'll be dead. And then it won't matter if I can find anyone to help us or not.

Why did the Crow ever have to come? Why did those stupid rebels have to mess up our shipments? All of this is such a mess. And I can't do anything, because I'm stuck in this room.
Mood: worriedworried
30 January 2011 @ 08:43 am
[Filter: Private]

Well, nothing ventured, nothing gained.

[Filter: Princess Seraphine]

Now, Princess, I must admit, you've looked a little downhearted occasionally at court these past few weeks. I haven't wanted to say anything since most people haven't been noticing, but I have to admit I'm a bit worried about you!

So I ask: Is there anything I can do for you? I'd be happy to take you out for a night, if you'd like. Perhaps a dinner away from court would be exactly what you needed, or a show? Anything, please, don't hesitate to say.
Mood: workingworking
Peter of Bresa
30 January 2011 @ 08:48 am

Come out from wherever you've hidden yourself this instant. I don't know why you think this is funny, or entertaining, or why you somehow think it's all right for you to run away like this. You're a young lady now, and I fully expect you to act like one, even when you show me that I'm mistaken to do so. As you are right now.

Come out at once.
Mood: angryangry
Maeve [[Blanche]]
30 January 2011 @ 08:50 am
[Filter: Andrew]

Please tell me you're not thinking of going into town with the others. I don't want you to put yourself at risk, there. If a single one of them is recognized, or there are soldiers in town ...
Mood: worriedworried
30 January 2011 @ 09:28 am
[Filter: Privit]

It just isnt far.

Ive ben working on majic for longer than Lauren, and I want it to much mor! I work so, so hard in my lessins! Its all that Mother and Father want from me. Theyd be allrite with all of the rest of it, if I could just ... maek it work.

Why dos Laurel get to suckseed, first?

It just -- its not far.

[Filter: Public]

Im going uot.
Mood: frustratedfrustrated
30 January 2011 @ 09:53 am
Kimberly ...

Are you all right? I've only just now read about what happened, the other day. You shouldn't put any thought into it, really. Some people will be quick to blame problems on anyone who seems different. Standing out makes you a target ... it's not your fault.

Ella, Sir Mark, is there anything that I could do? I know, a whore on the other side of the world who doesn't even own her own hide isn't exactly the most valuable aid, but if there's anything, really ... do let me know.

It's strange how my own life has a hard time affecting me, but hearing about injustice to other people, well, that just burns me up.
Mood: worriedconcerned
30 January 2011 @ 10:19 am
[Filter: Private]

Poor Mother...it's no surprise that she would catch cold in the winter, and now she has to rest in her rooms while all of us continue to plan the wedding. At least Lilias has promised to keep her updated on everything so she doesn't feel entirely left out...regardless, I do hope for Mother's swift recovery.
Mood: concerned
Matthias of Diarnay
30 January 2011 @ 10:45 am
Oh, Dragons, this book!

I only have thirty pages left, but every single one is like slowly dragging a knife across my skin. I haven't had any idea what's been going on since like a hundred pages back when Aribelle met the sheep woman and they talked about -- I don't even know. They both shouted stuff over a gorge and I think that was supposed to mean something?

Apparently, it's all symbolic! Who fucking knew.

I am going to get through this thing, I fucking swear it, and then I'm going to punch it out a window and never read another book ever again.

[a few minutes pass]

Ugggh, twenty-nine pages left. This is awful.
Mood: annoyedrrrrr
30 January 2011 @ 11:18 am
[Filter: Private]

He has the Crow down there. Below.

I ... I can only imagine how he's feeling, right now. Pushed to the edge. And beaten. And battered. Keran's done awful things to him. I can be sure of that. I don't need to see for myself. Keran would ... the things that Keran would do to someone who would try to oppose him, twice, they're ...

I need to free him.

I need to find out how to free him, but I need to do it. I need to try. The Crow kills men who deserve to die. What happens to Korin if the Crow dies, himself? I can't let that happen.

He's not dead yet. I'd have heard. Everyone agrees he's still down there, even though no one has seen him. I still have time.

I need to think.

[Filter: Keran]

I've been thinking. About Rory.
Mood: indescribableindescribable
30 January 2011 @ 12:23 pm
[Filter: Private]

I just ...

I can't be the one. I don't even know what's happening. She's a woman. She's ... nothing like Vaelen. I can't be the one to go and ask the question. I don't ... I am not strong enough, for that.

I suppose we will simply dance around each other.

I ... should put her from my mind. Permanently. It has done me no good. And it will not progress.

[Filter: Queen Edalene, in Atsirian]

Your Majesty.
Mood: blahblah
30 January 2011 @ 02:59 pm
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

Everything will be fine. It's so easy to forget, sometimes, that mother is mortal, regardless of how we must have the people view her. It will pass. It must.

[Filter: Adrian, in Atsirian]

Adrian, I require your assistance.
Mood: worriedworried
30 January 2011 @ 03:05 pm
[Filter: Private]

What is going on, back home~? Of course they wait until I can't possibly pull myself away from here to get themselves into trouble, again. Sometimes I wonder if I shouldn't have gone back during all of that time we wasted, in Hanalan~ Oh, it was lovely, no doubt, but it wasn't all that interesting, up until the end. I could have gotten away, then. Flown off and returned when they decided they were quite serious about continuing on ...

Mm, but it's more and more of a risk each time, isn't it? Julian might have waited for me forever, before, but this new Julian, well. I suspect we'll have a number of interesting conversations, next time I find myself in Kanemoria~

I hope you can be very convincing, Britt~ ♥
Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
30 January 2011 @ 03:16 pm
Now, I do believe that's a new dress that her Majesty is wearing, this afternoon, and I wanted to be absolutely sure that everyone who hasn't had the pleasure of seeing her in it themselves knew just how beautiful she is. It's a new style, isn't it? A bit Dentorian, actually, though I'm no expert. It's all green and gold, and her Majesty looks just like a radiant jewel, glowing in the sun. I suppose that's fitting, isn't it?
Mood: cheerfulcheerful
Lord Glenn of House Rowan
30 January 2011 @ 03:21 pm
[Filter: Eriena]

Hm, I apologize if I have been scarce of late, but I promise you that I have only you in mind in my absences. I hope that you are preparing yourself in advance for Rose Day, my dear. We take this sort of thing quite seriously, in the West, I'll have you know, and there will be absolutely no cutting corners on my behalf.
Mood: workingworking
30 January 2011 @ 04:08 pm
[Filter: Reiz]

You know about girls and Rose Day, right?
Mood: embarrassedembarrassed
30 January 2011 @ 04:25 pm
[Filter: Ella]

I ...

I think I should talk to you.
Mood: guiltyguilty
30 January 2011 @ 04:40 pm
It's so cute watching Joshua play in the snow! I should start making some hot soup so he can warm up when he gets done! He is going to be soaking wet~!

I think he's making a whole family of snow people!
Mood: amusedamused
Leisa of Rhia
30 January 2011 @ 05:06 pm
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[Filter: Private]

Ugh, everything's such a mess! Uncle Stephan could die any day now, it seems, Devine's gone from being a jerk to a disgusting creep, Clarice is a wreck...

And Rose Day, people are talking about it and I was just content not to think about it till the last minute! Stupid Edward, I know I shouldn't let him ruin it for me, but every time I think about how good it was, and how I was so sure he was the one...why are men always so difficult?
Mood: crappycrappy
30 January 2011 @ 05:13 pm
[Filter: Private]

... What a weird month.

I mean, not in a bad way. Not exactly. I mean, taking responsibility! That's a good thing. Anton and Inara couldn't put up with me that way forever. Nevermind that Daisy paid most of

Baby steps. Right. This is progress and that's what matters.

[Filter: Public]

So, uh. I hope everyone likes sweet potatoes. Mashed, baked, roasted, whatever. They were on sale, okay?

I'm still not sure who's all coming, by the way. That'd probably be good to know before I go buy anything else. Anton, I know you're in. Inara and Joshua too, probably. And ... Annie? I don't think we've really met, yet.
Mood: nervousnervous
30 January 2011 @ 05:21 pm
Ugh. I don't think I could eat another bite. I can't remember the last time I had a meal like that. My stomach feels like it's going to explode. Remind me we gotta eat there again before we get out of here. That really hit the spot.

Feels good being all together again too. Whoever gets the idea to split up like that again should get the sense smacked back into them.
Mood: fullfull
30 January 2011 @ 05:22 pm
[Filter: Private]

I really can't afford to keep Kray leashed if things are going to keep ramping up, here.

He's just -- he can be such a liability. For me, personally? That's his charm. That's what I lo li appeciate about him. He's blunt, he's frank, he doesn't take shit too seriously, and when he does he takes it so damned seriously he'd punch the sun if it challenged him. That's just him, and it's a great quality in a friend. And a lover.

But in a consort?

Dragons, I swear, I spend more time damage controlling him than anything else. Meanwhile, Keller is all up on me for not having enough authority, and Harriet can't stand that I'm not handling more affairs myself, and Ree ...

She's needed out there. She's our best, and something is wrong. But ... she's like my other half. I'm not sure how I can do any of this without her ...

... I'll have to talk to Harriet. Maybe she can do something about Kray. I don't know. Dragons.

Sometimes ... I start thinking I was never cut out of this. I know it's my blood, I know it's my "destiny," and I know it'll be a better life for my kids, but ... I think I made a better merc than a queen.

[Filter: Davan]

So, it's been a month. I don't suppose you've got anything for me? Or are you useless after all, just like I expected when I saw your damn writing in the first place?
Mood: stressedstressed
30 January 2011 @ 05:30 pm
[Filter: Private]


It was only a matter of time ...

[Filter: Mianne]

So! Um, yes! My parents. You know, those folks who I'm not sure you could pick out in a crowd and haven't ever really shown any interest in helping you out with that. Them!

They want to have you over for dinner.
Mood: annoyedannoyed
30 January 2011 @ 05:42 pm
[Filter: Private, in Kilian]

Oh, Dragons.

This ... this is not a good idea.
Mood: guiltyguilty
30 January 2011 @ 05:57 pm
[Filter: Franelcrew]

Now, let's see here, just who exactly is going into town? You all need to be off within the hour, or you're not going to make it in time to catch up to our camp before sundown!

Looking at everyone who volunteered already, and we agreed would be a good fit -- or at least, didn't agree wouldn't, haa~ -- we have Lawrence himself, Terrance, Elden, Irving, Sir Dagda, and a perhaps from Sir Calaith. I, myself, can think of one particular other person who would be well-suited to this exact sort of task, though I would hardly be so rude as to volunteer for him.

We agreed that five or six would be best, which seems to fit. Does anyone need any help getting ready, or have any questions, dears?
Mood: workingworking
30 January 2011 @ 07:15 pm
[Filter: Private]

And I shouldn't even care. Why does it matter? She chose the person that she wanted to be, and that's not someone I want to know. I don't care if she doesn't invite me to a stupid dinner. It doesn't -- it doesn't matter.

I'm ... I could do better, anyway. I have a good family. Strong, good history. The Princess was interested in me, once. That counts for something. I could ...

None of it even matters. I shouldn't care. I don't care. Fine. Have your dinner.
Mood: angryangry
30 January 2011 @ 07:26 pm
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

She still sort of thinks of me as being young ... I don't blame her for it. It's been a long time since she saw me, after all.

Lady Mother says that it's hard to think of yourself as something that you don't want to be, so long as you know even one person thinks of you that way. I want Karlesta to see me as an equal. Someone who's adult. So long as she keeps thinking I'm a little girl, I still feel a bit like one ... Lady Mother is right.

And ... I want to talk to her more. I knew that I wanted ... um, not have to be around her for a while, but I didn't realize how much I'd missed her ...

[Filter: Karlesta, in Atsirian]

Ah, hello, sister! Are you having a nice day? I hope that I'm not bothering you, but I wanted to ask for your advice on something!
Mood: optimisticoptimistic
30 January 2011 @ 07:35 pm
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

Definitely still some tensions there, eh? Wasn't like Brett to get all snappy at the drop of a hat, before.

Interesting times for us all on the horizon, I'd say~

It's so nice to be back. I'd never admit it outright, but when you're actually in charge, well, you have less time to plan for more personal things~ Let the old man take the wheel again, I say. 'Course, I'll have to see to those books before anything else. They're just as bad as he warned me about, and maybe worse. Hopeless man~
Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
30 January 2011 @ 07:44 pm
[Filter: Private]


... Just, absolutely unbelievable. How should I even react to such a thing? I'm sorry that it happened. It's dreadful, that she would go through something like that. I can only imagine how frightened she must have been, and thank the Dragons Light and Dark that Druce happened by to ... to do what he did. I don't doubt that it was warranted. They're good people. Druce, Lyonesse, Aileen ... they are good people.

But -- to simply leave it, that way. To move on and go without saying a word? That's just -- how could they have? It should have been reported. It's been far too long, now. So much could have been avoided ...

I highly doubt Lord Lawrence's group would have turned her away because she became a victim of something so horrible. It's completely irrational, and it caused us so much worry, so much trouble ... so much. And it's taken her this long to say a word. And what can I even do with the knowledge, now, after so long? Certainly nothing to fix this ... perception, of Kimberly. It's already taken root. Such a story would only sound desperate and far-fetched, to their ears.

I hope that Cassidy's opinion turns out to be correct. We just can't keep on covering these things up, pretending they haven't happened. It's taking a toll on us. I'd rather Kim didn't leave, but if this keeps up ... I'm sure she will.

This is all such a mess. And it was all completely avoidable. That makes it so much worse.
Mood: angryangry
30 January 2011 @ 07:50 pm
[Filter: Private]

A pet really is a good idea, I'm so glad Sister Astia agrees! I'm sure it's just what we need to get everyone closer together, especially Allegra and the other new girls ...! I mean, we all have to work together to train a new pet, and care for it, so that it's brought up right. We all have to rely on each other, so maybe that'll bring Allegra out of her shell a bit ... at least, I really hope so.

[Filter: Public]

Sister Astia said a pet for the convent is a great idea! And she said I should keep a look out for where we can get one ...! I think she wants us to get a dog, so it can watch over the temple ... but I'll have to ask everyone what they'd want. It is going to be everyone's pet, after all ...
Mood: hopefulhopeful
30 January 2011 @ 07:54 pm
[Filter: Franelcrew]

Well, it seems there is a town about half a day away from here. I agree that we should take this opportunity to replenish our supplies. I also agree that not all of us can go at once. I think a group of six or so would be large enough to bring our supplies back, but small enough not to draw attention.

So, do we have any volunteers?
Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
30 January 2011 @ 07:58 pm
[Filter: Private]

... something isn't right.

She's -- she's too late. We don't know the exact date, we can't have, but she's almost two weeks late. That's enough that even with some error, I --

It's this healer. He's a hack. I don't know --

[Filter: Hilary]

How are you feeling, today, sister?
Mood: worriedworried
Amaeyra of Lireth
30 January 2011 @ 08:02 pm
[Filter: Hasten]

Brother ... your request is being done. Sir Gavril is at the lighthouse, making the arrangements you asked for. I'm certain he and the tradesmen will be done by the time you arrive, that is, if you are making your way there straight from Keirnan ...?

He does not know what purpose the refurbishments serve. I told him that you wished to secure something there, and he need not concern himself further. I told him to return to Lireth the moment he and the other men are finished. I hope this is to your satisfaction.
30 January 2011 @ 08:03 pm
[Filter: Druce, in Kilian]

Oh, Druce ...

Sometimes, I just -- I just wish I could shut myself away from everyone. Everyone there ever was. I can't -- I just don't know how to talk to people, how to deal with people, and, and ...

Ah, Dragons, and I'm writing in Kilian, again. This is how little I know how to handle anything, I can't even speak the same language as anyone else! It's so frustrating!


Somewhere ... somewhere along the way, I think I started trusting you ... I ... I don't want to be sent away from this group. I don't want them to realize what a selfish bitch I am and be done with me. I ...

If that happens ... you won't leave me, will you?
Mood: crappycrappy
30 January 2011 @ 10:46 pm
[Filter: Private]

It was certainly a risk telling Cameryn and most pleasing that he too thinks that something is amiss. I suppose it would not hurt to confide in Mother either. I also need to make sure I can find a way for us to get letters from each other so that Alastair cannot steal them. I know it was him, who else would want to keep me from writing to her or hearing back? Tomorrow while we are shopping would be a perfect opportunity to talk without having to worry about anyone else dropping eaves.

[Filter: Public]

Mother promised to take me shopping tomorrow. She has been complaining about my dreadful wardrobe since I returned. I suppose I have not noticed as we are expected to dress more plainly at the convent than I am used to at home. Trying on new dresses is such a joy. I simply cannot wait. Perhaps I will even find something nice, but fitting for use at the convent.
Mood: pleasedpleased
Lady Tyrande of House Sarris
30 January 2011 @ 11:07 pm

I recieved a letter from my sister Lillithe yesterday. The point that is of most interest is, ah, her evasiveness regarding courtship. She tells me that there is a man, but she has yet to consent to him being a suitor. Naturally, as a sister, I wonder why she is so hesitant, and of course, I am curious about this man. It is a pity that the letter lacks this detail. Of course, it is my hope that she finds a companion who is agreeable, most of all.
Mood: amusedamused
Hazel of Aeda
30 January 2011 @ 11:14 pm
[Filter: Private]

Matthias truly is frustrated with this book. I had thought to suggest that we turn our attention to something a little less, er, metaphoric, but he is determined to see this through to the end. I suppose he will feel triumphant after reading the last word, and that may lead him to pick another book, but ... I had hoped that he would grow to like reading. Or at least understand why it so appeals to me. Now, I think he is further from understanding than he did before.
Mood: worriedworried