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01 January 2011 @ 12:15 am
[Filter: Private]

It's an obselete thing that takes up too much money and feeds on the lower class. Some days, I just wish I could get rid of it, right now.

But ... it can be so beautiful, too. Tonight, I feel like a murderer for even thinking about getting rid of it like I have been.

I wish I could talk to Lei

No, I need to stop relying on that. Maybe she's never going to write again. I knew she wanted to leave completely after the Honeysuckle Treason. I have to learn to get along without her. Make my own choices. I don't want to be my father.

[Filter: Public]

Autumn has made such a big deal about this thing she wanted me to wear at the New Year ball tonight. I was sure it was going to be awful, after how she's gone on and on about it, but ... it's actually ... nice. It suits my colouring and it's tasteful, and I've had people coming up and telling me I look handsome all evening.

She's smug about it, glowing on my arm, but we do look nice together.
Mood: lonelylonely
Lady Therese of Temair
01 January 2011 @ 12:25 am
[Filter: Private]

And another year.

I -- last year, everything was so ... how is it, that I recall everything being so different when nothing has really changed? I was always Thomas' simple little doll, even before we were wed, isn't that so? And yet everything seems so ...

This is the life I dreamed of. This is what I always wanted. I got the wedding I dreamed of when I was a little girl, with a groom who cares for me more than anyone in the world could. More than I ever would have expected. And yet it all feels so ...

Bleak. One bleak day after another. Why can I not even find the strength to be angry about it now? Is it so hard? Why can he not -- not even look at me, some nights? I thought ... I thought that, when we were married, it would ...

What a foolish little child I've been.
01 January 2011 @ 12:26 am
[Filter: Lydia]

Gotta make this fast. Pretty sure it's all going to be over after tonight.

Yeah, that's pretty much it.
01 January 2011 @ 12:35 am
[Filter: Private]

Please Dragons, help us.

I've never been so scared.
Matthias of Diarnay
01 January 2011 @ 12:36 am
Alright! Whatever, Four-Eyes, I picked a damn book!
Mood: okayIDK W/E
01 January 2011 @ 12:39 am
[Filter: Franelcrew]

Ah, all right, we're nearly there. We're just outside the dining hall -- we'll be out soon. Lord Lawrence, you and the others should regroup and head back to the castle whenever you can, before they realize what we've done. We've thinned out the guards inside ... you shouldn't have terribly much trouble.
Mood: determineddetermined
01 January 2011 @ 12:41 am
[Filter: Private]

I can't believe her.

I had faith in her! I went back to her, I apologized, I -- I never, ever thought that she could have this in her.

She can say anything she damn well wants to about convenience and affordability and all of that. That's not what this is about. She hated that man, and she hated him enough that after she fabricated crimes for him and had him evicted from his home, she runs in and squats right on top of the place she had him forced out of.

It's --

Yes, he did some awful things, but how are you any better, Daisy?

Dragons, I just -- I almost just want to tell her goodbye, right now. If she could do this, what else could she do?!
Mood: angryangry
01 January 2011 @ 12:52 am
[Filter: Franelcrew]

Attention. Are we all ready, and in position?

Yeses would be very much appreciated, and noes will have to see me after the classes are out of session.
01 January 2011 @ 12:54 am
Ughhhhh I can't believe people are still here. It's almost midnight and we're still absolutely packed. I thought people would like, I don't know, go home before it got to be this late, so they could celebrate or whatever someplace that wasn't here.

Dragons, I'm so tired. I just want this night to be over. It'll all be so much less of a mess when it's over.
Mood: tiredtired
01 January 2011 @ 01:31 am
[Filter: Men]

I ... am in need of help.

It takes a great deal of ... humility for me to come here today and ask this question, but I have become quite desperate, and any help that anyone could provide would be appreciated beyond explanation.

I ... if anyone here has ever experienced difficulties with ... a man's duties to his wife, which they have managed to overcome, I would appreciate it if they could contact me with advice or assistance. Thank you in advance.
Mood: stressedstressed
01 January 2011 @ 02:01 am
[Filter: Private]

You'd better be safe out there. I know we can't stay close, but that doesn't mean I'm not counting on you to come through this.
Caroline of Nallen
01 January 2011 @ 02:08 am
[Filter: Private]

And so another year is upon us. In only three months, I'll be twenty-eight and still unmarried. Whereas Lady Isanae has just given birth to her firstborn son. In another world, that could have been me. I do not regret that too much though, because of what followed for me.

However, even with the promise of Ian and everything he offers, it will still be hard. Especially as I still don't know when he shall return from Hanalan. Why did he But of course, he has his duties. I will not begrudge him that.

At least Thomas and Tessa are finally married. Even with - [pause] It is the best thing I could ever wish for either of them.

Now if only there was some of that happiness and certainty for me.
Caitlin of Bresa
01 January 2011 @ 02:38 am
[Filter: Private]

Talking with Josephine has been most enlightening. I am certain that with her help, Deborah will finally manage to unlock her hidden potential. She must, as this could be -

Ah, no ... of course everything will be fine. Peter knew what he was doing, when he brought Josephine here. Though of course that was partly due to their old acquaintance ... they do get on so well.

With Deborah looked after, that only leaves the question of Quinn. Always, always Quinn. He seems to have spent his time alone here wisely but he still has so far to go. I am always so close to my wit's end ...

But I can leave that for now, though only for now. We are finally home again and it is wonderful. Concentrate on that and the world seems a brighter place.
01 January 2011 @ 02:51 am
I'm going to want to kill myself in the morning, but I'm pretty sure that with this much malt I'm going to see the sunrise before I pass out. And probably make a lot of really poor decisions. I love this fucking holiday. Same as all of the other holidays.
Xander of Meirsu
01 January 2011 @ 02:52 am
[Filter: Lady Canti]

Dear lady, I believe I am almost finished my latest composition, which is, of course, the one in your honor! I do hope you will have a moment to read the final lyrics and let me know what you think.

Lean out your window, golden hair
I heard you singing in the midnight air
My book is closed, I read no more
Watching the fire dance, on the floor
Ive left my book,
Ive left my room

For I heard you singing through the gloom
Singing and singing, a merry air
Lean out the window, golden hair...

As I said before, you have been such an inspiration to me. Especially with this piece.
01 January 2011 @ 02:53 am
[Filter: Franelcrew]

We have to go now! The other group's close enough and if any more soldiers get here we won't be able to hold them off. Retreat back to the castle. GO before they realize what's happened!!
Mood: determineddetermined
01 January 2011 @ 02:57 am
[Filter: Franelcrew]

This is ... awful.

I almost just ... wish they would come more often. Rush us and be beaten back. It's all so quiet, and the tension is so thick, and I keep looking about, thinking they're going to come from everywhere any any moment. I'm terrified, I'm shaking. I don't ...
Mood: scaredscared
01 January 2011 @ 02:57 am
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

It would be ironic, to have waited so long only to be beaten to the altar by my sister and my betrothed's brother. Ridiculous even, yet I can so easily see it happening.

I told myself I would accept no more delays and yet here I am, waiting as always.

01 January 2011 @ 03:01 am
[Filter: Marias, in Kilian]

Now, what a peculiar expression you're wearing today, everytime I go up there. It's almost as if you want to ask me a question, but that can't be right. You, approaching me, with something other than murder in your eyes? How could this be?

I'm so curious.
Mood: amusedamused
01 January 2011 @ 03:07 am
Fayre, darling, I would --

[a small section of this page is cut right through, with black singe marks along the edges]

-- very much appreciate it if you would stop going off on your own like this, what I'm doing today is much more heavy in concentration than how we normally do this, you know~

So if you could please --
Mood: workingworking
Francisca of Emeron
01 January 2011 @ 03:13 am
I am really staying up this year! This time I really won't fall asleep, I promise! Oh, I know this will be the year I finally see a new year come!

I bet next year is going to be so much better than this one even though this year was very good! Except for one thing, but that won't happen at all next year, and I know this year is going to be busy with the new baby around and so much to do!
Mood: bouncyThat isn't cocoa on my face
01 January 2011 @ 03:34 am
Holy shit, stop scaring me like that, Gebann!
Lord Rylan of Allba
01 January 2011 @ 03:40 am
[Filter: Private]

I will have to thank the Dragons extra hard tonight that I do not have it the worst off. I may not be able to have children so far, but at least I can please Cerise. It is a rather important distinction. Though I wonder if anyone thinks I have a similar problem.

It is no business of theirs anyway, but it would be nice to be able to dispel any rumours that might be going around. I think our conversations do enough of that as it is though.

At any rate, the year is officially over. All of the preparations have been leading up to me starting this. I can have some quiet time away from the world while I pour over the important receipts of a kingdom with the economy of a raging ox. I say this without a hint of sarcasm: Thank you, Nicolas. I would not have nearly as much time to myself without your absence.
01 January 2011 @ 02:00 pm
Ashore for the new year. Colndor, but that doesn't matter, as long as the booze is good. Another year alive is always worth celebrating. Especially in my line of business.
Mood: pleasedpleased
Lissandra of Veirnan
01 January 2011 @ 02:25 pm
[Filter: Private]

I should think of my goals for next year. Grandmother always said it can never be too soon to plan for such things. So then, what do I want from next year?

I want ... I want Father to think of me as his heir. I wish for us to confer on matters important to Veirnan. I want him to think of me as a woman grown, not a girl, not someone he can turn away and keep secrets from. How am I to accomplish all of that?

I need more time to think about this. Tomorrow will be a busy day.
Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
Var (Varelia)
01 January 2011 @ 02:35 pm
Umm ... I think people have explained this to me before, but I must have forgot, so ... why do people let birds go on New Year's Day? I see that some people talk about it here, but we never did this in Atsiria and I don't think they do this in Hanalan either. Sindre says that the birds are for the cloud spirits to eat and give the land more rain, but I think he's lying! He looked like he was trying very hard not to laugh!
Mood: curiouscurious
01 January 2011 @ 08:16 pm
[Filter: Franelcrew]

We're in the escape tunnel now. Just keep moving. We need to be far from this place. We'll see you soon.
Mood: soresore
Ethne of House Karnach
01 January 2011 @ 11:22 pm
[Filter: Private, in Atsirian]

There, see, I've done it again. If Edalene doesn't adore these, I may as well just give up and pack myself straight back to Meatha.

She will, though. It's an absolute shame that someone else will be taking credit for the gift, but these are the sacrifices we make.

[Filter: Gideon, in Atsirian]

Have you managed to get through to Edalene, yet, dear? You'll be glad to know that I've found the perfect gift, so no need to worry yourself over that.
Mood: pleasedpleased
Prince Julian of Kanemoria
01 January 2011 @ 11:27 pm
[Filter: Fayre]

What was that all about? Are you -- what is going on, over there? It sounded quite dangerous, and I would very much appreciate knowing that you've come out of whatever it was in one piece, thank you.
Mood: worried@_@
01 January 2011 @ 11:32 pm
My goodness. You know, I often forget that my poor employer has a great deal less fun than I do, as a general rule. I should have warned her better against trying to keep up with me. I'm so sorry, Tallys. I'll take full responsibility.

If it makes you feel any better, we've gone through about a quarter of our stock of peacebloom, since this morning. And I'm sure you were only half of that, so we might have even turned a profit.
Mood: amusedamused
01 January 2011 @ 11:41 pm
Well, ladies~ We've got a whole new year ahead of us, full of possibilities, and I think we oughta start it out by wrapping up our port side operation, here. We gave it a good run, here, no complaints about that, but we're running low on merchandise, for one, and I figure I can't be the only one anxious to see the royal procession in the city, for the other~

And I'm starting to worry about my poor old man's health, without me there to keep an eye on him. You haven't been letting him plug right through our entire wine stock while we've been away, I hope, Zahra, Noland!
Mood: cheerfulcheerful