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Seraphine (Elina)
14 January 2011 @ 06:01 am
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I suppose ... Ian was right, after all ...~

I don't know why I'm so disappointed. I just ... I suppose it would have been rather wonderful, if it turned out that she really didn't care. That ... would have been beautiful, wouldn't it? For her to just accept him ... forgive him ... as simple as just that.

... but I suppose what she said was wrong, after all. Someone can change enough that they aren't the same person, anymore. That's ... maybe that's a good thing? Ah, it means that someone can overcome parts of themselves they don't like, or, or ...

Poor Eamon ... poor Lady Caroline.

I ... really did hope that it would all work out. I really did.

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I'm finding I'm especially looking forward to court tomorrow, for some reason ...~ It's just been such a dreary day with the sky overcast and the snow off and on like it has been. There's something about court that always seems so sunny, doesn't it ...? Like a little bit of summer in the midst of winter ...~

I think I'll wear something bright and colourful tomorrow, to help spread the cheer~
Mood: blahblah
14 January 2011 @ 06:12 am
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I don't think that I've ever seen her so --

[Filter: Tessa]

Have you learned anything yet? It's been nearly a week.
Mood: worriedworried
Felicia of Mansoure
14 January 2011 @ 04:14 pm
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Isanae certainly was lucky. I don't even want to imagine the fallout had she given Tarmon a daughter...at least Hasten regarded Mae warmly enough, but I know my cousin too well.

...and yet, I can't help feeling a bit jealous of her. No, more than a bit jealous. I wonder, how many more daughters will I disappoint Hasten with before I can give him the son he desires? Every time I even think the next one will be a boy...

Perhaps next time I shouldn't have any expectations or hopes. Why bother? I'll always be a disappointment to Hasten...
Mood: depresseddepressed
14 January 2011 @ 04:48 pm
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The important thing is we're safe now, but...now what? Eina is still so far away from here, and I still can't help worrying. What if they're just lulling us into a false sense of security, and then when we least expect it they'll be sending troops after us?

No one's ever wanted us dead before.

I truly hate this country
Mood: scaredscared