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02 January 2011 @ 02:09 am
[Filter: Private]

Perhaps I was too forthcoming these past few days. I do not regret a thing, but I might have revealed myself to more than I would like. I might have to keep a closer eye on Lady Lauren, though I do not think she has quite figured it out yet. Sir Jace, on the other hand, is a more immediate threat. At times he quite obviously has the common sense to keep his mouth shut, yet others he is all all too happy to drop hints that others may pick up on. I could leave it to Lady Celeste to handle, but it would be best to size him up more directly, and it might take my mind off my wounds for a short time.

[Filter: Sir Jace]

I do believe that the two of us should have a bit of a talk.
Mood: soresore
02 January 2011 @ 02:40 am
[Filter: Private]

That was a mistake, wasn't it? You ain't supposed to date people you work with. It's just askin for trouble. Ella's probably going to flip and what's Annie gonna think when she gets back here? If anyone would believe it I'd just tell em I was too drunk to think straight.

But it felt so right. Don't think I'd change a thing about last night.
Mood: groggygroggy
Eriena//Brendan of Keirnan
02 January 2011 @ 04:12 am
[Filter: Private]

I have never been so embarrased in my entire life. I --

It was so unlike him! So flippant, so inconsiderate. Three times, I had to request that he stop ... whatever it was that he was doing. Three times, and each time he acts as if it is all nothing, as if I am simply overreacting to something imagined! As if I am an idiot!

And then, when he finally did listen --

Surely anyone who overheard must have heard his tone. And -- saw me flush.

I will not be seen as weak before the people of this city! I refuse!

I just -- I do not understand. This is so unlike him ...

[Filter: Lorcan]

Cousin, I know that I promised you tea, but I fear I am very out of sorts today.
Mood: annoyedannoyed
02 January 2011 @ 03:45 pm
I told you it would be fun Anton!! Joshua had so much fun and everyone was super nice and why do they have to live so far away cuz it's a really long walk and we can't just all meet at the park all the time cuz then everyone's gotta walk a lot and I forgot to write on New Years Day cuz we were so busy and there was so much going on but

Mood: bouncybouncy
02 January 2011 @ 03:47 pm
[Filter: Lord Lawrence]

Do I even want to ask what was going on in Aelvir?

[Filter: Ree]

So ... how are things going, out there?

Are you there, yet? Still in flight? I don't know much time that trip is going to take when you're making sure you're not seen getting there. And then there's what you're going to tell them when you get there, and whether or not you'll find anything, and --

Right, sorry. You're the expert. What do I know about this sort of thing?

... I just didn't expect to miss you around here so much, is all. There's this whole thing with Keller and the trainees, and Harriet's been picking up most of your slack, but ... heh, she's not you. Not that she's worse, she's just different. And she wants my input a lot more than you ever have. It's a little dizzying, realizing how much of this I still don't know about.

I don't know. I guess there isn't really much of a point in me writing this, is there? ... just keep me posted when you can, alright?

Some days ... I almost feel like nothing is holding this country together.
Mood: stressedstressed
02 January 2011 @ 03:54 pm
[Filter: Megan Eshene, in Atsirian]

[there is a long pause]

Eshene. I ...
Mood: determineddetermined
Queen Edalene of Atsiria
02 January 2011 @ 05:12 pm
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

I do miss him ...

But how can he expect me to trust him!? He hurt me. He hurt me on purpose. He admitted that! How can I ever be friends with someone who hurt me on purpose? He ...

But ...

But he does feel badly. That's obvious. And ... no one's ever said anything quite that impassioned before. He obviously means it ... and.

And I do miss him.


I'll ... I'll think about it.

[Filter: Matthew, in Atsirian]

Have you ever seen a play, Matthew~?
Mood: blahhm
02 January 2011 @ 06:28 pm
So...I hope everyone had a wonderful New Year's! My family and I sure did. This year we made long lists of resolutions and then picked the three that mattered most. Seemed kinda odd to me, it was Ceilia's idea, but it made things kinda interesting. I sure hope I can keep mine this year!
Mood: goodgood
Seraphine (Elina)
02 January 2011 @ 06:52 pm
[Filter: Private]

I don't blame him for being afraid ... I would be, too. But ... he realizes that this is his only chance to actually be with her, ever, and --

And even if the worst happens, it'll still be better than that.

I wonder what I would do, given only just those choices ... ...

[Filter: Lady Caroline]

Ah, Lady Caroline. How are you feeling, today?
Mood: nervousnervous
02 January 2011 @ 07:09 pm
[Filter: Benedette]

Another update for you! I know you're on the edge of your seat.

I am on a ship called the Bonny Lover, which is a very nice passenger ship that still wasn't worth nearly as much as I paid for it. I'm not quite seasick, but when I'm in my cabin, there is definitely queasiness. I am quickly becoming the darling of the passage, adored at all meals and sought out on the railings. One particularly charming young lady has been trying very hard to get my attention ...

... but I told her I was travelling to Dentoria to see my secret lover with whom I'm carrying on an illict affair despite her being betrothed to a Sovereign House's heir, and she was so offended at how I made up such a stupid story to dissuade her that she hasn't paid attention to me in days.

I hope this satisfies your curiousity.
Mood: cheerfulcheerful
02 January 2011 @ 08:18 pm
[Filter: Private]

It's really nice to see that I was right about it all, after all. I told him there was more to it, and what did he say? It didn't matter. Some things are more important. Well I knew he was full of shit. I should have told him so right then. I shouldn't have even let myself think for even a second that he could actually let this go. Why would he? Nathan cares more about what happens to an asshole that made my friends' lives living hells. His stupid fucking broken sense of justice, hah. The rulebooks can't account for everything, and if he can't see that, then -- whatever.

The whole thing is just -- fine. Fine, you know what, I'm glad to know that's how he feels. It's a good thing I got out of there when I did, isn't it?

I have work to do. Plenty of work to do, and plenty to think about that isn't him.
Mood: angryangry
02 January 2011 @ 08:26 pm
[Filter: Private]

I know he won't talk to her. And if he does, it won't be to say what he should say.

That leaves it to me, whether he likes it or not.

[Filter: Kimberly]

We need to talk about you and Mark.
Mood: annoyedannoyed
Elliot (Adrian)
02 January 2011 @ 08:37 pm
[Filter: Private, in Old High Megami]

Something is still distracting her terribly, and I cannot believe it is simply her stewing over her mistake during last week's sermon. She's never faltered like that. Simply trailing off mid-sentence, that way ... I don't think the people are disappointed, as she thinks. I think they are concerned. For a moment, even I thought she might faint. She went very pale ...

But she She's so stubborn, about

I hope she's not straining herself. What sort of message would it send, if the Goddess's chosen Prophet worked herself into aggravating an illness? It would cause all sorts of unfortunate rumours. Not to mention, half of Melyndra's power over the people comes from this perception they have that she is something more than mortal, herself.

She knows all of this. Better than I do, I'm sure. She's certainly made it clear that

Best not to second guess her decisions, really~ Or press too hard, when the subject is clearly so sensitive.
Mood: curiouscurious
Lady Mariana of Tersel
02 January 2011 @ 10:23 pm
[Filter: Private, in Old Kilian]

I ...

[long pause]

These journals just won't let me go, will they? Nor do I truly wish to leave, indeed, I think of them all the time even though I know how much I could have lost, had a different page been open. Yet even when the writing has appeared again, over and over, I have been able to turn away. But what I've read today ... it only highlights how much is going on and how much I have not been a part of. I've missed an entire year and then some.

It seems like much longer.

[Filter: Public, in Trade]

Hello everyone. I hope you do not think that I've forgotten you. I have no excuse for my long absence but I do hope and pray that you will all find it in your hearts to forgive me for it.

I would especially like to congratulate my niece Isanae and her husband, Lord Tarmon, on the birth of their first child. It is truly the most wonderful event you can ever experience.
Caitlin of Bresa
02 January 2011 @ 10:37 pm
[Filter: Private]

It is always a relief to know that the household can run on its own ... though everyone assures me it is not the same without the family here. They really do not have to worry so much about my feelings being hurt. A true lady knows she can rely on her servants to carry on and do whatever is necessary. And the reports from all confirm that Bresa has nothing to worry about in this area.

... Which of course brings me back to the matter of Quinn. There are a few ... oddities. And while I have some ideas as to where they may lead, hm, it never does one good to assume without finding out all the facts. Make the sheet balance, as-

[Filter: Quinn]

Darling, it is so wonderful to be with you again and to see you in high spirits once more. The healers tell me that you recovered shortly after the Festival? It is such a shame that you were ill for the holiday, as well as missing out on the wedding in Nallen.
Maire of Lysel
02 January 2011 @ 11:20 pm
[Filter: Private]

Well, that was ... nice. Yes, it was nice. It c I should talk to Lucius and see about Destin getting more night's off like that. Maybe I could even convince him to make it a regular thing. I can't just sit back and do nothing, at very least, no matter what Lizzie says.

[Filter: Lillian and Lizzie]

Thank you again for your help the other night. I really appreciate it.