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Lissandra of Veirnan
29 January 2011 @ 12:41 am
It is a pity that in these past few weeks, I have been too busy to spend as much time with Lancel as I had been. I do hope my sisters have been keeping him company in my stead. You need not worry about him, Stephanie, though I'm sure he misses you the most.

I've been assisting in keeping the household ledger balanced for the month. It is more difficult than it first appears. Do you know how much we've spent on candles, Father? It is winter, I grant you, but you know very well that you shouldn't read so late at night. I thought you would know how it strains the eyes.
29 January 2011 @ 03:22 am
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

Why does this have to take so much time? I was doing so well, and now, I have to start over. From the beginning. Piece by piece.

Baby steps.

[Filter: Westa, in Atsirian]

You must be waiting to hear a report, sister. I do apologize for being so thoughtless as to let you wait so very long. Can you ever find it within yourself to forgive your simple brother such a sin?

I am making progress. Slowly, but surely. The Queen came and spoke to me at the court last night, and seemed to forget for a time that she hated me. She remembered and flounced off, but not before she smiled. I see her giving me considering looks, now and again. I also spoke to her, appealing to her arrogance, by painting myself as pentitent and tortured by it. It seemed to have some effect.

For now, it's all I can do, but it is happening.

Six months left.
Mood: frustratedfrustrated
29 January 2011 @ 04:02 am
[Filter: Private]


Rose Day.

I'm happy for Lenore. Even if I don't trust Col, at least she has somebody ... and she's so happy with him. Maybe I'm approaching this wrong. He hasn't done anything to hurt her. And she's so happy with him. But --

I -- loved him. I really did. Maybe he didn't deserve it, or maybe he couldn't even understand it, or anything, but I did love him. I thought everything might turn out okay for him and me. I just thought that maybe everything would be fine, and look how that turned out.

I don't even know what I'm going to do.

Not go out, that's for sure.
Mood: sadsad
29 January 2011 @ 06:12 am
[Filter: Aekaran]

All right, I know you're in a sulky mood, but I've brought you a bribe: one hot meal. If I bring it in there, will you be willing to talk, or are you going to close yourself off again?
Mood: tiredsigh
Tarmon of Emeron
29 January 2011 @ 06:59 am
I should hope that my wife has recovered enough by now that she might set aside some time for her husband who has not had an opportunity to spend adequate time with her in many months. Perhaps a private dinner, or something of the sort? I should expect you would not tell me no.
Mood: crankycranky
29 January 2011 @ 02:57 pm
I am going through firewood faster than I believe I ever have since I moved here. I cannot help but wonder if there is a draft letting more cold air in than usual. Dragons know how I am going to find it if it even exists. If it's not a draft, I do not have the slightest clue as to what else could be causing me to go through so much firewood. I stocked up just a couple of days ago, and already I am afraid I will have to get more by the end of next week.

Oh, and Miss Winifred! I visited your family yesterday. They are doing quite well and they told me that they miss you very much and hope you are happy and getting along with all of your new friends.
Mood: coldcold
29 January 2011 @ 04:05 pm
Cerise dear, the children have been asking if they Sootie pay a visit so he could play with Caramel. That dog seems to have become restless in the last week, and the children are fretting over the lack of time they have had to play with him. All a part of becoming older, of course, for lessons to become a priority over playtime. Naturally, however, once the day has been arranged, they are free to come with Sootie, if you wish.
29 January 2011 @ 04:12 pm
[Filter: Franelcrew]

I have had the thought, with all the complaints about the cold of late, that perhaps we should send some of us to buy some supplies at a village close by, or at least, some cloth. With how we left Aelvir, we probably are not as well prepared for the journey ahead as we ought to be.
Mood: coldcold
29 January 2011 @ 04:19 pm
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

This is going to be my first Rose Day where I have someone I really want to do something for ... other than my father. And it's been such a long time, since then ...

I don't want to think about how much I miss him, though. I've done that for so long, and this year ...

This year, I really want to be different. I want to be grown up.

This isn't easy for me ... I keep thinking about how silly I'm going to feel if he doesn't do anything for me. Lady Mother says that's not very becoming for an Atsirian lady. I know she's right about that. She shouldn't even have to tell me ... but I can't stop worrying about it. I think that he likes me, but I never know how to really tell. Not for sure ...

I should just start focusing on what I'm going to make. Lady Mother says that a project can keep your mind focused on a task instead of worrying about other things. I know she's right ... it always works when I try it ...
Mood: nervousnervous
29 January 2011 @ 04:32 pm
[Filter: Private ; Kilian]

And a few days of leave granted, just like that. I guess Desmund is just relieved all that's changed about me lately is that I haven't been quite my usual chirpy self. Neala actually said that was a good thing. So nice to know she cares. At least I can keep up with the triplets now.

Still, I don't think Desmund is expecting me to take a complete break. We did put that mouse in stasis for a minute, just like he said, though I'll have to trust him that it did. It just looked less panicked for a minute, to me. No, he's going to expect me to sustain it. When a minute long effect was draining enough.

If all of this was just for me, I really would have quit already.

[Filter: Erin ; Kilian]

So, I thought I should point out, in case you haven't noticed, that I'm not bleeding out of my eyes. Or curled up in constant pain. Lucky for you, huh?

[Filter: Aurnia ; Kilian]

Guess who got some days away from work?
29 January 2011 @ 04:32 pm
[Filter: Fayre]

Sigh. I have been so very bored, lately~
Mood: boredbored
29 January 2011 @ 04:46 pm
Fuck, that was close. Looks like navies have been studying since I've been gone. That's a tactic I haven't seen before. Megami are usually so high and mighty, you wouldn't think they'd stoop to luring me in with a smouldering merchant vessel. Hey, they had to have gotten that ship from somewhere. Guess that's one of the kicks of being the fucking navy.

Still, haven't had excitement like that in a while. Wonder what else they've learned.
29 January 2011 @ 05:07 pm
[Filter: Private]

Ugh, Rose Day. I'm starting to think that Fabian's ruined it for me. I'm going to think about him on Rose day, there's no stopping that! I'm going to think of how he gave me that rose, just out of nowhere. I'm going to think about how that felt. To have somebody notice you, and that maybe, just maybe you're wanted.

That stupid, stupid jerk!

[Filter: Women]

Is there anyone who had someone they liked ... loved, even, leave them in a bad way? Like, after a fight or something like that? How do you get through Rose Day without thinking about him?
Mood: frustratedfrustrated
Lady Eliza of Temair
29 January 2011 @ 05:34 pm
[Filter: Private]

Eara truly is a good child. Innocent, and sweet. To think for most of her life, she has not had a mother's guiding hand. I suppose it is possible to raise a daughter without a mother. Father did nearly raise me himself. But Eara is very much a girl, and Father did all he could to make me the boy he could not have. I wonder why Nicolas seems to have made no effort to teach her anything of what is one day expected of her. I know it is not the way of the West to regard a female head of house with anything other than a sense of horror, but I do not think you the kind of man to want his heir to act more puppet than ruler.

She is your heir, Nicolas, barring the circumstance where you and Lady Anita beget a son. I doubt that you will, but I will pity the poor boy if he does come. With you for a father, a man to take himself after, that boy's moral character will hardly stand a chance.

[Filter: Public]

You know, Nicolas, I was asking Eara if she missed Conare. For a few minutes, she tilted her head just so, deep in thought, and she answered that she did, of course, but that she was delighted to have the opportunity to visit me, since she enjoyed it so before. A fluent answer I would expect from a girl older than her. She is being taught very well.
Winifred (Winni)
29 January 2011 @ 06:43 pm
It actually feels good to be on the move again! I think a long rest was just what we needed...I was starting to get tired of looking at the countryside before, but now I'm glad to see it again!

Also, Irma said she might be able to teach me to knit! I've never done any real sewing or knitting before...I've only ever tried to mend, and I wasn't very good with the needle. Knitting seems like it could be fun, though!
Mood: goodgood
Stephan of Rhia
29 January 2011 @ 07:41 pm
[Filter: Private]

[The handwriting is slow and careful]

I called Cillian to the manor yesterday, and told him that I wished for his help to put my affairs in order. He stared at me, as if lost for the words to respond. If he agrees, he sounds as if he expects me to die, but if he disagrees, he is making light of what may be his father's last request. It was ... amusing, to be honest.

I can expect Hayden to carry out my wishes, after my death, but our family is a large one, to say the least. It will be better for him to have some assistance. The less dispute after my death, the easier it will be for Aleta.

[Filter: Hayden]

Boy. I hope you have the time to see me tomorrow.
Mood: tiredtired
29 January 2011 @ 07:45 pm
[Filter: Private]

Been tense with Ree gone. Everyone knows something's being dealt with when she's not here. Men are starting to look nervous. At least they're not gossiping like old women.

[Filter: Public]

Eric. Lara. How would you like to make yourselves useful?
Mood: workingworking
29 January 2011 @ 07:53 pm
[Filter: Private]

Everyone has been so sympathetic. Poor cuckholded Alastair. How kind of him to be so forgiving of his wife, so ready to declare her innocence. Who knew he could be such a devoted husband. I wish I could laugh~

[Filter: Eudora]

That went quite well, don't you agree, my sweet? If I didn't know better, I would guess that you were trying to make amends. You've been such a wicked girl. I ought to think some punishment befitting of a devious little seductress~
Mood: hornyhorny
29 January 2011 @ 08:13 pm
[Filter: Annie]

So I've seen you around the journals and everything, but I don't think we've ever talked much at all. I'm pretty much relying on your desire to get paid since asking for a favour would be an ass thing to do. So count this as a paying favour, payment in advance for services rendered and that whole thing.

See, from what I've read, you're just the kind of person I need to get this done. I've got a sweetheart in Floran whose brother has already tried to kill me twice. Pretty sure he's sending some kind of message with that, but you know, I don't much care! Anyway, I need to get her a rose on Rose Day, and I need someone who's good at not getting noticed. The guy who helped me last year is beside me right now, lucky him.

Write back if you're interested, and I'll go over that whole payment in advance thing.
Nerida of Allba
29 January 2011 @ 09:03 pm
Aaron is much more cheerful now than he was after Claudia was born. I'm not sure what caused the change, but I'm glad. He even patted Claudia on the head unprompted. I think he will grow fond of her yet~

I have been making more time to spend with him, now that Claudia is older and Lady Vivien is more than happy to care for her while I'm away. Aaron is at the stage where he is just fascinated by insects. Unfortunately, with the weather, he has been bringing me spiders more often than not ... but spring is only a month away~ If only Myles were here, I'm sure they would be chattering away splendidly about beetles, but I suppose Aaron will have to make do with me.
29 January 2011 @ 11:08 pm
[Filter: Private]

I'm just makin this all worse ain't I? Between all this talk of me bein a murderer and Ella thinkin I'm just playin games with Mark, maybe I shouldn't be here. I don't belong here. I'm just makin everything worse for everyone else. They don't deserve this.

[Filter: Public]

I thought this was all over and finally behind us. I can't believe anyone still thinks I'd do something like that. Now it ain't even just about me. I should just leave so I ain't costin Ella or Mark any more money. That big window can't be cheap to replace, and now we gotta repaint the barn too. I doubt I even made enough since I've been here to cover somethin like that.
Mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable